when I am covered in darkness

ThePuffyBlob · Dec 20, 2019

how can i ... nor do I even know what to do

when I think about the fact that no one wants me in this world

because there really isn't

so my feeling there is also nothing

i do not know where will i go or where to go

once pride has wrapped in my heart automatically i will still drive forward while still looking back and feeling guilt

I also don't know why I don't go to God instead

Heart2Soul · Dec 20, 2019

Funny bird said:
how can i ... nor do I even know what to do

when I think about the fact that no one wants me in this world

because there really isn't

so my feeling there is also nothing

i do not know where will i go or where to go

once pride has wrapped in my heart automatically i will still drive forward while still looking back and feeling guilt

I also don't know why I don't go to God instead

Sometimes God comes to us through others...maybe you came here because He was leading you to....
That kind of thinking comes straight from the enemy, satan, and you need to tell him to get out of your head.
You are wanted and you are valuable to the one who created you and predestined your life to help bring Glory to Him through the testimony of what He has done for you and what He has brought you through.
It's hard to turn to Him when we are so wrapped up in guilt and condemnation...again lies from satan.
There is no condemnation to those who are in Christ. Repent of whatever sin is causing this feeling of guilt and condemnation and your Father in Heaven will forgive you and as far as the east is from the west will he remember your sins no more.
He is a loving, merciful Father who wants the best for you....His Mercy and Grace is new everyday!
Quit being so hard on yourself and see yourself through His eyes.....wonderfully and beautifully created....He knows more about you than you know about yourself.
You are His child and He can and will bring joy and peace in your life if you will call upon Him and let Him heal what is broken.
God Bless and I will pray for you!

Waiting on him · Dec 20, 2019

Funny bird said:
how can i ... nor do I even know what to do

when I think about the fact that no one wants me in this world

because there really isn't

so my feeling there is also nothing

i do not know where will i go or where to go

once pride has wrapped in my heart automatically i will still drive forward while still looking back and feeling guilt

I also don't know why I don't go to God instead

Welcome to the forum, glad your here.

ThePuffyBlob · Dec 21, 2019

Heart2Soul said:
Sometimes God comes to us through others...maybe you came here because He was leading you to....
That kind of thinking comes straight from the enemy, satan, and you need to tell him to get out of your head.!

i am telling him to go out with bad words

because sometimes I'm crazy and praises that ******

then I realize I was also praising God,

after i praised God I do not know why it just pop out in my brain I also praises that vampire

what should i think? if this is indeed what's in my mind? is it mine or fron them? or was it from them and they infected me because I was too stupid?

ThePuffyBlob · Dec 21, 2019

Heart2Soul said:
Sometimes God comes to us through others...maybe you came here because He was leading you to....
That kind of thinking comes straight from the enemy, satan, and you need to tell him to get out of your head.
You are wanted and you are valuable to the one who created you and predestined your life to help bring Glory to Him through the testimony of what He has done for you and what He has brought you through.
It's hard to turn to Him when we are so wrapped up in guilt and condemnation...again lies from satan.
There is no condemnation to those who are in Christ. Repent of whatever sin is causing this feeling of guilt and condemnation and your Father in Heaven will forgive you and as far as the east is from the west will he remember your sins no more.
He is a loving, merciful Father who wants the best for you....His Mercy and Grace is new everyday!
Quit being so hard on yourself and see yourself through His eyes.....wonderfully and beautifully created....He knows more about you than you know about yourself.
You are His child and He can and will bring joy and peace in your life if you will call upon Him and let Him heal what is broken.
God Bless and I will pray for you!

i did that and i was forgiven i did it again was forgiven again and again but right now that i'm not sure everything's not workingout that is just why my mood is gloomy everyday

i feel that i've been abandoned by other christians because of my insanity

and other christians just mocked me they've been belittle my standings they don't really care about my feelings they don't care wether i get angry with them and hold a grudge and then it would be my losses in the end because i sinned again

i am suffering from constant attacks from the nemesis aka mental illness

suffering from persecutions from fellow christians or maybe they are but i am not considered as one of them i am just a sinner then i also probably do not have a place in the next life nor a place in this world the world simply hates me i try to hate the world but what's it of no one cares... you prolly don't as well *sigh*

Heart2Soul · Dec 21, 2019

Funny bird said:
i am telling him to go out with bad words

because sometimes I'm crazy and praises that ******

then I realize I was also praising God,

after i praised God I do not know why it just pop out in my brain I also praises that vampire

what should i think? if this is indeed what's in my mind? is it mine or fron them? or was it from them and they infected me because I was too stupid?

First thing you need to do is stop speaking negative over yourself....scripture warns us numerous times to guard our mouth about what we say....here are just a couple...
Proverbs 18:20-21
Proverbs 18 (KJV)
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²⁰ A man's belly shall be satisfied with the fruit of his mouth; and with the increase of his lips shall he be filled.
²¹ Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.
Matthew 12 (KJV)
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³⁴ O generation of vipers, how can ye, being evil, speak good things? for out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaketh.
³⁵ A good man out of the good treasure of the heart bringeth forth good things: and an evil man out of the evil treasure bringeth forth evil things.
³⁶ But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment.
³⁷ For by thy words thou shalt be justified, and by thy words thou shalt be condemned.

I encourage you to start speaking positive things about yourself....another scripture says...as a man thinkers so is he.

Heavenly Father, I pray for my fellow brother and ask that you send ministering angels to minister truth and hope about who he is in you. Heal his heart and mind from the negative thinking that has him held captive to the lies of satan who is out to kill, steal and destroy him. Let your Holy Spirit come upon him and bring joy and peace to his life today. Whatever purpose you have destined for him I ask that you reveal it to him and that his hope and faith abound......and mostly Father I ask that you wrap your arms around him and that he will feel your unconditional love you have for him....
In Jesus Name...Amen

GTW27 · Dec 21, 2019

Funny bird, when you feel really bad, speak these words out loud, "The Lord rebukes you, The Lord Jesus rebukes you"! Then you will feel this lift from you. And when it lifts from you, and lift it will, you will know it never was you to begin with.

Waiting on him · Dec 21, 2019

Funny bird said:
i did that and i was forgiven i did it again was forgiven again and again but right now that i'm not sure everything's not workingout that is just why my mood is gloomy everyday

i feel that i've been abandoned by other christians because of my insanity

and other christians just mocked me they've been belittle my standings they don't really care about my feelings they don't care wether i get angry with them and hold a grudge and then it would be my losses in the end because i sinned again

i am suffering from constant attacks from the nemesis aka mental illness

suffering from persecutions from fellow christians or maybe they are but i am not considered as one of them i am just a sinner then i also probably do not have a place in the next life nor a place in this world the world simply hates me i try to hate the world but what's it of no one cares... you prolly don't as well *sigh*

Psalm 139:7-14 KJV
[7] Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? [8] If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. [9] If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; [10] Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. [11] If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. [12] Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. [13] For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb. [14] I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

The darkness and the light are both alike to thee???
https://tbibl.es/2Tj7

Waiting on him · Dec 21, 2019

Waiting on him said:
Psalm 139:7-14 KJV
[7] Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? [8] If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. [9] If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; [10] Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. [11] If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. [12] Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. [13] For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb. [14] I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

The darkness and the light are both alike to thee???
https://tbibl.es/2Tj7

This is Jesus singing psalms of praise to His Father in the messianic psalms.

Get your mind on Christ, and off of your circumstances. He has promised you beauty for ashes.

ThePuffyBlob · Dec 22, 2019

Heart2Soul said:
First thing you need to do is stop speaking negative over yourself....scripture warns us numerous times to guard our mouth about what we say....here are just a couple...

it's not coming out of my mouth but coming out of my heart

mind=heart according to the bible

i simply don't say it out loud
they are just in my mind fighting
light and dark comparable to a crazy person's mind

ThePuffyBlob · Dec 22, 2019

Heart2Soul said:
I encourage you to start speaking positive things about yourself....another scripture says...as a man thinkers so is he.

if i speak good things about me just to encourage myself then i am simply making a fool out of myself

when you know the truth how can you think of lies as truth?

Nancy · Dec 22, 2019

Funny bird said:
if i speak good things about me just to encourage myself then i am simply making a fool out of myself

when you know the truth how can you think of lies as truth?

Hi FB,
I know that I had quite a hard time recently with all the thoughts of self hatred within me. It was a horrible day as, I could not stop crying and asking Him if I was really His? I especially love the line in the following song "And when I don't belong, you say I amyours"...this song will have such special meaning to me for ever, it came on in the midst of my suffering that day and my tears turned into joy! Please believe what HE say's about you, not what you or Satan says...it is written that Satan MUST flee at the name of Jesus...WE do not rebuke Satan, ever...only through the name of Jesus and His authority can Satan be rebuked so, please listen to this song and let me know if it touches your heart and relieves your mind. God Bless You!

ThePuffyBlob · Dec 22, 2019

GTW27 said:
Funny bird, when you feel really bad, speak these words out loud, "The Lord rebukes you, The Lord Jesus rebukes you"! Then you will feel this lift from you. And when it lifts from you, and lift it will, you will know it never was you to begin with.

uhm okay i'll try though i am ...

i am always a shy person
how can i get the strength to face the world?

actually i have a social phobia and this keeps me away from reality i've been running and running from reality i've already told about these to some of my relatives but they probably didn't took it seriously because i automatically act like there's nothing wrong

and i'm already 27 these things already killed my life ever since i was a child i keep wishing i shouldn't have been born in the first place

i've loss a lot of time already *sigh* and i still keep on running away i'm tired of this kind of life

ThePuffyBlob · Dec 22, 2019

Waiting on him said:
Psalm 139:7-14 KJV
[7] Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence? [8] If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there. [9] If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea; [10] Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me. [11] If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. [12] Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee. [13] For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb. [14] I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

The darkness and the light are both alike to thee???
https://tbibl.es/2Tj7

this is a wonderful song but

Hidden In Him said:
If I were you, I would treat it like I do with politics. If what I am seeing on TV frustrates me too much, I just turn it off, or turn the channel and watch something else instead. In other words, to keep my peace, I stay away from watching the news for a while.

i watch these preachings and it is scary and painful because it was the truth it was literally written in the scriptures should i still continue to listen to these or should i just keep away from it because it frustrates me.. and just running away just like you are probably doing?

The Old Path

i.e of this sect literal beliefs
the preacher's says there's no trinity since there is indeed no trinity written found that the son the father the holy spirit are 1 entity the preacher says that the holy spirit is different from the son and the father the preacher also says that the son is a God and the father is also a God but God the father is higher than the son and the holy spirit and the son God is higher than the holy spirit which is indeed the truth because it was written in the scriptures

VictoryinJesus · Dec 22, 2019

Funny bird said:
how can i ... nor do I even know what to do

when I think about the fact that no one wants me in this world

because there really isn't

so my feeling there is also nothing

i do not know where will i go or where to go

once pride has wrapped in my heart automatically i will still drive forward while still looking back and feeling guilt

I also don't know why I don't go to God instead

the Word says there are treasures of darkness, and hidden riches of secret places of the heart...things hidden which God brings Forth to the Light for His glory. Consider Luke 15:10 Likewise, I say unto you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner that repenteth.

1 Corinthians 14:25 And thus are the secrets of his heart made manifest; and so falling down on his face he will worship God, and report that God is in you of a truth.

Point is, and what I’m trying to say is you are treasure. You said you don’t know why you don’t go to God instead. Sometimes I ask myself this same question often on all matters but sometimes I am so stubborn and return to my own ways which go nowhere. I neglect Him treasures by refusing and holding onto what belongs to Him instead. you also said: “when I think about the fact that no one wants me in this world”. If there is one thing I’ve learned it is that regardless of what the world says about you and their not wanting you...God wants you. if I’m positive of anything it is that He wants you. To Him you have value beyond everything wrong you’ve ever done. Treasures hid in a field that when I man finds that treasure, he hides the “hidden the riches”, and goes and sells all to purchase not only that treasure “Hidden riches” but purchases the whole field and the treasures in the field. You are of that treasure...you are of the hidden riches. Why don’t you just go to Him? Because when being deceived an entire life time and told you are trash ...it takes a miracle of God to see He has done a New thing. You are not trash...but treasure “hidden riches”.

ThePuffyBlob · Dec 22, 2019

Nancy said:
please listen to this song and let me know if it touches your heart and relieves your mind. God Bless You!

first impression uhm i can't feel a thing 2nd was doubt jumble of words to fit perfectly what people wants me to think

3rd i've totally forgotten how to be happy nor know what fun is my mood is always gloomy i am always angry and tired

sorry if i did drag you i just want to reply honestly

Waiting on him · Dec 22, 2019

Funny bird said:
first impression uhm i can't feel a thing 2nd was doubt jumble of words to fit perfectly what people wants me to think

3rd i've totally forgotten how to be happy nor know what fun is my mood is always gloomy i am always angry and tired

sorry if i did drag you i just want to reply honestly

Find someone to serve.

ThePuffyBlob · Dec 22, 2019

VictoryinJesus said:
the Word says there are treasures of darkness, and hidden riches of secret places of the heart...things hidden which God brings Forth to the Light for His glory. Consider Luke 15:10 Likewise, I say unto you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner that repenteth.

1 Corinthians 14:25 And thus are the secrets of his heart made manifest; and so falling down on his face he will worship God, and report that God is in you of a truth.

Point is, and what I’m trying to say is you are treasure. You said you don’t know why you don’t go to God instead. Sometimes I ask myself this same question often on all matters but sometimes I am so stubborn and return to my own ways which go nowhere. I neglect Him treasures by refusing and holding onto what belongs to Him instead. you also said: “when I think about the fact that no one wants me in this world”. If there is one thing I’ve learned it is that regardless of what the world says about you and their not wanting you...God wants you. if I’m positive of anything it is that He wants you. To Him you have value beyond everything wrong you’ve ever done. Treasures hid in a field that when I man finds that treasure, he hides the “hidden the riches”, and goes and sells all to purchase not only that treasure “Hidden riches” but purchases the whole field and the treasures in the field. You are of that treasure...you are of the hidden riches. Why don’t you just go to Him? Because when being deceived an entire life time and told you are trash ...it takes a miracle of God to see He has done a New thing. You are not trash...but treasure “hidden riches”.

everytime i repent and take a closer to the Lord someone just keeps on dragging me down it was like someone took me for a plaything so after i repent i keep doing the same sin over and over again till guilt filled me and i can't get back up from it

your words brightened me up a bit thanks even just for a short time

my heart seems like rock hard how to feel love though? i have forgotten how to feel these feelings since then that i planned to suicide but my plan was ruined by the person who introduces me to God

this morning i dream't of a pure sisterly love but i woke up because it was a lie after waking up i felt the feeling that i was longing for i missed that kind of feeling very much but it was a lie because that person was like acts like i was a stranger or someone no one it was like we are not blood related and today will be her wedding day we were close back when we were still kids but because of my foolishness of wanting to leave this world i messed my life up

now i am suffering with emptiness feelings my feelings are too insensitive the only things i always feel is hatred and depression

why don't i just go to him? if i go to him will i stop feeling that someone is toying with me? i'll try again hopefully... oh how many times have i said this... just how many times...

ThePuffyBlob · Dec 22, 2019

Waiting on him said:
Find someone to serve.

it seems you are suggesting to serve God

how to stop sinning?
repent>tempted>struggle>sin>guilt>depress>haunt>hope there's the cycle back to repentance and get tempted again then the fight next is the fall and another fall till you reach the bottom after moving on seeking shelter again finally standing up just to fall *sigh*

Waiting on him · Dec 22, 2019

Funny bird said:
it seems you are suggesting to serve God

how to stop sinning?
repent>tempted>struggle>sin>guilt>depress>haunt>hope there's the cycle back to repentance and get tempted again then the fight next is the fall and another fall till you reach the bottom after moving on seeking shelter again finally standing up just to fall *sigh*

What is this great sin that is beyond Gods Grace? Paul said with my mind I serve Christ, with my body I serve sin.

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