So I’ve been thinking about this for awhile…..
I transferred schools, and after serious issues I came to my districts cyber school, but recently there’s this girl I’ve been thinking about… I forget what exactly led me to think about her, but she was a former crush from my previous schoool year. When I left I slowly forgot about her. So at this point I’m back in school district and I start to think about her and a particular moment with her… then later, when I fell asleep I had a dream, and she was in part of it. Not that it matters but I heard her voice and it was raspy or a tad deeper. Ever since I started to think about her more.. Maybe a week later just a couple days ago, I checked my friends Facebook page, I felt compelled to for some reason, and decided to keep scrolling, and then I saw pictures from earlier this year of my friend and her, and that made me happy…. I haven’t seen her at all and it was nice, and since I couldn’t and can’t stop thinking about her. Maybe it’s that I know I’ll be in same school with her next year I’m not sure. Then I went back on my homepage finding a video, now I get videos about god on there all the time, this when said “don’t let loniness make you come back to the people that god removed from your life.” Do you think that was about her or something else? I haven’t had a lot of people to talk to in cyber, and I have been talking to former friends that aren’t the best, from where I’m going next year. Now I haven’t been able to stop thinking about her. Now later when I went back on my Facebook feed I got a video talking about how god removed them for your life but they’re meant to come back, now some things kind of made sense but I’ve gotten a bunch of theeee videos and some things resonated a little some more. I don’t know… I mean now I’m having trouble trusting god with my future even more now that I feel like I could potentially not see her, if for whatever reason I have to leave this next school I go to. Is this really from god and my liking for her is blocking what god wants me to know? I’ve prayed to god a couple time (I’m still getting into the habit of doing it more) and it feels like he’s been silent.
I transferred schools, and after serious issues I came to my districts cyber school, but recently there’s this girl I’ve been thinking about… I forget what exactly led me to think about her, but she was a former crush from my previous schoool year. When I left I slowly forgot about her. So at this point I’m back in school district and I start to think about her and a particular moment with her… then later, when I fell asleep I had a dream, and she was in part of it. Not that it matters but I heard her voice and it was raspy or a tad deeper. Ever since I started to think about her more.. Maybe a week later just a couple days ago, I checked my friends Facebook page, I felt compelled to for some reason, and decided to keep scrolling, and then I saw pictures from earlier this year of my friend and her, and that made me happy…. I haven’t seen her at all and it was nice, and since I couldn’t and can’t stop thinking about her. Maybe it’s that I know I’ll be in same school with her next year I’m not sure. Then I went back on my homepage finding a video, now I get videos about god on there all the time, this when said “don’t let loniness make you come back to the people that god removed from your life.” Do you think that was about her or something else? I haven’t had a lot of people to talk to in cyber, and I have been talking to former friends that aren’t the best, from where I’m going next year. Now I haven’t been able to stop thinking about her. Now later when I went back on my Facebook feed I got a video talking about how god removed them for your life but they’re meant to come back, now some things kind of made sense but I’ve gotten a bunch of theeee videos and some things resonated a little some more. I don’t know… I mean now I’m having trouble trusting god with my future even more now that I feel like I could potentially not see her, if for whatever reason I have to leave this next school I go to. Is this really from god and my liking for her is blocking what god wants me to know? I’ve prayed to god a couple time (I’m still getting into the habit of doing it more) and it feels like he’s been silent.
