Um...hey. I don't want to share much, but i wanted to know if anyone else is trying to improve their life through Jesus, or has already found their guardian angel. Because i feel quite alone.
This is gonna be so cliche..but i've survived a major overdose (and many other life major accidents), and before that, i was really reckless and doing things that weren't good for me or anyone around me. Because of this, i've lost a few friends and broken trust.
But...during the overdose...something amazing happened.
I was having terrible, demonic attacks (hallucinations) that were scaring me, and nightmares along with the side effects.
But then i saw a glowing light (and no, I'm not making this up) surround me when i was in my bed. I also felt someone, like, a comforting hug telling me that everything will be okay. This figure also appears in my dreams as a father figure, or a lover. He told me in a dream, that his name was Andy. So that's what i refer to him by.
Anyway, I've been trying to improve my life by talking to God more, and following the things He wants me to do. I'm starting to read the Bible more, and not focus on abusive relationships i once had, but focusing on myself, especially when my GSCE's are super close.
However, it feels very lonely because i would also like to speak to people with not just similar experiences, but who know and are on their own spiritual journey.
It's taking a long time to heal, especially with a lot of trauma, but I've got advice.
If you're someone who's having suicidal ideation, or is having a lot of difficult experiences, please know that YOU'RE NOT ALONE. And that even if people aren't always good, God IS GOOD. Please don't hurt yourself. Even if you can't think of the good things right now, think of what you won't be able to become when you're dead. Think of how your loved ones and your Angel will feel. And think of yourself, because the pain won't end unless you work out the problem one by one.
I don't want sympathy, or pity. I would, from now one, like positive interactions with people, and maybe people, like me, who are trying to improve their lives spiritually, or can give me advice about how to better communicate with Andy and Jesus Christ.
Thank you
24grlwrld
This is gonna be so cliche..but i've survived a major overdose (and many other life major accidents), and before that, i was really reckless and doing things that weren't good for me or anyone around me. Because of this, i've lost a few friends and broken trust.
But...during the overdose...something amazing happened.
I was having terrible, demonic attacks (hallucinations) that were scaring me, and nightmares along with the side effects.
But then i saw a glowing light (and no, I'm not making this up) surround me when i was in my bed. I also felt someone, like, a comforting hug telling me that everything will be okay. This figure also appears in my dreams as a father figure, or a lover. He told me in a dream, that his name was Andy. So that's what i refer to him by.
Anyway, I've been trying to improve my life by talking to God more, and following the things He wants me to do. I'm starting to read the Bible more, and not focus on abusive relationships i once had, but focusing on myself, especially when my GSCE's are super close.
However, it feels very lonely because i would also like to speak to people with not just similar experiences, but who know and are on their own spiritual journey.
It's taking a long time to heal, especially with a lot of trauma, but I've got advice.
If you're someone who's having suicidal ideation, or is having a lot of difficult experiences, please know that YOU'RE NOT ALONE. And that even if people aren't always good, God IS GOOD. Please don't hurt yourself. Even if you can't think of the good things right now, think of what you won't be able to become when you're dead. Think of how your loved ones and your Angel will feel. And think of yourself, because the pain won't end unless you work out the problem one by one.
I don't want sympathy, or pity. I would, from now one, like positive interactions with people, and maybe people, like me, who are trying to improve their lives spiritually, or can give me advice about how to better communicate with Andy and Jesus Christ.
Thank you
24grlwrld
