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Tree Of life I have lost all confidence in myself, when I depended on myself I digged myself into a huge hole. So I looked through the scriptures and I learned to have confidence in Christ. I turned to him, confessed to himand I keep digging that hole, I expected him to make my burden lighter, but it just became heavier, I expected him to carry my cross, but instead he just gave me another one. The problem is I have lost confidence in God, i don't want to turn to him, Instead I depend on my sins and no matter how sick I am of my sins I can't stop depending on them. How true was Jesus when he said "No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.'and for someone reason I cannot not find a way to serve God. I can't find a way to lean on him.So I am slowly despising him.
Sounds like you're going through what the Apostle Paul was going through when he wrote Romans chapter 7...Romans 7:18-25For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not.For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do.Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me.I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.For I delight in the law of God after the inward man:But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.O wretched man that I am!
who shall deliver me from the body of this death? [ANSWER --]
I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord.LGF, you can't do it all on your own, but at the same time, you can't expect God to do it all for you. You said that you expected God to pick up your cross because He promised to make our burdens lighter, but that is not what the Scriptures say. "Come to me all you who are weary and heavy laden, and I will give you
rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me; for I am gentle and lowly in heart: And you will find rest for your souls. For
My yoke is easy [other translation, good], and My burden is light [other translation, easy]." Matthew 11:28-30"Then He said to them all, 'If anyone desires to come after Me,
let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me.'" Luke 9:23God never promised us an easy road. He said that the easy road was the one that leads to destruction, but the hard road is the way that leads to life. However, just because the
road is hard does not mean that
God's way of doing things is hard. Remember that God did promise to be there to help us always, and if He is at our side, directing our steps, even if we fall, we won't be completely cast down, because God upholds us with His hand. (Psalm 37:23-24) And when we fall, we should not stay down in the mud and dirt, but we should get back up and try again. As we become transformed by the renewing of our minds (through reading God's Word every day), it get's easier and easier because God will show you what He wants you to do. All it takes to make it hard is for you to start making excuses and then not do what God wants you to do. You can't quit! Persistance is the key! Most people quit right before their victory! Hang in there! You can do it!"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13Notice that it doesn't say "some things," or "most things," but "ALL things." And through Who? CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS YOU!:read: And the way to know what you should do to serve God is to read His Word every day and when you see something that you should or shouldn't be doing, take it to heart to make changes in those areas. If you are really sick of your sins, you will do whatever it takes to be as good as you can be for God, so I would suggest that when you see a sin mentioned in the Bible (especially something that you are doing), write it down and make a note not to do it again. We all stumble, but the important thing, as I said before, is to get back up again. Don't let Satan keep you down; If he can keep you down, he's won. Pray about those things that you have noted not to do, asking God to help you not to do it again. God WILL help you, but you have to continue to rely on Him and not give up! "Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and do not lean on your own understanding; in all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He WILL direct your path." (Proverbs 3:5-6) God sees your heart, so if He sees that you are really, truly trying, He will show you what to do to serve Him (and part of serving Him is keeping from sin)...I'll be praying for you. Once again, hang in there!
"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit..." Ro 8:1