God didn't make it hard to trust him. All the doctrines that are fed to us made it hard to trust Him.
To be honest, I didn't trust God until very recently (today), and I tried to lie to myself and say I did. I also didn't love God, although I tried to lie to myself and say I did.
Everynow and then, I would just pray, "Help me love you lord!" Then I'd go back to being worried, and frustrated. It just dawned on me. It's not the Lord I don't love, or trust. It's the god that's been decribed to me my whole life that I despise. It's all the lies and corruption that spews out of the mouths of our supposed spiritual leaders. It's the false information and twisting of scriptures that spew from the minds of our supposed scholars and translators. It's all of the mismash of ideas, opinions, and speculations. All of these has formed a vision in my mind of what I've always called God the Destructor.
In light of my studies the past couple of weeks, this is no longer my view, and the flood gates of understanding and seeing are open at the moment.
Most of my inner turmoil about God is gone now. I can actually see the Mercy in God, and in His word. Trust, is something I know is in the very near future in my relationship with God. I have nothing but contempt for the god that was shown to me throughout my life, who wasn't the real God of the Bible.