Depressed, Angry, Hopeless, bored, Bored, Bored, No Friends. Nothing.

Polt said:

Be the best dressed in your age group.

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What does that have to do with anything? He's going to church, not a job.

ChristRoseFromTheDead said:

What does that have to do with anything? He's going to church, not a job.

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He wants to raise his stature, self-confidence, etc. Dress is one of the easiest ways to do it. Besides, I didn't tell him to dress up better than the pastor.

Inmate said:

I agree..Wearing dress clothes don't make you a better Christian lol. Those clothes aren't my style.

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You're right. Stick to your style, but stop complaining about the results.

Inmate said:

I don't complain about how I wear clothes. I consider myself neat, Im just disappointed that im socially awkward and have trouble talking with others

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Yeah I remember those days. Try something different. Instead of paying attention to how you feel, look around and see if there's something you can do for someone: compliment, encouragement, errand, etc. If it feels good do it again. Just an experiment.

btw, you seem pretty intelligent and honest. Good qualities.

You are in a trap all right. I was in a trap at ages 14-19. Only my trap was a lot worse. If I were to tell you it will make you feel worse. So I will say, take my word for it --could be a lot worse. You are a true from the heart person and see things as they are.
My testimony is to pray God will send the person or persons to help create some bible fellowship. Doesn't need to be daily. The rest of the time read the new Test. through slowly in order to see what is really being said.

Your goal can be nothing less than to meet Jesus personally. Ask him to help you do what his word is saying. Don't be ashamed to say I am a loser without Jesus. My successful Christian life cost me much, but it is worth it. I am one who stands on his own two feet. God took this low down good for nothing person and changed me into one of the most blessed persons you'll ever meet.

Even many Christians don't like me because they are jealous. Even as I am writing this post I knew about you and the Holy Spirit showed me today how you feel. It must be you and Jesus personally and by your being alone, only can this really happen. Paul the Apostle while in prison wrote most of his epistles. God even saved the guard he was chained to.

As a former suicidal, drug addict, heavy metal artist and Satan worshiper, now cannot afford to die, read bible, daily, worship in music, and meet with Jesus literally daily. and that is just the small of it. Seek out your own salvation with fear and trembling. it's you who wants to make it if no one else does. Rev. shows us 1,000s will make it. see ch. 7 and 14.

2Tim. 1:7 says we have not been given a spirit of fear, but power , love, and a ----sound mind. Isa. 40: run and not be weary and walk and not faint, read all of ch.40. It would be great if all could go to Jesus before they go to any church. Jesus always told me where to go to church. in short, was praying in the Spirit when had a vision. Saw a space ship in living color. Some folks I knew had sent a letter saying there is a certain church that I may want to attend. The vision was then fulfilled. For the church was a few miles from the Cape Canaveral space center. We went there a few years and it was awesome. They were real loving people. God bless my friend in Christ.

Inmate said:

I am 17 years old, to the point of nothing. I wake up every afternoon to nothing..Im sick of having dreams because I wake up and they are not real. I wish they were.

Im uneducated, I don't like going to church because I am awkward in public, I don't sing I don't do none of that. my seeking of God is done in private so please don't suggest anything for churches.

I literally have no friends on earth. Nobody cares about the gospel, I want a GF but there are none In my town. Most of them act like whores and or not born again. I will tell you the truth I want to die, Not suicidal but I would be thrilled if I can just go home to Heaven NOW because I want to live life, Do things, And I obviously cant do those things on earth because my whole personality and life is hidden in Christ.

I have faith in Jesus and that God has the life I always wanted in Heaven (before you get arrogant and say I want to be famous or something like that, its not the life I wanted) I want to have friends, go out in the world and enjoy, explore. But this earth has destroyed my whole life. I don't want no part of nothing...Anymore. on top of that, I am being attacked spiritually and believe I cannot be saved.

Can you pray that I may stay spiritually aware? I don't ask that you pray for me to go to church or do anything on earth, all I want is to have some sort of a way out of this trap

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I will pray for you Inmate. I too feel this way much of the time. There has been incredible evil in my life since I was born (I was born into a very evil family), and they seem to take much pleasure in tormenting to this day. I thought they were gone, but they have never really left. As a result, I suffer from unbearable depression, and feel more like a victim than a survivor. And it's hard to find a good church, or lift yourself, or read the word cause you can't concentrate, or even find an online forum where pseudo Christians won't bang you on the head with their cyber verses.
In the end, all I do is say my meager little prayers to God, but I know He hears me. And my help is on the way.
My advice to you would be to pray as much as you can. Ask others to pray for you as you are doing now (like I said, I will ), but don't forget to ask God to send people your way whose hearts are in the right place. It makes all the difference in the world.


Don't give up Inmate. No matter how hard it gets. It WILL get better.


Love,

laid renard ~
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Father God, send this young man who calls himself Inmate, your Spirit of Peace which passes all understanding.

Set him free from his personal prison.

Give him the clarity of mind to study and grow in your word and a relationship with you.

He may be young, but young people can feel pain too. Saturate him with the love that made you adopt him.

Or to better clarify, let him feel this love you've had for him since before you created the universe and time.


In Your Most High Holy Name I Pray, Jesus


laid renard, your adopted child as well

Inmate said:

I am 17 years old, to the point of nothing. I wake up every afternoon to nothing..Im sick of having dreams because I wake up and they are not real. I wish they were.

Im uneducated, I don't like going to church because I am awkward in public, I don't sing I don't do none of that. my seeking of God is done in private so please don't suggest anything for churches.

I literally have no friends on earth. Nobody cares about the gospel, I want a GF but there are none In my town. Most of them act like whores and or not born again. I will tell you the truth I want to die, Not suicidal but I would be thrilled if I can just go home to Heaven NOW because I want to live life, Do things, And I obviously cant do those things on earth because my whole personality and life is hidden in Christ.

I have faith in Jesus and that God has the life I always wanted in Heaven (before you get arrogant and say I want to be famous or something like that, its not the life I wanted) I want to have friends, go out in the world and enjoy, explore. But this earth has destroyed my whole life. I don't want no part of nothing...Anymore. on top of that, I am being attacked spiritually and believe I cannot be saved.

Can you pray that I may stay spiritually aware? I don't ask that you pray for me to go to church or do anything on earth, all I want is to have some sort of a way out of this trap

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Inmate, do not allow depression to guide your spirit, for the Joy of the LORD is our strength, You are more than a conquerer in Christ Jesus, you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you, no weapon formed against you shall prosper, you are the head and not the tail, you are blessed coming in and blessed going out, He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world. Say that out loud and MEAN IT! So that the spirit world hears your confession of the Word that is in you heart and in your mouth! Say it everytime the devil throws his fiery darts... put on the FULL armour of God Eph 6 so that he can not penetrate your thoughts to ruin your faith in God. Rise up and whip out that sWord of the Spirit which is the Word of God in our mouth! And slay that dragon~ For when we are inside the armour of GOD.. the devil doesn't know it is us under there : ).

Now ask God to use you as He sees fit, tell Him to take your miserable life and DO SOMETHING WITH IT! Ask Him to bring you a God fearing helpmeet to be your wife to bring forth godly children to honor HIM!! God LOVES when we seek godly things for the advancement of His kingdom and HE will bring it to pass if you just have patience and believe that He is working on your behalf but... in His timing. For without faith it is impossible to Please God, we must believe that He is and is a rewarder of those who Diligently seek Him!! Faith without WORKS(stepping out in faith) is Dead!

Now begin to thank Him everyday for working on your behalf as you have asked, because He will not do it without your free will asking Him too and He loves all the Glory before(faith) seeing it and when it begins to manifest~

Heb 11:1-3
11:1 Now (RIGHT NOW) faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
2 For by it the elders obtained a good report.
3 Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear.
KJV

Hope this blesses you,
Diana