My Life Was Just a Loaf of Bread

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Born in the year 1973. I have had many years of reflection. I have found nothing that could explain this reality, and I find no comfort in the explanations humans find comfort in. God is no comfort. Therefore I agonize over what I really am in this reality that any God threw me in without warning. At my age life has lost is taste, it's texture, it's excitement. It's all become dull and a grind that can not be remedied by some sales person, or whatever. I don't want to say anymore.
 
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Born in the year 1973. I have had many years of reflection. I have found nothing that could explain this reality, and I find no comfort in the explanations humans find comfort in. God is no comfort. Therefore I agonize over what I really am in this reality that any God threw me in without warning. At my age life has lost is taste, it's texture, it's excitement. It's all become dull and a grind that can not be remedied by some sales person, or whatever. I don't want to say anymore.
Your situation is not uncommon I.O.U....it fills pubs and clubs and fuels addictions.
If Jesus is not resurrected all the yada yada from a dozen and more angles is nothing more than pi.sing in the wind, however if he is resurrected, it becomes a game changer. You can ask God for help, for revelation, for clarity and I assure you, if that plea is from your heart, ie if you are serious about knowing, circumstances will arrange and people you meet will direct you to answers asked for.
 
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At my age life has lost is taste
I totally relate!

What you need is to shift from being a taste tester to embrace a purpose driven life. We all need this.

I feel I mostly lost that after I raised my family and got divorced. I started a thread yesterday about being at the nadir after being at the mountain top. I'm afraid forum rules may not allow you to post. I don't know.

I did discover what Scripture says is the purpose of life, if you are interested. I'll pray for you, my friend.
 
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Born in the year 1973. I have had many years of reflection. I have found nothing that could explain this reality, and I find no comfort in the explanations humans find comfort in. God is no comfort. Therefore I agonize over what I really am in this reality that any God threw me in without warning. At my age life has lost is taste, it's texture, it's excitement. It's all become dull and a grind that can not be remedied by some sales person, or whatever. I don't want to say anymore.

Sounds just like God, to leave a void in one's life which only he can fill.
He's calling you. He's knocking on your door. He's reaching out to you.

I urge you, open the door.
 

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Born in the year 1973. I have had many years of reflection. I have found nothing that could explain this reality, and I find no comfort in the explanations humans find comfort in. God is no comfort. Therefore I agonize over what I really am in this reality that any God threw me in without warning. At my age life has lost is taste, it's texture, it's excitement. It's all become dull and a grind that can not be remedied by some sales person, or whatever. I don't want to say anymore.
i have never seen much of what we call religion in the Bible…and i also dont know why i started with that :D
but i did mean to get to the part where there is a kind of remedy for that, that most “Christians” never embark upon, as near as i can tell, only you wouldnt much like it i guess; perform the sending of the seventy, basically. And where it says “two” go out, understand that you are taking two with you anyway, as you are divided.

I did this literally at right about your age, ended up being ten years, and lemme tell you, nothing went according to plan, the passage about it made no sense at the time, and yet it gave me a newfound joy and appreciation of what i now experience every day, even though i do still have to die daily, and can also easily fall back into dysphoria—but now i can quickly walk out, whereas before i would just go get high or something. Im ten years behind you, if you slow down ill catch up :)

you have hot and cold running water, right? hard to see how that might be a problem, huh
i tell ya man, when you have got picked up in a car by a transformer, and you are now wondering if you are going to live to see sunrise, your weltschmerz disappears right quick! lol
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you have hot and cold running water, right? hard to see how that might be a problem, huh
i tell ya man, when you have got picked up in a car by a transformer, and you are now wondering if you are going to live to see sunrise, your weltschmerz disappears right quick! lol

This reminds me of an episode of All in the Family I want to apply to you.
Meathead: Everything you say is incomprehensible.
Archie: That might be true but it makes a lot of sense. ;)
 
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No more than a week ago when I dropped into a local church to ask for food assistance, a woman who overheard the conversation I was having with the charity support, who walked up and interrupted us to reinforce that Jesus loves me. I replied to her saying "It is so easy to say that, but do nothing to show that Jesus loves me" Again I was proven right about beliefs themselves and how they are completely self serving. From there it crossed my mind to kill her dead!
 
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No more than a week ago when I dropped into a local church to ask for food assistance, a woman who overheard the conversation I was having with the charity support walked up and interrupted me having to reinforce that Jesus loves me. I replied to her saying "It is so easy to say that, but do nothing to show that Jesus loves me" Again I was proven right about beliefs themselves and how they are completely self serving. From there it crossed my mind to kill her dead!
Sometimes I feel like Jesus on the cross when he said, "Forgive them Father, for the know not what they do."

Some people, in ignorance, though well intending, make matters worse.

If you PM me your address, I'll send you some food.
 
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Sometimes I feel like Jesus on the cross when he said, "Forgive them Father, for the know not what they do."

Some people, in ignorance, though well intending, make matters worse.

If you PM me your address, I'll send you some food.
It's fine. No one starves in Australia. Other wicked things, but there is no starvation here.
 

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Your situation is not uncommon I.O.U....it fills pubs and clubs and fuels addictions.
If Jesus is not resurrected all the yada yada from a dozen and more angles is nothing more than pi.sing in the wind, however if he is resurrected, it becomes a game changer. You can ask God for help, for revelation, for clarity and I assure you, if that plea is from your heart, ie if you are serious about knowing, circumstances will arrange and people you meet will direct you to answers asked for.
No. I just need nature to do it's job and end my life.
 

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I totally relate!

What you need is to shift from being a taste tester to embrace a purpose driven life. We all need this.

I feel I mostly lost that after I raised my family and got divorced. I started a thread yesterday about being at the nadir after being at the mountain top. I'm afraid forum rules may not allow you to post. I don't know.

I did discover what Scripture says is the purpose of life, if you are interested. I'll pray for you, my friend.
And I'll pray for the end of Christianity (Well actually all religion)
 

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Sounds just like God, to leave a void in one's life which only he can fill.
He's calling you. He's knocking on your door. He's reaching out to you.

I urge you, open the door.
Too believe? No thankyou.
 

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It's fine. No one starves in Australia. Other wicked things, but there is no starvation here.
Good to hear. I've always believed in the BODY-MIND-SPIRIT triangle of priorities. I suppose this sets me apart from mystics who have it upside down.

You've been on my mind and I hope you are doing well.
 

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Born in the year 1973. I have had many years of reflection. I have found nothing that could explain this reality, and I find no comfort in the explanations humans find comfort in. God is no comfort. Therefore I agonize over what I really am in this reality that any God threw me in without warning. At my age life has lost is taste, it's texture, it's excitement. It's all become dull and a grind that can not be remedied by some sales person, or whatever. I don't want to say anymore.
Try Jesus, he will show you the real God and give you his Holy Spirit to direct you and encourage you.
 

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Good to hear. I've always believed in the BODY-MIND-SPIRIT triangle of priorities. I suppose this sets me apart from mystics who have it upside down.

You've been on my mind and I hope you are doing well.
You forgot emotion. Body, mind, emotion and spirit. Emotion, our 6th sense.
 

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Born in the year 1973. I have had many years of reflection. I have found nothing that could explain this reality, and I find no comfort in the explanations humans find comfort in. God is no comfort. Therefore I agonize over what I really am in this reality that any God threw me in without warning. At my age life has lost is taste, it's texture, it's excitement. It's all become dull and a grind that can not be remedied by some sales person, or whatever. I don't want to say anymore.
Hello IOU,

You should read the book called Sabertooth Man —- am to a point in the story he was cutting himself and went on to a store and tried to find more ways to Kill himself, then walked up a 22 story building to jump off but decided to stick around…

www.cult.love = store = the sabertooth man $7.00
 
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As a side note I still get frustrated in this life and angry and sometimes God sees my thoughts of desiring to Kill myself though I like the idea of living more for awhile.

There always times of ups and downs and you wake up pissed off… the only one I found to calm my soul is Jesus Christ, maybe he could be answer for you too.

Encouragement to read the Bible brother and stick with Matthew, Mark, Luke, John and then proceed to the letters if you desire may you find rest for your own soul in Him.

Take care @I.O.U
 
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