It has been said, "Faith is not believing God will make our ideas and plans happen if we give them to Him – it is a steadfast trust that what He leads us to and through is better than what we planned. It is choosing to believe that if He doesn’t make our original dreams come to pass, it’s because He has something better."
Why would he allow me to dream of these things then. My dream was to be an amazing singer known the world over for producing great music that brought joy in people’s lives. I had this dream ever since I was 10 years old and asked for piano lessons even earlier than that so I could learn to make music but NO, my parents(mother and grandmother) never got me the help I needed. Why would God put me in a family that wouldn’t allow me to do anything or go anywhere? I lived a very boring and uneventful sheltered life where I could build or explore my talents. Why allow me to have such BEAUTIFUL dreams if they weren’t meant for me? Why put me in a family that wouldn’t allow me to get the necessary skills to make my dreams come true?
Also he made me an ugly and short man, that’s awful. This has to be some sort of cruel joke or the fact that he just doesn’t exist maybe. Why would he do this to me knowing how I would feel? Why was he never there for me when I needed him most? I cried myself to sleep many nights but yet no help or answer came. God has really failed me BIG TIME and I’m just about ready to give up. Why live a life that you don’t want, especially when you’re not happy?