The devil is a liar and deciever hun, and he's constantly trying to ride our backs.
If you give in, YOU LET HIM WIN.
Remember what Chist had to go through for us, and know that it was much more than we could ever imagine. By living in the Lord, we fulfill his plan of everlasting life with him.
You must let the creator decide your time. Hecreated you, and he decides our time.
If you love him first, then love will find you through him. A strong relationship is one that starts with loving the Lord.
Prayer is the answer. Pray for protection, understanding, patients, and love. Love your enemy as yourself, and let it go darlin'. Cast your worries to the wind.
I will pray for you, that you find strength in your time of need, and remember that the lord will not let us suffer.
If you need someone to talk to, call a suicide line, find a neighbor, call the police, talk to us here, seek a pastor, but do not give up on yourself and let the devil ride your back to the grave. It took my husband 27 years to find me, and just as he was ready to give up, i came into his life. Your time will come too. This trouble will pass, and things will look better. That I can promise you.