Strange... I just finished praying along those lines 2 minutes before I got on. I've been struggling with this topic a little. Maybe someone can help me out... I totally agree with what you said Dukester. The biggest problem with my nature is that I'm always so motivated for what I think I need next. The Lord is so much bigger than just our needs though. There are so many parts of what we were created to be that we can't be without being close to The King as one in a close relationship with Him. I used to pray tons and looking back, I have a feeling it was out of lonliness. After I got married, a huge part of my prayer life started to suffer. I still choose to pray every day... but I used to pray most of the day, every day; without having to encourage myself to do so. Without seeing the Lord as a source to better myself (selfish perspective) how can I draw closer to Him? I want to. I'm trying to. I don't know how. I don't want to ask Him to put me through hardship so that "I need Him more" and feel inclined to seek him more. I'm not asking Him for a feeling. I just wish that I was one more willing to draw close to Him. How do I want more of Him without only wanting the good reasons to be close to Him? To answer your question Dukester, I think the wanting in this world is just something we just need to balance. For example, I could easily want to sit at home and play video games all week. To that extent my wanting is wrong, but I've decided to only play for a few hours on the weekend. I've disciplined my want to desire something that benifits me (i.e. it's healthy to relax a little) instead of hurting me. Then again, our nature also has us wanting things that we're not supposed to even want a little of. To those things, we have to trust scripture to guide us to what's the right thing to do, for our own sake (if not that of the others). That's the bottom line for me, which is likely linked to why I'm having trouble concerning drawing close to the Lord... my internal process is along the lines of: "Is what I think I want right now actually going to wind up being good for me, or hurting me somehow?".