John 15:18-19
"If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.
Does anyone feel particularly hated in this world? I sure do. From both Christian's and non-Christian's alike. It feels like everyone is constantly waiting for me to slip up. It feels like whenever I make a mistake the world is quick to pounce and say "Ah ha! Some Christian you are." and then Christianity is blasphemed because of me and my mistake, and this just makes me feel terrible, that I'm contributing to giving Christianity a bad image. I'm only human, ya know? I'm not perfect. I'm trying to be a good person, but I feel like I'm held to a different standard to which nobody else is held. The world looks on forgiveness toward its own. But to me there is no leniency whatsoever. My own brother is always quick to jump on my faults. It's hard to handle that even he doesn't deal with me with patience nor love. |I hardly have many people in my life as it is. I'm not popular at all. It feels like people are just going to continue to leave me and then I'll be on my own, friendless (ironic) alone, unwanted, an outcast in society. I've been thinking, maybe Jesus felt the same way when He was young, and maybe some of the content in Psalms speak on a young Jesus and His interaction with a sinful world that would have cast abuse on Him for not joining them in the ways of the world.
For example, I had a so-called friend recently (non-Christian) ask me to go to the store to buy him a $300 pair of sunglasses. I didn't feel like running this errand for him, so I asked him for $20 then $40 to which he said no, which I expected. I just really didn't want to do that for him, cuz what if I bought a pair and he didn't like them and wanted me to return them? A big hassle either way. But now he's told some other young Christian men from my church and now they think I'm a bad person. I tried apologizing but he demanded I pay him $40 just for his forgiveness. If he can't forgive me for asking for $40 then I figure it's not worth it to even be friends with him anymore, especially for sowing discord between brethren behind my back. So yeah, now I'm a bad guy to a bunch of people I would have liked to be on good terms with as members of the same congregation. But nooooooo. Now I'm a bad person. If I was in his position I would forgive in a heartbeat. Nice try and everything. And asking me for $40 for my forgiveness is just plain hypocritical in any case. Whatever.
Are you in the same boat? Do you have a rich social life with friends and loving kindness toward you? Cherish that if you have it as that is a blessing because being a lone wolf is overrated.
"If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.
Does anyone feel particularly hated in this world? I sure do. From both Christian's and non-Christian's alike. It feels like everyone is constantly waiting for me to slip up. It feels like whenever I make a mistake the world is quick to pounce and say "Ah ha! Some Christian you are." and then Christianity is blasphemed because of me and my mistake, and this just makes me feel terrible, that I'm contributing to giving Christianity a bad image. I'm only human, ya know? I'm not perfect. I'm trying to be a good person, but I feel like I'm held to a different standard to which nobody else is held. The world looks on forgiveness toward its own. But to me there is no leniency whatsoever. My own brother is always quick to jump on my faults. It's hard to handle that even he doesn't deal with me with patience nor love. |I hardly have many people in my life as it is. I'm not popular at all. It feels like people are just going to continue to leave me and then I'll be on my own, friendless (ironic) alone, unwanted, an outcast in society. I've been thinking, maybe Jesus felt the same way when He was young, and maybe some of the content in Psalms speak on a young Jesus and His interaction with a sinful world that would have cast abuse on Him for not joining them in the ways of the world.
For example, I had a so-called friend recently (non-Christian) ask me to go to the store to buy him a $300 pair of sunglasses. I didn't feel like running this errand for him, so I asked him for $20 then $40 to which he said no, which I expected. I just really didn't want to do that for him, cuz what if I bought a pair and he didn't like them and wanted me to return them? A big hassle either way. But now he's told some other young Christian men from my church and now they think I'm a bad person. I tried apologizing but he demanded I pay him $40 just for his forgiveness. If he can't forgive me for asking for $40 then I figure it's not worth it to even be friends with him anymore, especially for sowing discord between brethren behind my back. So yeah, now I'm a bad guy to a bunch of people I would have liked to be on good terms with as members of the same congregation. But nooooooo. Now I'm a bad person. If I was in his position I would forgive in a heartbeat. Nice try and everything. And asking me for $40 for my forgiveness is just plain hypocritical in any case. Whatever.
Are you in the same boat? Do you have a rich social life with friends and loving kindness toward you? Cherish that if you have it as that is a blessing because being a lone wolf is overrated.