That was good that he had someone to take care of him. I know that people abuse drugs, but they help people to die without pain. What would we do without them? I am hoping to graduate from hospice. The nurse said that some do, but that I should not get my hopes up, especially with stage 4 cancer. Stage 4 means that it is spreading. I just don't like the unknown. How long is this going to take? A month? Six months? I feel helpless. I am used to being in charge. I am no longer in charge, and I don't like it. The Lord is in charge, but he won't tell me when I am going to die either.