(Cybella;44540)
Once again, I have had a strange dream. But, where the last one disturbed me, this one genuinely frightened me.I was again in the place that was beyond sight, beyond any kind of images. There was nothing but the wordless voice. It seemed to speak to me again, but this time I had no understanding at all, I could make no sense of it in the least. But then, I felt rather than heard the numbers: 13 and 50. With the numbers came the most horrible pain that i have ever felt, more horrible than I thought any person could feel. I heard screams, tormented horrible screams with my ears and my whole body. There was so much pain in every nerve of my body that I forgot where my body even was. I tried to scream, but my voice was lost among the others. I wanted it to stop, needed it to stop. I wanted to die, would do anything to die and stop the pain. "Please" I could hear my voice then, though barely over the roar of the screams. "Please!" It was then that the pain stopped, the voices faded. The blackness was still black as ever, but it seemed to grow warmer, glow almost. I felt the numbers 3 and 16 touch me gently, as if they had been blown by a gentle breeze. The dream faded...What should I make of this? It all seemed so much sharper, so much more real than a normal dream. And yet, I cannot help but be skeptical. I will admit that my skepticism is beginning to fade, but I am confused and frightened as ever. Can anyone help me? What do the numbers mean?
Hi Cybella,These dreams sounds very frightening. I am really not sure what you should make of this. It could be just a dream or it could be something more. If these dreams are spiritual in nature (and I am not trying to say one way or the other) then it can either be from God or the devil. God will never inflict pain on you to make a point. He will allow you to feel pain, (we all suffer in this world - that is not God's doing but he can use our suffering to help us and others) but he won't ever inflict it on you. The devil will try to deceive you at every turn. He will try to do whatever he can to keep you from God. Since you have joined this forum and are asking questions about God, it could be that the devil is trying to frighten you so much that you will stop asking questions. As to the numbers 13 and 50 I have no idea, but you mention the numbers 3 and 16 to any Christian and they will immediately say John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, so that whoever believes in him will not perish but have eternal life." For every Christian this is a special verse and sums up the entire Bible. Perhaps the 3 and 16 was your way of comprehending God's alleviation of the oppression inflicted on you. Perhaps it was nothing. Perhaps it was part of the 'attack', perhaps not. It may not have been anything more than a nightmare. Dreams can make any sensation in the mind feel totally real. It is possible. But it is unlikely that even the worst nightmare would have this effect, due to self preservation. This would perhaps lead me to the conclusion that what you experienced was an attack - but there is no way of knowing for sure.Whether the dream was a message, or an attack or just a dream, I do know this: God loves you and wants you to know him. The only way you can know him is through Jesus Christ. I don't know if you have read much of the Bible, but I would suggest you read one of the gospels (possible Mark or John). Before you do so, with sincerity of heart, ask God to show you the truth. If you seek him with a sincere heart, you will find him. Do not be deceived by the devil - he is the father of lies and he will try to deceive you if you seek God.I'll tell my experience if it helps...When you mentioned the gentle touch, it certainly came to my mind about my experience of God before committing myself to him. I was at the lowest point of my life and I felt God's presence and his voice inside my mind (in a similar way that you mentioned) telling me to go to church. The voice was so soft and gentle, and that is how I have often experienced God. He is never forceful or demanding, always gentle, calm and patient. I obeyed the voice, not because I felt forced to do so, but because I knew it to be what I needed to do. On the night I went to church, I felt like something was physically trying to stop me going - like there was a barrier that I was pushing against. I felt this until I walked onto the church grounds. I have undergone "attacks" since then also, but always God has provided me with a way out, a means of protection.The similarities may be nothing more than coincidence. I really do not know what to make of your dream.