This is my first post here and unfortunately it isn't exactly an uplifting post... I can be quite optimistic and so on too, but lately I've been having problems with a few things and that's my main reason for registering on this forum. When these things have been solved and moved out of the way, I will hopefully be able to post more positive things. ;) BTW It's not that I am depressed or cannot believe in God at all, but there are some thoughts that are giving me a hard time lately. And believe me, I am not bashing anything: I'm just being honest.The first thing is: I am having a hard time being grateful to God. 'He deserves all our praise etc. for what He has done for us'. I know what He has done for us, but I've got this nagging thought in the back of my mind... More and more and I thinking 'Why should I be grateful? God created everything and it became quite a mess, so... it's only quite logical that He solved the bad situation... Why should I be grateful for that?' It's a bit like as if a doctor in a hospital made a big mistake which almost killed me: and after that he took care that I didn't get killed. But I am still sort of handicapped and life is quite hard. Should I be grateful to that doctor for saving my life...? This thought is preventing me from being grateful and I don't know how to get rid of that thought... Another thing that is bugging me, is the fact that, when you really dig deep into the Bible, it will tell you to rejoice in God alone (I am reading a book by John Piper about this). We should live for Him and nothing else. That's what I hear a lot. We are not our own anymore: we have given our life to God and He may do with it whatever He wants. If that's so, then why did God create all those things we can enjoy...? I know there is great joy to be found in following Christ, but why do we have to give up a lot of things that can give joy too? It feels as if God created everything so we could learn NOT to look at it and enjoy it, to make it even harder to follow Him and rejoice in Him alone. The fact that I am having problems with being grateful doesn't exactly help to rejoice, of course...Well, these are two things that are making it hard for me to rejoice in Christ and praise God... and I don't know what to do about it. Sometimes I succeed in 'forgetting' the questions and sort of believe as a child, but every now and then these thoughts pop up... So that's why I registered here: I must be overlooking something obvious and hopefully someone here can show me the way. ;)