I don't have communication with the ex, she's remarried and such and lives in another state now far away. We don't talk. I'm really unsure why I have dreams about her and I kinda think they're more about God instead.
Could be. However, my point was about you personally. Is there anything you have left unsaid, or that is still an issue for you with regard to your ex?
Of course she's moved on with her life. But it is you that has these dreams. That can mean it is something in your subconscious or conscience even, that has not fully resolved the breakup with her. And perhaps now it's showing up to let you know what you need to still let go of in order to have peace.
She's moved on. But have you?
Don't answer this, this is simply probing on my part to see if when you read this if it has any resonance, applies, to maybe be the reason you have dreams about getting back with her.
Who initiated the divorce?
Did it come out of left field? For the other of you, meaning the one who was asked for the divorce, not the one who asked for the divorce.
Do you want to get back with her?
As far as the crushing feeling in your dreams, if the masks are an issue for you, if you have breathing issues, like asthma, COPD, that may be part of why you're having those dreams.
Masks are stifeling, and are hot. Especially in summer and especially if it's humid. How those make you feel can be why you have those dreams of being crushed. Because of the anxiety you have just wearing masks. Masks don't protect us from others. It's suppose protects others from us. If that makes sense. In actuality none of this mask stuff makes sense.
Masks can cause issues to the wearer too.
Best wishes.