So the short story is. My wife wanted a divorce. I did not. Eventually I signed the paper because I didn't want to make it harder for everyone. But I did not divorce her in my heart. Are we still married in God's eyes? Please help!
Hi Jon. Welcome to the forum.
And sorry for your dilemma.
Are you divorced? Short answer yes.
Bigger Picture.
It is obvious, your marriage breakup was not your idea or your desire to pursue.
We are human, with human shortcomings and faults. Not a big secret to God. After all, we are expressly told...ONLY God "knows" ALL things.
Point being...we can NOT know what "every" decision we make one day, WILL BE the best decision "until" long after the decision IS MADE.
So...then WHY does Scripture teach, FOR men and women TO 'MAKE' a promise of "marriage", TO one other, and NEVER leave them....dispite the rough bumps, different ideas, thoughts, actions of two differnt people?
In the BIGGER PICTURE...
A biblical picture of a marriage between a man and a woman...IS about ...LONG before the marriage...to have SAME FOUNDATION in "Godly" Beliefs...
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THAT ^, could mean....oh, ya, ya...we both believe In the Lord Gods Almighty....We're good to go.
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Or THAT ^, could mean...we both "understand"...the WORD of God, is Always the "mediator", in any Differences the man and woman encounters.
REALITY IS: in my observances, is men and women "decide" to marry..."without an agreement"...the Word of God WILL BE their "mediator" in conflicts and disputes.
- people tend to marry for all kinds of reasons....
* security, outside appearence, like the same activities, have similar goals, held up on a pedestal despite their underhanded behavior toward the other, gain of reflective clout per the others fame or position, don't like their parents house rules, oops got pregnant, on and on to very shallow, being seen with someone popular, like their car, wealth, etc.
REALITY IS: a marriage between a man and a woman, IS difficult, requires learning HOW to be on the SAME page, Compromises, forgivenesses, sharing, overloading, exhausting, disappointing, joyful....
SO what IS THE Scriptural POINT of men and women marrying?
* PRACTICE * PREPARATION *
For What?
An EXCLUSIVE, "one on one" Relationship WITH the Lord God....whereby ...
* ONCE "heartfully Committed" TO the Lord God...there IS no possibility OF "divorce"... ie Leaving Him, Being with-OUT Him, or Him Leaving You or ever Being with-OUT You.
* IOW...being Joined together forever "WITH" God, IS: not about "OUR" ability to "KEEP" our relationship "WITH" God...
* IT IS, about US freely choosing, TO agree, that God WILL "keep" our relationship "WITH" Him, exclusively by our Freewill Choosing, "to Agree to Him USING HIS POWER, "TO" keep us, unto HIM ONLY. (Which we accomplish Making our choice known to Him, BY submitting to His Offered Conversion).
POINT BEING...an individual IS KEPT IN the relationship WITH GOD....BY HIS POWER.
A marriage between a man and a women...
IN many marriages, IS trying to KEEP their marriage intact, "BY the power OF the man and the woman."
You appear to have had the "stronger" sense of power and desire to have KEPT your marriage intact.
It appears your wife, was weaker, or perhaps did not know "how to" reconcile, resolve issues, or want to, according to Christ's Way of "mediation".
Perhaps, you did not make such a suggestion, I can not know.
A marriage between a man and a woman IS for practicing and preparation of A lasting relationship with God....which IS exclusively BASED ON....Neither the person or God...CAN or WILL leave the other.
(It's a Commitment Neither you or God WILL break).
* Your delimma, that appears to weigh heavy on you...IS...HOW your wifes divorce from you, will Affect YOUR relationship with God, or in Gods Eyes.
* First of all...one instigating a "secular" divorce, "filing, pleading, granting" etc. IS a secular protocal.
* Scripturally, a bill of divorcement, was basically a letter, writ, notifying a one, the other had dissolved their relationship. And in Jewish customs, a bill of divorcement was served to break off a Promise to Wed.
* In Jewish law...once a Promise TO Wed was made (ie an engagement), the couple was "consider" married, unavailable to any other, unless that promise "TO WED" was dissolve.
* In Scripture, you do not find, WEDDED couples "divorcing". What you will find IS, for example, a man becoming wedded to more than one wife.
* You will also find in Scripture, men believing, (throughout their lives) in MORE that one god.
* I would say, the BIG PICTURE of your relationship WITH God, is NOT affected by a relationship with a spouse, that freely chose to "leave you".
* So ARE, you still "wedded" to your "wife"?
No.
* Could you, or Can you...MAKE, FORCE, your wife, believe what you WANT? (Even God does not do that.)
* Will you be "wedded" to your wife, IN Gods Kingdom? No.
* Your marriage, was "secularly" acknowledge, and was "secularly" dissolved.
* I would suggest you Focus on the BIG PICTURE...being your one on one relationship WITH the Lord God....
* Keep your love toward all, (friend and foe/ in agreement out of agreement) as is Gods perceptual teachings...
* Pray for the Lords "mediation"/ intervention; in His ability to put before you another, WHOSE, understanding IS, Christ's Way is the Way, for establishing relationships, and Christ IS the household Mediator between a husband and wife...
* two having ^ that agreement, removes the animosity and of 'I'm right, you're wrong"...my way, my way, my way...or bye bye.
* You are secularly divorced, securlarly free to pursue another, if you desire.
* Scripturally you can not be bonded to one who freely broke the bond.
God Bless,
Taken