Who is Jesus Christ? And what is my relationship with Him?
But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear: Having a good conscience; that, whereas they speak evil of you, as of evildoers, they may be ashamed that falsely accuse your good conversation in Christ. (1 Peter 3:15-16)
Go ahead and scrutinize my doctrine; no problem there. I have nothing to hide in that aspect.
What I am trying to explain in this thread is that I have been changed by Jesus Christ. I can't confirm for you that the process is complete; I am more a work in progress, if you will. The experience I mentioned earlier is not the only evidence I have that God has come into my life. Since you talked about healing, I will match your example with one of my own.
One day on the farm I was feeding the cows in the morning. I was in the pen dumping grain into their trough. These playful creatures like to push you around with their heads when they are young. They put their heads down and just plow into you. I was turned to the side and the calf slammed into my knee, dislocating it from the socket. I collapsed to the floor, screaming in agony. I cried out to God and he guided my hands to snap my knee back into place. The pain was incredible, as anyone with a similar experience can surely vouch for. I couldn't walk.
Someone had to come help me off the ground and hold me up as I hobbled back to the administration building. A person I was with asked if he could lay hands on my injury and pray for me. At first I was a little taken aback - it was my first encounter with this kind of medical treatment. As he lay hands on my knee, an electric shock passed between my leg and his hand. The pain receded, but was still present. Perhaps I wasn't quite willing to believe that God really heals us.
That night I went to sleep in agonizing pain, and had a dream about a man. A man who came and healed me; we walked together. When I awoke in the morning I no longer felt any pain, the swelling was completely gone and I could walk up and down the stairs with no assistance. I had never previously experienced such an amazing occurrence.
To give an even clearer representation - I will put it onto context for you. I had a similar injury several years previous.... before I had encountered God in a personal way. It was the same type of dislocation. That same injury drove me to painkillers, physical therapy and two weeks before I could walk again.
And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover. (Mark 16:17-18)
I was on the receiving end of healing in this particular instance, but it is not my only example. It is only the one I care to share here.
I understand your reference about Satan, but I assure you - there is no relevance here. I find your comment about hallucinogenic drugs a little misguided. At the time of my LIGHT experience I hadn't touched a drink or drug for nearly eight months. So anything that may have been in my system previously was surely flushed out and no longer present. No one 'dosed' me.
I don't prescribe to any new age philosophy, although I have read some literature. I like to know what my opposition claims to be true, so that I can find the flaws in their logic and argue it while making some sort of sense. I hope to appeal to their reasoning, if nothing else. I am not an uneducated man, spouting my opinion as fact, with no basis in reality.
I try to align my personal experiences with what God says in his word.
Although I was exposed to Christianity as a child, I refused the concept and studied Philosophy in university and went down all sorts of paths. I've read the Qur'an, Confucius, The Celestine Prophecy, Immanuel Kant, Rene Descartes, Karl Marx, Plato, St. Francis, George Berkeley, John Locke, David Hume, Thomas Hobbes, Bertrand Russell, etc. Blah, blah, blah. Countless hours of countless pages. Then I branched into English and studied many other works - too many to list. Of course, in my spare time I poured science fiction, fantasy and classical literature into my mind.
Carrying on the path of philosophy, I studied computer science (programming) because I found a relationship between philosophical concepts and source code.
All of this reading, all of this searching, led me to ONE truth - our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. Nothing compares to the living God who is not hidden in the pages of a book, but rather present and interactive. A God who speaks and WALKS with his people.
One Lord, one faith, one baptism, One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all. (Ephesians 4:5-6)
But don't take my word for it. Just ask Him yourself.