Hi there,
So yes, I have schizophrenia. Schizophrenia is a capitulation of the nervous system, to a state more progressed than is normal. In other words, while most people believe ABC, the schizophrenic believes BCD. This is not a mistake, but a way of utilizing the adaptability of the brain, to adopt a stronger neurological position (mentally). In other words, while you are busy trying to find A things, the schizophrenic is looking to fit B things into the space left by the A things that used to be there. It is a mental trick (that gets you to BCD quicker).
The problem is that as a mental trick, it can get out of hand. The schizophrenic can start to say "are not A things B things?" or "more B things are good, even when I already have B things" There is a lot less guidance, for what should be capitulated to and what not. Indeed when you are the only one saying "D is relevant" and everyone else is saying "we need more A" you look crazy. The point is to endure to the end. If after all is said and done, everybody moves on to B, then your madness has not been for nothing. God is able to comfort you, in that respect.
What you need to learn, when dealing with BCD schizophrenia, is that it is less important that your BCD focus move on from when ABC left off - for it to change the established order - and more important that you manage your BCD focus more consistently. Consistency is key. It will stop you from burning out, it will keep you focused for longer with more strength. You don't need to be erratic, or stressed, under the pump to produce change; you can take it easy, work at a steady pace and give God the glory for reaching out to you when your mental health condition was difficult. The Devil will tell you "you don't need schizophrenia, look it is driving you crazy, let me be the focus" but you don't need to listen to him. You can reply "it is written the Lord will give his angels charge over you; it is written "David pretended to be crazy" and it has been said "you shall not tempt the Lord your God". The power of your schizophrenia may be shaken, but it will not be overcome (for it is founded on the rock of the Word of Christ).
Consistency at the end, is a great strength. Spiritually it will put your schizophrenia in the best state it can be, as will make recovery from over-capitulating or under resourcing easier and lighter. There is a joy knowing your schizophrenia is at least a little predictable and it can bring healing to other parts of your body, that the Spirit of God is able to work through your schizophrenia to bring Him Glory. You will be able to test your stability, as you become familiar with it, knowing in advance what strong and weak schizophrenia looks like - not that one or the other is wrong, but that they work in harmony. And of course, always remember "madness is not sin, if you can't live without it".
I hope this has been of some encouragement. God bless.
So yes, I have schizophrenia. Schizophrenia is a capitulation of the nervous system, to a state more progressed than is normal. In other words, while most people believe ABC, the schizophrenic believes BCD. This is not a mistake, but a way of utilizing the adaptability of the brain, to adopt a stronger neurological position (mentally). In other words, while you are busy trying to find A things, the schizophrenic is looking to fit B things into the space left by the A things that used to be there. It is a mental trick (that gets you to BCD quicker).
The problem is that as a mental trick, it can get out of hand. The schizophrenic can start to say "are not A things B things?" or "more B things are good, even when I already have B things" There is a lot less guidance, for what should be capitulated to and what not. Indeed when you are the only one saying "D is relevant" and everyone else is saying "we need more A" you look crazy. The point is to endure to the end. If after all is said and done, everybody moves on to B, then your madness has not been for nothing. God is able to comfort you, in that respect.
What you need to learn, when dealing with BCD schizophrenia, is that it is less important that your BCD focus move on from when ABC left off - for it to change the established order - and more important that you manage your BCD focus more consistently. Consistency is key. It will stop you from burning out, it will keep you focused for longer with more strength. You don't need to be erratic, or stressed, under the pump to produce change; you can take it easy, work at a steady pace and give God the glory for reaching out to you when your mental health condition was difficult. The Devil will tell you "you don't need schizophrenia, look it is driving you crazy, let me be the focus" but you don't need to listen to him. You can reply "it is written the Lord will give his angels charge over you; it is written "David pretended to be crazy" and it has been said "you shall not tempt the Lord your God". The power of your schizophrenia may be shaken, but it will not be overcome (for it is founded on the rock of the Word of Christ).
Consistency at the end, is a great strength. Spiritually it will put your schizophrenia in the best state it can be, as will make recovery from over-capitulating or under resourcing easier and lighter. There is a joy knowing your schizophrenia is at least a little predictable and it can bring healing to other parts of your body, that the Spirit of God is able to work through your schizophrenia to bring Him Glory. You will be able to test your stability, as you become familiar with it, knowing in advance what strong and weak schizophrenia looks like - not that one or the other is wrong, but that they work in harmony. And of course, always remember "madness is not sin, if you can't live without it".
I hope this has been of some encouragement. God bless.
