It was February 2000. After I had drug amnesia I realized that I'd relapsed by abusing my meds. I also made the most serious attempt to end my life which left me with a brain injury. After 3 weeks of horrible withdrawal from my meds, I went to a Christian retreat. The seminar was called, "5 Days Of Healing."
After spending the first day weeping, a staff member told me that by weeping I was making my wound worse. Then he said, "What you are doing is called self-pity. It's sin and you need to repent of it." It was like he slapped me. It snapped me out of it. To this day I'm thankful that he did that. He told me the truth. "I'd rather be slapped with the truth than kissed with a lie."
After 3 days of scripture teaching on the Kingdom Of God, I was about to see what follows this. Signs and wonders.
4 A.M. Thursday found me awake and doing my homework. I was taking one sin at a time from my list of sins, repenting of it and taking it to an imaginary cross and nailing each sin to it with an imaginary hammer and nails. Then I started seeing in the spirit and saw a real cross, hammer, and nails. Each time I hammered in a nail, there was a pulse of energy through it.
Next, I had to break generational sins. I started on my father's side. I was given a diagram to go by. It wasn't hard. As I broke the last part on this side it felt like a bucket of cool, refreshing water was dumped on my head. After I did the same on my mother's side, another bucket of water was dumped on me. I was grateful that our Lord had made it possible for this to happen to me.
I got up and put on a C.D. I'd brought with me. It was called, "Catch The Fire 3," and the first song was, "Fire (there's a fire)" by Paul Oakley.
As I lifted my hands to the Lord, what I can only describe as a portal opened up in front of me. Through it, I saw Jesus riding a horse down the bottom part of a snow-covered mountain. He was wearing a thick, fur coat and He was cloaked in His radiant majesty. He had reached the ground and as He started riding towards me, the portal closed and I felt a gentle pushing down on me. I heard laughing, unlike anything I'd ever heard before. It reminded me of Psalm 37:13.
The weight on me was slowly increasing and I started leaning backward. Then I was leaning back too far and would've fallen but the invisible Holy Spirit didn't allow that. He slowly laid me down on what felt like a cushion of air. I estimate that it took 15 seconds for me to reach the ground.
As I lay there a fire came out of nowhere and I saw for the first time an altar in my heart. On it was all the sins I'd just crucified. The fire dove onto the altar and consumed my sins. Then I started shaking.
Like a breaking dam, the gift of tongues came out of my mouth. I felt my spirit grow bigger and my spiritual fingers also grew 2 or 3 inches. As I lay there shaking I heard a voice say, "proclamation" as a spiritual gift was put in me and a minute later, "prophetic utterance" was also put in me by the power of the Holy Spirit.
After things had settled down I got up off of the floor. I got dressed, put on my coat and boots, and went outside to see if the lunchroom was open yet. I was about 5 minutes early so I looked out at the farm across the road.
As I heard a voice say, "I saw Satan fall from heaven like lightning," I saw something fall from a cloud quite quickly. As it started to run to me, I saw that Satan was dressed like an archer from Robin Hood. Like a fowler. I didn't turn away, instead, I stood there gazing at the approaching enemy. If I had been thinking I would've thought something like, "you do see who I'm with, don't you?" Then I saw him start to hide behind bushes as he was trying to sneak up on me." I was seeing in a spiritual realm.
I turned back to the lunchroom and as it was now open, I went inside. After a coffee, I went into the kitchen to talk with a staff member. God had told me to tell him a few things, so I did. As he was washing dishes, I said the first 2. No response. I said the 3rd and he turned to me and said, "Hey!"
Before I could respond, I saw Jesus in me and He said that He loves His bride. I then felt His heart. I burst out sobbing and was led to the back room so I could be alone.
As the door closed behind me I saw across the room an 8-foot tall human-shaped shadow. I became aware of God's presence in me and above me. As I heard Him say, "transformer" I also became 8 feet tall. Then he said, "put on the full armor of God." He helped me to remember them all as I put them on.
As I tried to walk towards the enemy I realized that it was like driving a standard car without knowing how to shift gears. The Lord whispered to me, " Let go." It was like I sat down inside of me. This time my body ran smoother with me momentarily out of the way.
We marched towards the enemy and as they clashed I could see balls of light and dark swirling around each other. Then the door behind me opened and it ended.
A little later I went and talked with the C.E.O. and his wife. They were on one side of a desk and I was on the other. They listened intently to me and when I'd finished they looked at each other, got big smiles on their faces, and turning to me, said, "Go for it, Ron." I knew it was God, I just wanted to know what they thought. They knew.
As I bring this testimony to a close, I want to encourage people to understand that there is more to having a relationship with God than reading your bible and going to church, though these are good things. Maybe someone will start asking God if there is anything to this. There is a song on Youtube called, "There Must Be More" by David Ruis. I suggest the version that is on the Vineyard album, "The Spirit Of The Sovereign Lord." Shalom.
After spending the first day weeping, a staff member told me that by weeping I was making my wound worse. Then he said, "What you are doing is called self-pity. It's sin and you need to repent of it." It was like he slapped me. It snapped me out of it. To this day I'm thankful that he did that. He told me the truth. "I'd rather be slapped with the truth than kissed with a lie."
After 3 days of scripture teaching on the Kingdom Of God, I was about to see what follows this. Signs and wonders.
4 A.M. Thursday found me awake and doing my homework. I was taking one sin at a time from my list of sins, repenting of it and taking it to an imaginary cross and nailing each sin to it with an imaginary hammer and nails. Then I started seeing in the spirit and saw a real cross, hammer, and nails. Each time I hammered in a nail, there was a pulse of energy through it.
Next, I had to break generational sins. I started on my father's side. I was given a diagram to go by. It wasn't hard. As I broke the last part on this side it felt like a bucket of cool, refreshing water was dumped on my head. After I did the same on my mother's side, another bucket of water was dumped on me. I was grateful that our Lord had made it possible for this to happen to me.
I got up and put on a C.D. I'd brought with me. It was called, "Catch The Fire 3," and the first song was, "Fire (there's a fire)" by Paul Oakley.
As I lifted my hands to the Lord, what I can only describe as a portal opened up in front of me. Through it, I saw Jesus riding a horse down the bottom part of a snow-covered mountain. He was wearing a thick, fur coat and He was cloaked in His radiant majesty. He had reached the ground and as He started riding towards me, the portal closed and I felt a gentle pushing down on me. I heard laughing, unlike anything I'd ever heard before. It reminded me of Psalm 37:13.
The weight on me was slowly increasing and I started leaning backward. Then I was leaning back too far and would've fallen but the invisible Holy Spirit didn't allow that. He slowly laid me down on what felt like a cushion of air. I estimate that it took 15 seconds for me to reach the ground.
As I lay there a fire came out of nowhere and I saw for the first time an altar in my heart. On it was all the sins I'd just crucified. The fire dove onto the altar and consumed my sins. Then I started shaking.
Like a breaking dam, the gift of tongues came out of my mouth. I felt my spirit grow bigger and my spiritual fingers also grew 2 or 3 inches. As I lay there shaking I heard a voice say, "proclamation" as a spiritual gift was put in me and a minute later, "prophetic utterance" was also put in me by the power of the Holy Spirit.
After things had settled down I got up off of the floor. I got dressed, put on my coat and boots, and went outside to see if the lunchroom was open yet. I was about 5 minutes early so I looked out at the farm across the road.
As I heard a voice say, "I saw Satan fall from heaven like lightning," I saw something fall from a cloud quite quickly. As it started to run to me, I saw that Satan was dressed like an archer from Robin Hood. Like a fowler. I didn't turn away, instead, I stood there gazing at the approaching enemy. If I had been thinking I would've thought something like, "you do see who I'm with, don't you?" Then I saw him start to hide behind bushes as he was trying to sneak up on me." I was seeing in a spiritual realm.
I turned back to the lunchroom and as it was now open, I went inside. After a coffee, I went into the kitchen to talk with a staff member. God had told me to tell him a few things, so I did. As he was washing dishes, I said the first 2. No response. I said the 3rd and he turned to me and said, "Hey!"
Before I could respond, I saw Jesus in me and He said that He loves His bride. I then felt His heart. I burst out sobbing and was led to the back room so I could be alone.
As the door closed behind me I saw across the room an 8-foot tall human-shaped shadow. I became aware of God's presence in me and above me. As I heard Him say, "transformer" I also became 8 feet tall. Then he said, "put on the full armor of God." He helped me to remember them all as I put them on.
As I tried to walk towards the enemy I realized that it was like driving a standard car without knowing how to shift gears. The Lord whispered to me, " Let go." It was like I sat down inside of me. This time my body ran smoother with me momentarily out of the way.
We marched towards the enemy and as they clashed I could see balls of light and dark swirling around each other. Then the door behind me opened and it ended.
A little later I went and talked with the C.E.O. and his wife. They were on one side of a desk and I was on the other. They listened intently to me and when I'd finished they looked at each other, got big smiles on their faces, and turning to me, said, "Go for it, Ron." I knew it was God, I just wanted to know what they thought. They knew.
As I bring this testimony to a close, I want to encourage people to understand that there is more to having a relationship with God than reading your bible and going to church, though these are good things. Maybe someone will start asking God if there is anything to this. There is a song on Youtube called, "There Must Be More" by David Ruis. I suggest the version that is on the Vineyard album, "The Spirit Of The Sovereign Lord." Shalom.
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