God first
My Father my dad Ilove you!
04-21-2011
I love my father my dad I love with a love that more thanwords can write my father is dear to my heart even thought he has his sins. Istill love him because the only perfect without sin is Christ the God of me. Myfather heath is no so good these days he in the stage of death’s doorwaylooking in at what will be.
With his eyes of flesh the doctor tells me he does not knowI even tell there but I sure he knows I would visit him. But in his seed ofChrist he knows that I am there for him and I will on the day of this deatheven if it years. Because that the day Christ returns for him personally as heclosers his eyes to fleshly to see spiritual things which are real world thatwe live in.
I love you mydad I know you do not know me now but I still love you even you will ever talkagain fleshly or even open your eyes again but I love you. Spiritual you’re agiant when you save my cousin from a dog and sat with her holding her younghand through rabbits shots she had to take for many weeks before I was evenborn. Her face is bad messed up it even today from the dog that you save her.
You fought in the Vietnam War where you got a Bronze StarMedal but never said a word about it or one word boasting from your lips. Inever heard the story behind it I know you recover the dead from battles andwork in a Mash hospital you also began a nurse. You retired from the Army afterbeginning in the Navy disable after twenty years of services you were force toretired because you health.
The Army did not think you would live long but you retiedfrom factory work after receiving a good paycheck from the army. You work hardfor twenty years making good money for me and my sisters you were in pain mostof your life. Friday you had another stoke the doctors said it 7.5 but todayits they said its 9.5 and you don’t know us and never will.
I sat and watch you wondering if I should kill you because Ilove so must I am praying to God for you that you would die were that no more pain.I am crying in my heart that God will help us because it is not legal for me tokill you out of love. You may not even open your eyes again you being feedthrough the nose but tomorrow you will be feed though the belly.
Machines are not keeping you alive because you have a livingwill but I count on doctors and nurses to take of you. Your fighting hard tolive when there nothing anyone can do I wanted to ask for prayers please diewell dad. I love you thank you for reading this with love from my dad and mewith a holy kiss from us.
God first
You are dead now andI still miss you I love you my dad!
03-23-2011
Today is the end of my life enjoying your loving heart but Istill talk at you because I know you well. My dreams are about have my visionsof your love because I am who I am because of you as my dreams take into peace.My visions that seem so real you are like heart summit as I walk upon love thatyou show me.
My sisters and me decided to remove the feeding tube and letyou the operation be stop that might you alive I knew for long time I did notwant or like that ungodly tube. But because I love my sisters I let them decideI told once I did like it and let it alone. I did want to decide for thembecause you could be alive but he never opens your eyes again.
Dad I love more words can tell you while you not have lifein the flesh I know you have in the spiritual form which the stage of life forus all. I will see you in my dreams as you travel to the above. Thank you dadfor being there for me I love you and give a holy kiss your son Roy.