former scientologist needs your help

I desperetely need your help. Please spread my story here, post it to other message boards and tell your friends about it.I am not sure where to begin because there is so much to tell. I cant tell you my name but I hope you keep reading to understand why. I am 19 years old and I am a freshmen at college. About 3 years ago my life totally changed. I was taken from my parents or maybe they left me I dont know. I ended up with foster parents and was in public school for the first time. I graduated late because I couldnt pass the tests for graduation.My life has only just now begun because my parents are scientologists and so was I. All I ever knew was the people around me and the org and the tech. I grew up and I never once met any one who was not a scientologist. When I was 4 or 5 I started the clearing process. I was supposed to feel special being a boy because girls didnt start until alot later. When I was 9 I had to work. All day too. I believed that I was clearing the planet. I hardly ever saw my dad and only saw my mom like once a week. I remember the first time my dad left for sea org. My mom cried and got punished. I got punished too sometimes. Only scientologists dont call it punishment they have audits and rpf. I didnt really go to school because I had study tech. Im so far behind every one around me that I dont think I will get through college. I think my public school gave me teachers that were especially tentive so I could learn and do good enough to pass with respectable grades. My foster parents are a dream come true - they told me that they love me and that I could go to college because they would pay for it and Im really worried that Im going to flunk out.Anyway when I got to my foster parents 3 years ago I was angry and sad and confused and I had no clue what was going on. They took me to a psychologist and I was really upset. Iwas screaming and kicking and they said something about psychiatry and drugs and then I REALLY got upset. I know that you would not act this way but you were not rased scientologist. I was. Scientologists believe that psychiatry psychology and drugs are the biggest evil in the world and we used to make jokes about killing them all in different ways and laugh. If you did not laugh you got punished with audits or rpf. Any way I was restrained and sedated and given drugs. Over the following weeks I had to talk to a psychologist. At first I thought my spirit was basically being murdered so I wasnt listening or talking and when I did talk I did not say very nice things. There was a break when I didnt see her or anyone else really other than the woman who gave me the shots and then something happened. My psychologist came and got me and said "Im getting you out of here if it kills me". She put some real clothes on me and told me to walk sort of behind her so no one would notice me and we walked right out the front door. I thought I was free and that made me feel so good but I was still terrified. We got in her car and drove a long way. Then she parked the car and was kind of breathing funny and I saw that she was crying. She got out of the car and walked me over to wooded area with some benches. We were in a really big park with lots of trees and when she stopped crying she said to me "I dont know you but I care enough about you that I would trade my life to make yours better". This was totally opposite to everything I was told to beleive about people like her. The Park was nice and we talked. I told her about my childhood and she cried and I did too. She told me that I wasnt on any drugs she said it was saline to make me think it was drugs. I totally understand how brilliant she was to trick me out of scientology the way she did. I was tricked into trusting her but she did not abuse my trust she used it to help me. This is not how it works in scientology.She took me home to my foster parents after that. And I was HAPPY. The first time in my whole life I kew what that word meant. My foster parents spent hours with me every night talking with me about everything. Nothing was taboo and I never had relationships like it. My foster dad says he is christian and my mom says she is agnostic but she still goes to church with him. She said their pastor rocks. they told me that I was not going to go to church with them and at first I felt glad that I didn't have to go to church and then later I wanted to but they said no. when I asked why my mom said "god does not come to those who want him" which didn't make any sense to me at all. My parents brought their pastor to dinner soon after that and he came every week and we talked. Turns out that my mom was right he does rock and he is christian/agnostic like my mom is. He mostly just talked to me like a friend I asked some questions and he answered them. I learned more in 2 months of talking to him than I did my whole life in scientology.We almost had to move shortly afterward because my parents were being threatened over the phone. They were followed by cars all the time and people taking pictures. Our neighbors were getting letters in the mail claiming that my foster parents were child pornograghers. My foster dad's boss got letters too. This is why you cant leave scientology. The church comes after you. HARD. I know because I remember having to print fold and seal the same kind of letters my nieghbors were getting. I feel horrrible about it but I didn't know what I was doing then. I was just afraid of getting punished like everyone else. This is why I dont dare reveal my name. Im still afraid. Im especially afraid of what might happen to my foster parents. Im crying right now as I write this because you probably think this is a joke and I dont know what to say to you to get you to beleive me but leaving th church really is a big no-no. and talking against the church makes you a SP - supressive person. SP's must be destroyed at all costs says the church so thats what the scientologists do. My foster parents had to make sure I was always guarded after some guys showed up at the door dressed like cops but they were from the church and they were very threatening and demanded that I be handed over to them. Im afraid that somehow they might find me from posting this message and hurt my foster parents. Im so afraid I might lose them.I was worried enough when I got to college but my room mate has been great. he is smart and kind and he helps me alot. He really cares. Anyway he is a news junkie and last week we were watching the news - I forget which one and up pops this video of Tom Cruise in a speech for scientology. I had told him all about my past and what it was like and he had been very compassionate. His eyes were bulging out of his head and I could only imagine what he was thinking - like "oh my god they are totally crazy". He was definitely shocked. Within minutes everyone on our floor was watching the video on youtube. They were all laughing and replaying the video over and over. Everything I went through has all come back and I have been crying alot. Now there this group called "Anonymous" on the internet that has declared war on scientology. There are going to be protests and demonstrations. My room mate says he is "Anonymous" and that there could be many thousands of people world wide that are "Anonymous" and are going to protest at the churches. Now I know him and I beleive him when he says Anonymous is committed to non-violence. But SCIENTOLOGY IS NOT. I know how it works because I was in it and I saw what they do to protesters. Even if the protests are non violent the scientologists will come out and pretend to be one of the protesters and will bully and CAUSE violence against the church. Trust me when I tell you that this is what they are trained to do and they will even die if the church tells them that they have to.I have been talking to my roommate about what I should do. I cant just let this happen. he says he is going to protest no matter what because "evil prevails when good men do nothing, and so far good men have done nothing, but Anonymous delivers". I have not seen my real parents in 3 years. I don't even know if they are still alive. Its no secret that bad things happen on the ships. I don't know what to do because I can't go - if I do my foster parents might be attacked and my real parents might be killed.I am writing this plea for your help because since getting out of scientology I have met really great people who are christian. I dont know if Im christian or not but I have been counseled by christians and I have read what jesus was teaching and saying and it is christians who have totally proven to me that love works. Not scientology. I am not writing this plea for myself but for the scientologists out there. Their minds are NOT free. They have no idea what their saying or doing because its all brainwashing. Please believe me because I was one of them and they don't deserve what their church is going to do to them.I totally understand if you dont believe me but go on the internet and inform yourself with the information out there. This will be a jonestown of worldwide scale if Anonymous succeeds in exposing the leaders of the church. They aren't going to be allowed to live and I dont know what to do other then tell you my story and ask for your help. Please help. I think you are the only people who can help. Make sure that scientologists hear your voice and that you tell them that you are not attacking there beleifs. Tell them that they have the same right that you have to believe whatever you choose because that is what a free mind does. AND MAKE CERTAIN that they hear you say that even though you dont know them you care enough about them that you would trade your life to make theirs better.I am going to go. despite all that I could lose. evil prevails when good men do nothing and so far good men have done nothing but anonymous delivers.

I dont think you understand how lucky I consider myself to be. I have come into contact with exactly the right people for my eyes to have opened. After all I have been through I have what most of you will never have - a mind that will never be hijacked with brainwashing ever again.Im not asking for help for me, but on behalf of scientologists who are currently stuck in this cult. THEY DONT HAVE A WAY OUT. "Anonymous" has declared war and there will be mass protests and demonstrations worldwide on the 10th of Febuary. I CANT STRESS THIS ENOUGH - the church is going to make sure that it turns violent and try to claim persecution.I dont want you to pray for me, I dont need it. What I need from you is to arm yourself knowledge and TELL EVERYONE YOU KNOW. If you care about others having the choice to beleive like you do I implore you to research scientology. There are HORRIBLE abuses going on under the claok of "church". The only way this cult will lose its power over its victims is for you to TELL EVERYONE YOU KNOW.Things you should really know about scientology- Scientologists are made to believe that Jesus was a pedophile. REALLY.- L RON HUBBARD was a satanist. HE REALLY WAS.- Women are force to have abortions AGAINST THIER WILL.- L Ron Hubbard even performed abortion rituals on his wife.- People are forced to cut off all contact with non-sci family members.- People who leave are harassed or killed under the policy of "fair game".your board wont let me post links so go to wikipedia or google and do some searchesAbout the Sea Org About Rehabilitation Project ForceAbout "fair game"About RPFAbout Lisa McPherson and Josephus Havenithall the info on www(dot)xenu(dot)net is accurate as far as what I experienced. I only reached OT2 so I actually didnt know about the aliens and xenu and alot of other stuff but everything here is accurate as confirmed by many former scientologists.Please dont just stick your head in the sand

FAITHFUL said-"I do not believe you are true to the Lord Jesus. He would never ask us to support a lie in order for someone to live. Even the apostles never denied Christ in order to live. Christ is the Son of God and he is the only way for man to come to the Father. He would not in any man request that we do such a thing as you suggest.So clearly you thought the christian has no truth, they believe just words of men. Well we know the Son of God and we know that their is only one God and Lord. And our Lord and our Father can see through deceptions at any level.Christ said, Let the dead bury their dead. If you knew our Lord Jesus you would not have posted these things or even suggested the above."All I asked you to do is inform yourself and you didn't. Nobody does. This is why scientology exists - because all the people stick their heads in the sand and say "oh this cant possibly be true".FAITHFUL also said -"These people are already dead to God."Thats a terrible thing to say. you are turning your back on people who need your help because they dont believe what you do. You clearly dont understand their situation. THEY DONT HAvE A CHOICE."I do not believe you are true to the Lord Jesus."You should consider that perhaps YOU are not being true to Jesus. I decided some time ago, after being exposed to what Buddah, Jesus, Muhammed, Rumi, and many others said and did and I decided that Jesus knew what I wnted to know. I dont consider Jesus my "lord". I call him my Master.If you wish to brand me as a liar then why not prove it? Please inform yourself is all I asked and you havent.

I care deeply about everyone who suffers. But the suffering of scientologists are close to me because I have lived it. I think you are willfully ignorant, FAITHFUL. You believe you are right and therefore everyone else must be wrong. I am not going to attack your beliefs because you have a right to believe what you want to.You dont know me, but you believe that you do. You dont know the state of mind that scientologists suffer, yet you believe that you do. You could not possibly understand because you have not experienced it and I would never wish that upon you.Thinking that people should die because they do not believe in your god is exactly the reason that muslims used to justify flying planes into the world trade center. Why are christians the only people who deserve your compassion? Why do you make assumptions that are not true and then attack anyone who questions your actions?For anyone who really does care-The "Church" of scientology has control over peoples minds and are going to instigate violence so they can claim persecution. The "church" abuses its followers and does not care if they die as long as it serves them. "Anonymous" may be peaceful but the church is going to try and make sure that there is violence. I know this because I was in it and know what these people are brainwashed into doing.I dont think that "Anonymous" understands that this is going to turn violent because they dont understand that scientologists beleive that any SP (suppressive Person) is subject to "fair game" which includes murder. They have also been tricked into beleiving that there will be "battles" for earth and that there is something called EOC or "end of cycle" which is code for suicide that scientologists will be directed to do.These people dont think there is a way out and I know for certain that some want to get out but they are afraid of what the "church" will do to them. They need a way out but who is going to provide it?

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I just looked up on the Internet about "Anonymous" and it appears to be someone against Scientology and this group will protest against Scientology. Mountaintop:I think you have to make yourself clearer when addressing this subject. You had me believing the other way around. You sound a little emotional and that hinders one from speaking precisely.My fault that I did not check the sources first whenever someone makes such a fantastic claim.
I am sorry if my first post was difficult to understand. I had been up all night and crying fiercely. I could barely see the keys when I was typing.Im trying to tell you that I know from experience that there are scientologists who want to get out but they dont know how. There is no safety net for them to fall into. The "church" will try to destroy them and they know this. I dont know what to do because although I want to do something, my parents might be made to suffer badly if the church finds out. They might also learn of my whereabouts.The claims seem fantastic like you say but if enough people find out about what the chuch has been doing they wont be able to operate in secret like they are used to. That is what I am trying to do - get some people involved in learning what the "church" has been doing and spread the word. If enough people find out, the church might not be able to harrass and destroy the people who leave the cult.

Now that I can post links, here are a bunchAbout the Sea Org http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sea_orghttp://www.xenu.net/archive/so/About RPFhttp://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rehabilitation_Project_ForceAbout "fair game"http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fair_Game_%28Scientology%29They kill people who resisthttp://www.whyaretheydead.net/Read Paulette Cooper's testimonyhttp://www.xenu.net/archive/personal_story/paulette_cooper/"Anonymous" is realhttp://www.news.com/8301-10789_3-9859513-5...g=2547-1_3-0-20http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QiiKM34sIQAI have been researching here alot. go here -http://www.xenu.net

Thunder1,I was addressing FAITHFUL who was calling me a liar and proposing that scientologists should die because they dont believe what he/she does. It does not seem to me that FAITHFUL cares about the truth but would rather whip out scripture to condemn anyone in disagreement.

Thunder1,Imagine that you are standing before a pit of quicksand and there is someone drowning in front of you. You cant help becuase you cant reach that person.also imagine that surrounding you is a bunch of people holding poles that could reach the person but they dont feel like doing so and you are pleading for their assistance. But they wont help.That is how I feel right now.If enough people find out what the church of scientology is doing, the church wont be able to control these people the way they are used to. If I cant get anyone to lend a pole, maybe I can drain the quicksand.

Also, I want you to understand that I did not choose to leave. Child protective Services took me away from it.

The "church" of scientology continues to abuse people because they created a veil of secrecy to hide behind. The fact that people have no idea what they are doing and thinks them unharmful is a testament to how good they are at persecuting their critics.The Law is what protects the "church". You should find out how many laws they break in their abuses. You would be disturbed.

I dont really know what will happen on Feb 10. I only know that thousands of protesters are going to demonstrate at the churches and also that I know what scientologists are trained to do to them. The simple conclusion is violence.