I am not sure if this is the proper place to post this and I am not even certain if this board is where I should be looking for help, but if any of you can give me some advice I would really appreciate it.I'll try to be as brief as I can.I have always identified as a Christian. I grew up in a Catholic home and my mother tells me that when I was very young I was very devout. The funny thing is, I can't remember that at all.For all my adult life I have been going to church regularly but I didn't study the Bible in any serious way. I would just skim through it and I usually found myself re-reading the passages that appealed to me. Last year I went through a rather nasty and painful divorce which was made extra difficult because a large part of my family does not approve of divorce under any circumstances.Those of you who have experienced a divorce can perhaps relate to my state of mind. I basically started to take stock of my life and also of my religion.I swore that I would never lie to myself again after my failed marriage ( I had been kidding myself for years into thinking everything was fine between us ) and I came to the frightening realization that my believe in God was slipping.And I got scared.At 43, for the first time in my life I really started reading the Bible, front to back, and I hoped that I could find inspiration to strengthen my faith, but it isn't working. I just get more confused and some parts I actually dislike, especially the Old Testament with all its brutality.I still enjoy praying which I have done daily all my life, but I just wish that I could get rid of my doubt.To make matters worse, I recently read that Mother Theresa, whom has always been a great Christian example to me had long periods of doubt in her life too.Sorry for the long introduction and I hope I have not offended anyone here.Thanks in advance for any suggestions you may have.Soso