Well, I can say this much. I can be somewhat of a complainer at times (like Jacob), but I have this interesting anger-love relationship with the Lord. Even though I oftentimes gripe, I cannot honestly find fault with Him. He pulled me thru many of situations, and I often commented that I could not screw up my life if I wanted to. There were occasions where I made conscious choices that would have ruined me, but somehow I got saved from them all unexpectedly.Other Christians do the same thing and they divorce, they fall into economic ruin, or whatever and I have to play the devil's (or unbeliever's) advocate and ask, "Where was their God? And why did He not save them?" I'm married over 20 years now, good things, healthy teenagers (one's almost adult now)Not to say that bad things don't happen to me. About 3 years ago I lost a good-paying job to one that basically pays half now. However, we somehow ended up with a large store of finances and we are actually
better off than before. I tithe cheerfully, but that is just my nature (like an angry woman that loves her husband). Maybe I'll get my share one day, but whether a small dose or large one, I NEVER can honestly say that the Lord up to now has not made something better for all of us.And BTW, I chose the Lord because for whatever cosmic reason He has, chose me first (predestination). I know I would not have chosen a person like myself!
(In all fairness I am outwardly very friendly and cheerful in spite of my gripes).