Feeling pretty under attack today

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I'm having a little bit of an emotional breakdown because I was getting messages today from someone that seemed like something was really wrong, so I had a minor panic attack and asked if I should be worried because it was giving me anxiety and I was trying to do good at working on stuff, and a FLOOD of messages came back about how horrible and selfish I am for having a panic attack.

I was trying to work on stuff today and doing well, but basically there's a lot of verbal abuse and gaslighting in my life. Sorry, I know that's excessive but I am very upset right now and not handling it very well.

This is the first time sharing it with other believers and I'm nervous about it.
 

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I'm having a little bit of an emotional breakdown because I was getting messages today from someone that seemed like something was really wrong, so I had a minor panic attack and asked if I should be worried because it was giving me anxiety and I was trying to do good at working on stuff, and a FLOOD of messages came back about how horrible and selfish I am for having a panic attack.

I was trying to work on stuff today and doing well, but basically there's a lot of verbal abuse and gaslighting in my life. Sorry, I know that's excessive but I am very upset right now and not handling it very well.

This is the first time sharing it with other believers and I'm nervous about it.
Praying that God will give you the strength to go through everything that you must as you walk with Him! Also praying that He will bring you into better times for yourself as well!
 

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I'm having a little bit of an emotional breakdown because I was getting messages today from someone that seemed like something was really wrong, so I had a minor panic attack and asked if I should be worried because it was giving me anxiety and I was trying to do good at working on stuff, and a FLOOD of messages came back about how horrible and selfish I am for having a panic attack.

I was trying to work on stuff today and doing well, but basically there's a lot of verbal abuse and gaslighting in my life. Sorry, I know that's excessive but I am very upset right now and not handling it very well.

This is the first time sharing it with other believers and I'm nervous about it.
You have my prayers, Fluffy!

BTW, only someone who has never experienced a panic attack would say that having one is selfish.
 

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I'm having a little bit of an emotional breakdown because I was getting messages today from someone that seemed like something was really wrong, so I had a minor panic attack and asked if I should be worried because it was giving me anxiety and I was trying to do good at working on stuff, and a FLOOD of messages came back about how horrible and selfish I am for having a panic attack.

I was trying to work on stuff today and doing well, but basically there's a lot of verbal abuse and gaslighting in my life. Sorry, I know that's excessive but I am very upset right now and not handling it very well.

This is the first time sharing it with other believers and I'm nervous about it.
You did the right thing to share it. You are loved here. ;)
 

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I'm having a little bit of an emotional breakdown because I was getting messages today from someone that seemed like something was really wrong, so I had a minor panic attack and asked if I should be worried because it was giving me anxiety and I was trying to do good at working on stuff, and a FLOOD of messages came back about how horrible and selfish I am for having a panic attack.

I was trying to work on stuff today and doing well, but basically there's a lot of verbal abuse and gaslighting in my life. Sorry, I know that's excessive but I am very upset right now and not handling it very well.

This is the first time sharing it with other believers and I'm nervous about it.
hey plucky...duckie...I'm hearing ya!
 

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IN the coming days our fluffy duck as well as many of us will have many feathers plucked from us .
Much persecution is coming . JUST REMEMBER THIS . No matter how hard times are gonna get ,
no matter what we have to endure here on this earth , at our END WE ARE FOREVER FREE AND HOME WITH JESUS .
SEE that HOPE . SEE IT . For hope in HIM can abound all things that this world brings against us .
The LORD will be with us , whether in prison , on the run , even at the hour of our death . Cant nothing they do
take us from nor our LORD FROM US . NOT Even death can separate us from the LORD .
HOPE IN GOD . And endure faithful in HIM to the end . PRAISE BE TO THE GLORIOUS LORD who has saved us
and HE alone can keep us from falling . HEED HIM , learn HIM well. And know and understand that real persecutions are coming .
 

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I'm having a little bit of an emotional breakdown because I was getting messages today from someone that seemed like something was really wrong, so I had a minor panic attack and asked if I should be worried because it was giving me anxiety and I was trying to do good at working on stuff, and a FLOOD of messages came back about how horrible and selfish I am for having a panic attack.

I was trying to work on stuff today and doing well, but basically there's a lot of verbal abuse and gaslighting in my life. Sorry, I know that's excessive but I am very upset right now and not handling it very well.

This is the first time sharing it with other believers and I'm nervous about it.
Selfish because you had a panic attack? That must be from someone who has never had one!

Much love!
 

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@FluffyYellowDuck They'll get over it, sis. People who say insensitive things don't realize it, but they are the ones being selfish and self-focused. It happens. We all have those times. Just show them some grace, step back, and pray ....lean on the Lord, and allow Him to surround you with His loving arms.

I'm sorry you're experiencing panic attacks. I understand. I've experienced them pretty severely at times. PTSD, anxiety, etc ....we can't always prevent these because we live in a world where sudden jolts (traumas, losses, etc) happen. Just do your best to nourish yourself in Him ...He will bring you through.
 

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Thanks, guys. I appreciate your comments and I am taking them to heart.

Maybe it will get better. It was fine and normal for an hour and then it flipped again to me not having the "right" socks available. Normally I can handle it and make it through, but when you're trying to work on yourself and do better at the same time for some reason you're more aware of it.


Selfish because you had a panic attack? That must be from someone who has never had one!

Much love!

Several! But they say it's more important that things go right for them and everyone does their part to please them, basically, so that they are " able to do what they need to do." I'm less important or something like that. It's usually said as "It's more important that I eat ... " Or "It's more important that everyone does their job so I can be happy." Things like that.

I'm trying to make sense but it doesn't make sense to me but it's supposed to!
 

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Thanks, guys. I appreciate your comments and I am taking them to heart.

Maybe it will get better. It was fine and normal for an hour and then it flipped again to me not having the "right" socks available. Normally I can handle it and make it through, but when you're trying to work on yourself and do better at the same time for some reason you're more aware of it.




Several! But they say it's more important that things go right for them and everyone does their part to please them, basically, so that they are " able to do what they need to do." I'm less important or something like that. It's usually said as "It's more important that I eat ... " Or "It's more important that everyone does their job so I can be happy." Things like that.

I'm trying to make sense but it doesn't make sense to me but it's supposed to!
I have to remember to just be patient with myself. I get panic attacks sometimes. It seems like there is just some trigger that starts the physiological process going, and if I don't get a handle on my thoughts, the longer it goes on, the more the physical part builds, and the harder it is to deal with.

And I feel the same thing too, these things can make us more aware of the nuances of what's happening.

Much love!
 

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I remember not oh so long ago getting a panic attack based on my car being dirty.

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Oh! I wouldn't have a panic attack about that. I don't get upset about small things, but the person was upset with me for not having the right socks available. I think it's an OCD thing with them. There **has** to be a pair available at the end of the day. I said there were two pairs available, but one was slipper socks and the other pair didn't match, but they claimed I said I would handwash a pair. I didn't say that but unfortunately I had already thought about how bad it would be if I didn't, so they were already drying. Just not dry.

This is the kind of stuff that makes your head spin after a while and wonder what in the world normal is like or wondering if this is a common thing that people just don't talk about.

Is it normal?

IDK anymore
 

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I understand what you're going through, @FluffyYellowDuck . I experienced anxiety attacks for most of my life, of the sort where it felt like I was literally going to die. I suffered from clusters of anxiety attacks which cycled over a 24 hour period --- those were the worst because they left me drained beyond the point of exhaustion. There's nothing selfish about this, sister. On the contrary... who among us desires such a thing in their life?

I will speak to the Lord, for the peace of His Spirit to come upon you so that you may know rest. This is what the Lord worked in me not that long ago and I ask that Christ do the same for you, dear sister. I will keep praying for you.
 

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I'm having a little bit of an emotional breakdown because I was getting messages today from someone that seemed like something was really wrong, so I had a minor panic attack and asked if I should be worried because it was giving me anxiety and I was trying to do good at working on stuff, and a FLOOD of messages came back about how horrible and selfish I am for having a panic attack.

I was trying to work on stuff today and doing well, but basically there's a lot of verbal abuse and gaslighting in my life. Sorry, I know that's excessive but I am very upset right now and not handling it very well.

This is the first time sharing it with other believers and I'm nervous about it.

Don't be nervous. That's what we're supposed to be; there for each other.
Oh! I wouldn't have a panic attack about that. I don't get upset about small things, but the person was upset with me for not having the right socks available. I think it's an OCD thing with them. There **has** to be a pair available at the end of the day. I said there were two pairs available, but one was slipper socks and the other pair didn't match, but they claimed I said I would handwash a pair. I didn't say that but unfortunately I had already thought about how bad it would be if I didn't, so they were already drying. Just not dry.

Socks? Good heavens... Look, pray you can get delivered from surroundings like that. Scripture says that if a believer can be free of such things, then they should use that freedom. My wife has been through similar circumstances in her work, where she was mistreated. She doesn't get paid a lot anyway, and I told her under those circumstances she should look for other employment. Well, she stayed faithful to those people (in spite of my advice) until the whole Covid thing, and then half of them dropped her without even doing so in person - just a text saying she was no longer needed until further notice. But it was a blessing in disguise. She is now working for better people, and who pay her more as well.

So the moral is, don't think you have to stay in bad situations forever. You don't. Just ask God to deliver you, and keep praying for Him to until He does.