Hi there,
So I wanted to post this thread, mostly for myself (at least to begin with). I frequently have doubts, that I am living the Christian faith and I have concerns about arbitrary acts of faith, that don't have a standard of some kind. One of those standards that I think applies, is how much God means to me. The conviction I have, from the Holy Spirit, is that God should mean everything to me. I mean this so sincerely, that I am ready to say "I am not a Christian, unless God means everything to me". Note that I am not accusing you, or anyone of unforgiveable sin - as pertains to what God means to them. All I am saying, is as the conviction of the Holy Spirit has been to me, this is what I think it means.
Ok, so you can tell already, that I am not going to do anything for God, unless He means everything to me first. If God means everything to me, then I will have the status of "Christian" and the expectations that go with that, will make sense (more sense) as I apply myself, to living in a way that exemplifies the meaning of God to myself and others. It should not be an exclusive "everything" because that would not be "everything". In an extended sense, then, I am for God, no matter who He is with, or whom He is for. It is a position of servitude, that I wait for my Master, that when He knocks, I may open to Him. This is important! I want to welcome God, even with all the baggage the world gives Him. That is my position.
I am not looking to be welcomed myself. That is the next point. I want to receive God into myself, whatever the consequence. It is my belief that it should mean something, of God - but need not necessarily be for me. And this is the crucial thing, at some point, God relationship with me, will be for me. I merely refrain from insisting it be for me, before it is. Does this mean that it will never be for me? No, at some point, the fact that I have responded to God, will mean that He wants to do something with me, that He doesn't do with anyone else. What is that thing? It is up to God. I have the faith, that He will answer. That is how God empowers both of us, to come together.
And what does it mean, for God to empower both of us to come together, God meaning everything? I guess that is why I started this thread: God meaning everything, means that what He asks me, will consume me. Jesus said "How I yearn for the kingdom to come" (from memory, the gospels); in a sense, I am growing that yearning, within myself - for the things of God, that come with His meaning what He does. I want this to be powerful, engulfing, impactful, dramatic. All these things are aspects of the everything that God is, to me. I will declare it in the open, I will resound with His Word. Yes! This is what it is to be Christian - and I will say it again!
I feel like I have been in the world, too long, without declaring this - my soul has longed for God, long before I coined the idea of God meaning "everything". It is a measure of trust, I am trying to show, that I want more than the world ("for he who loves the world, is an enemy of God" from memory, the letters). This is what is going to make sense, as I move forward: that God and I will be everything together, as we make of Heaven all that we ever dreamed. There will be people who don't understand how I am any different, from someone who loves the world, but in my heart I will know: I have forsaken the world and the things of it, to be in Love with God. That God foreplaned a place for His Word in me and will nourish it, in time to come, with all things of Heaven, which He has created. It can't happen without quickening of some kind - and for that I am ready.
What I want you to know, is that I am not cheating your God! I am not saying anyone else but me has faced the possibility that God not mean everything, and that I am convinced God is everything, of that I am sure, not just for me, but for you also. God has meant everything to you, all this time and I have come along and said "it is true, God is everything" not because I want to take faith from you, but because I want to face the enemy with you! We can stand together, knowing that God was already everything, even before we wondered, what manner of relationship He has with us. There is power in this: that we know what being "everything" is to God, because we know it together.
I was worried that I would not affirm you, believing what I believe, but I can see now that God has not prepared me to do that - how gracious He is!
God bless.
So I wanted to post this thread, mostly for myself (at least to begin with). I frequently have doubts, that I am living the Christian faith and I have concerns about arbitrary acts of faith, that don't have a standard of some kind. One of those standards that I think applies, is how much God means to me. The conviction I have, from the Holy Spirit, is that God should mean everything to me. I mean this so sincerely, that I am ready to say "I am not a Christian, unless God means everything to me". Note that I am not accusing you, or anyone of unforgiveable sin - as pertains to what God means to them. All I am saying, is as the conviction of the Holy Spirit has been to me, this is what I think it means.
Ok, so you can tell already, that I am not going to do anything for God, unless He means everything to me first. If God means everything to me, then I will have the status of "Christian" and the expectations that go with that, will make sense (more sense) as I apply myself, to living in a way that exemplifies the meaning of God to myself and others. It should not be an exclusive "everything" because that would not be "everything". In an extended sense, then, I am for God, no matter who He is with, or whom He is for. It is a position of servitude, that I wait for my Master, that when He knocks, I may open to Him. This is important! I want to welcome God, even with all the baggage the world gives Him. That is my position.
I am not looking to be welcomed myself. That is the next point. I want to receive God into myself, whatever the consequence. It is my belief that it should mean something, of God - but need not necessarily be for me. And this is the crucial thing, at some point, God relationship with me, will be for me. I merely refrain from insisting it be for me, before it is. Does this mean that it will never be for me? No, at some point, the fact that I have responded to God, will mean that He wants to do something with me, that He doesn't do with anyone else. What is that thing? It is up to God. I have the faith, that He will answer. That is how God empowers both of us, to come together.
And what does it mean, for God to empower both of us to come together, God meaning everything? I guess that is why I started this thread: God meaning everything, means that what He asks me, will consume me. Jesus said "How I yearn for the kingdom to come" (from memory, the gospels); in a sense, I am growing that yearning, within myself - for the things of God, that come with His meaning what He does. I want this to be powerful, engulfing, impactful, dramatic. All these things are aspects of the everything that God is, to me. I will declare it in the open, I will resound with His Word. Yes! This is what it is to be Christian - and I will say it again!
I feel like I have been in the world, too long, without declaring this - my soul has longed for God, long before I coined the idea of God meaning "everything". It is a measure of trust, I am trying to show, that I want more than the world ("for he who loves the world, is an enemy of God" from memory, the letters). This is what is going to make sense, as I move forward: that God and I will be everything together, as we make of Heaven all that we ever dreamed. There will be people who don't understand how I am any different, from someone who loves the world, but in my heart I will know: I have forsaken the world and the things of it, to be in Love with God. That God foreplaned a place for His Word in me and will nourish it, in time to come, with all things of Heaven, which He has created. It can't happen without quickening of some kind - and for that I am ready.
What I want you to know, is that I am not cheating your God! I am not saying anyone else but me has faced the possibility that God not mean everything, and that I am convinced God is everything, of that I am sure, not just for me, but for you also. God has meant everything to you, all this time and I have come along and said "it is true, God is everything" not because I want to take faith from you, but because I want to face the enemy with you! We can stand together, knowing that God was already everything, even before we wondered, what manner of relationship He has with us. There is power in this: that we know what being "everything" is to God, because we know it together.
I was worried that I would not affirm you, believing what I believe, but I can see now that God has not prepared me to do that - how gracious He is!
God bless.
