- Mar 29, 2011
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I thought I had forgiven some people for awful things they did to me years ago, even though they were never open to reconciliation and honest communication (let alone apology) about the matter, and it was clear they did not want to have decent, sensible interaction.
I got alone and prayed, and asked God to help me let go of my resentment, my ego, and to make my heart right in this situation. I acknowledged and repented for my part in this, even though I felt like their wrong far outweighed mine. (And I still feel that way.)
Jesus told us to love our enemies. How do we love someone who seems to dislike us and not even give us a chance? They've made it clear they don't want any further communication with me, so writing them or trying to discuss anything is out of the question.
There seems to be no closure on this for me, which frustrates me further.
But the thing that troubles me most is, I still feel resentment toward them at times. Resentment that they hurt me so badly, that they wounded my spirit with what they did to me. And I often wonder, what would I do if I ran into them in a store or whatever. This is after I have prayed and asked God to help me love them regardless. All I can think of is how ugly they treated me. That's all I can see.
Has anyone else ever suffered with anything like this? And if so, were you ever able to get past it?
I got alone and prayed, and asked God to help me let go of my resentment, my ego, and to make my heart right in this situation. I acknowledged and repented for my part in this, even though I felt like their wrong far outweighed mine. (And I still feel that way.)
Jesus told us to love our enemies. How do we love someone who seems to dislike us and not even give us a chance? They've made it clear they don't want any further communication with me, so writing them or trying to discuss anything is out of the question.
There seems to be no closure on this for me, which frustrates me further.
But the thing that troubles me most is, I still feel resentment toward them at times. Resentment that they hurt me so badly, that they wounded my spirit with what they did to me. And I often wonder, what would I do if I ran into them in a store or whatever. This is after I have prayed and asked God to help me love them regardless. All I can think of is how ugly they treated me. That's all I can see.
Has anyone else ever suffered with anything like this? And if so, were you ever able to get past it?