Pouring out of my heart to him.
He was sitting across from me. As he sat he was leaning forward toward me, elbows on his knees, hands together. An attitude of full attention to me.
As I saw him I broke and began to cry. As I did he spoke. "you asked" He said. And I had. Earlier I had spoken to him and asked that he reveal himself to me. I'm always at him approaching from what I believe to be a different perspective. When he spoke those words I wept more realizing what he meant.
No physical form had I seen but a spiritual view as Jesus sat knowing the constant pain, the frustration I was feeling. Yesterday he had told me "never see yourself separate from me."
The scripture, one of the top ten unfathomable, inscrutable, mysterious ones in the manufacturer's handbook - ie the Bible, says "in him we live and move and have our being". What Bible scholar can give us a full understanding of those astounding words?
When I hear a speaker purported to be the experts expert on the Bible I yawn and go elsewhere. Our Lord is the only expert on himself. No pot can explain the life of the potter. The volume of the pot is not sufficient to do this.
The yearning of the heart of the spirit baptized disciple of Jesus to know more, hear more, see more, learn more, get closer, receive more is insatiable. There is nothing more completely consuming than the pursuit of knowing him.
How he can pay 100% attention to me while doing the same to every person, every living thing at once is beyond us. But it's so. He's here with me continually but from time to time he increases the amount, the anointing, the presence of Himself just as he did when I saw him sitting, intently concerned with me and my brokenness.
Though we can meet and talk with other Christians there is a a desire for him that cannot be described.
Psalm 147:3 KJVS
He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.
I often wonder how hard others seek him, pour out every fragment of their hearts to him. Seeing the awesome attraction of his Holy Spirit it surely must be every born again spirit fllled Christian disciple on earth. Often I don't realize when I am not pressing toward him as I should. Then I begin to feel alone and distanced. I must again break or be broken and reach out to him with my whole heart and being. Get back to the business of seeking him with all of my being.
That I am not an expert on the Bible, on Hebrew or Greek or ancient Israel He cares not one iota. He loves me. Not what I can do or what I know. He fetched me out of the wilderness when no church denomination created by man sought me at all. He got up from his throne and came to get a sheep that was standing alone in the briar patch of life bleating for help.
Ezekiel 34:11 KJVS
For thus saith the Lord God ; Behold, I, even I, will both search my sheep, and seek them out.
If it's set in your mind that only men witnessing to others bring new believers in then that is not the case. Jesus still goes about fetching those that have fled from religion. Men create warped religions and denominations and wonder that masses don’t crowd their doors.
Only the flood of love flowing from the savior attracts men. I didn't know to repent before him but he taught me. I didn't know to ask for him to fill me with his Holy Spirit but he taught me. He can be trusted.
How do I know if a man is from God I asked him long ago.
"if a man is from me he will want nothing from you. He will only want to give to you, to enrich your life".
He is present with you if you have yielded to his spirit and been made, reborn into a brand new person. With his urging press into him with your complete being. Be sensitive to his spirit by means of his peace. If your spirit man is agitated and upset it will be easy to miss his still small voice.
My problems, my troubles, my pain are just as great as before but knowing he knows and cares helps me. Surely he'll Make a way to escape the cares and troubles of this life, this frail body.
Seeing the magnitude of afflictions and burdens I must somehow give over to him I now that must press in more than ever to find his ways.
There is another place I post but will not post this there. The people are denominational and because of religion and pride not even ONE person would respond. Would admit that they too are beset with afflictions, hardships. When I pour out my heart all you hear is crickets. When I see this and know that Jesus saved me from my sins and from cold, dead, prideful religious denominations I am once more filled with thanksgiving that I am not part of the the deadness of man made perversions of the redeeming true gospel! Hallelujah he has saved us from more than we realize.
Does this seem familiar to anyone? I hope so.
He was sitting across from me. As he sat he was leaning forward toward me, elbows on his knees, hands together. An attitude of full attention to me.
As I saw him I broke and began to cry. As I did he spoke. "you asked" He said. And I had. Earlier I had spoken to him and asked that he reveal himself to me. I'm always at him approaching from what I believe to be a different perspective. When he spoke those words I wept more realizing what he meant.
No physical form had I seen but a spiritual view as Jesus sat knowing the constant pain, the frustration I was feeling. Yesterday he had told me "never see yourself separate from me."
The scripture, one of the top ten unfathomable, inscrutable, mysterious ones in the manufacturer's handbook - ie the Bible, says "in him we live and move and have our being". What Bible scholar can give us a full understanding of those astounding words?
When I hear a speaker purported to be the experts expert on the Bible I yawn and go elsewhere. Our Lord is the only expert on himself. No pot can explain the life of the potter. The volume of the pot is not sufficient to do this.
The yearning of the heart of the spirit baptized disciple of Jesus to know more, hear more, see more, learn more, get closer, receive more is insatiable. There is nothing more completely consuming than the pursuit of knowing him.
How he can pay 100% attention to me while doing the same to every person, every living thing at once is beyond us. But it's so. He's here with me continually but from time to time he increases the amount, the anointing, the presence of Himself just as he did when I saw him sitting, intently concerned with me and my brokenness.
Though we can meet and talk with other Christians there is a a desire for him that cannot be described.
Psalm 147:3 KJVS
He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.
I often wonder how hard others seek him, pour out every fragment of their hearts to him. Seeing the awesome attraction of his Holy Spirit it surely must be every born again spirit fllled Christian disciple on earth. Often I don't realize when I am not pressing toward him as I should. Then I begin to feel alone and distanced. I must again break or be broken and reach out to him with my whole heart and being. Get back to the business of seeking him with all of my being.
That I am not an expert on the Bible, on Hebrew or Greek or ancient Israel He cares not one iota. He loves me. Not what I can do or what I know. He fetched me out of the wilderness when no church denomination created by man sought me at all. He got up from his throne and came to get a sheep that was standing alone in the briar patch of life bleating for help.
Ezekiel 34:11 KJVS
For thus saith the Lord God ; Behold, I, even I, will both search my sheep, and seek them out.
If it's set in your mind that only men witnessing to others bring new believers in then that is not the case. Jesus still goes about fetching those that have fled from religion. Men create warped religions and denominations and wonder that masses don’t crowd their doors.
Only the flood of love flowing from the savior attracts men. I didn't know to repent before him but he taught me. I didn't know to ask for him to fill me with his Holy Spirit but he taught me. He can be trusted.
How do I know if a man is from God I asked him long ago.
"if a man is from me he will want nothing from you. He will only want to give to you, to enrich your life".
He is present with you if you have yielded to his spirit and been made, reborn into a brand new person. With his urging press into him with your complete being. Be sensitive to his spirit by means of his peace. If your spirit man is agitated and upset it will be easy to miss his still small voice.
My problems, my troubles, my pain are just as great as before but knowing he knows and cares helps me. Surely he'll Make a way to escape the cares and troubles of this life, this frail body.
Seeing the magnitude of afflictions and burdens I must somehow give over to him I now that must press in more than ever to find his ways.
There is another place I post but will not post this there. The people are denominational and because of religion and pride not even ONE person would respond. Would admit that they too are beset with afflictions, hardships. When I pour out my heart all you hear is crickets. When I see this and know that Jesus saved me from my sins and from cold, dead, prideful religious denominations I am once more filled with thanksgiving that I am not part of the the deadness of man made perversions of the redeeming true gospel! Hallelujah he has saved us from more than we realize.
Does this seem familiar to anyone? I hope so.
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