Recently all of a sudden i have been having audible hallucinations. It's a demon. It tells me I'm going to go crazier. That this is my nw normal. That it hates me and can make my worst nightmare come to life. That he is pensive about all my thoughts that I'm hopeless. That I should do this and that. That I should suck duck pussy. Never would I ever think such a thing. Inreally made him mad. That I will see him later. I rebuke all of his lies in Jesus name and command him to leave me alone. Tells me my worst nightmares and to eat poop and how much he hates me. How that I don't look like a normal non threatening person. Me realizing I'm shaking and my eyes start twitching. Oh this is your new normal. You don't look unprocessed at all. I can make all the nightmares come true. You should not have thought that or rebuked me. Do u understand me. It's hard for me to dress myself or go to the bathroom because my eyes start to climb the walls. I become disoriented. Went to the phcyward, but they won't accept me because I am not suicidal and I can't go to the bathroom or change lone when this comes upon me. I will be happily eating dinner and the next thing you know have to go lay down, trembling, sweating, trying to breath. My chest hurting, my face straining, my heart pounding and my last breathe I'm praying desperately to you God I commit my spirit. I rebuke the demon in Jesus name. Command it to leave me alone. Beg for a night of sleep. Pray the pills work. Pray I make it to the bed without going limp and falling or staring at the floor trying to remember what I'm doing and how to dress into my pj's. Counting down the minutes until bed time. Making 12 years seem short and five minutes of this dialog in my brain 5 years. Can't think straight, not managing the time, can't remember or think at all. Can't look people in the eye or follow their conversations and the conversations they are having with me. Praying to God for deliverance and that people don't give up on me or God. Can't go to church anymore. Some people at church are praying for me because they heard I needed prayer. No details. Accept my pastor and his wife know. They have not contact me. I feel like they don't care. For July 4th my mom made them desert and my dad gave it to them. You think it'd be the other way around. You think one would fast and pray or fix a meal knowing full well we've been up or hours and going to the hospital. My mom having to cancel work she needs to go to to keep her job. The only income they have. I can't even walk straight or look in the mirror when I get episodes. The demon preys on every thought I have. It's hard for me to function even eat. I have never done drugs in my life, alcohol, sex, porn, witch craft. Yet I'm having a demon trying to take over even my eye contact. do I look Christian like that. I look demonic. How about a lifetime of this. I pray with all my heart for it to leave period. It tells me there is no hope. That God damns me. I say no he will never leave or forsake me. Then the whole thing starts over again. I'm very pensive about you do u understand me!!! Do u understand me!!!! I pray I have no triggers on trigger words on anyone's conversations. I just need a miracle.. I've been praying my heart out and my parents are too. Just seems I've gotten worse and nothing works.
you ready to hear the solution .
Flee the ecumencial realm . flee them and do not support the RCC or nar realm or any who twists the word .
Rather get into the bible for yourself .
NOW any voice that tells you its too late for you , DO NOT HEED IT . I repeat DO NOT HEED IT .
Was it too late for paul who killed christains and put to death and had them put to death who preached THE GOSPEL .
NO .
AS LONG as breath be in your lungs , IT NEVER TOO LATE . its only too late once you die .
DO NOT HEED any v oice that tells you , YOU Done too much wrong , its too late for you
or etc . IT AINT . IT IS NOT TOO LATE .
ITS ONLY TOO LATE , IF YOU BELEIVE ITS TOO LATE . dont buy the lie .
GOD will forgive even the worst of the worst and actually DOES DESIRE the wicked to repent than to DIE .
You open bible and say , I AM READY TO HEED and TO HEAR YOU LORD .
I am no better than the worst
The only goodness in me comes OF YOUR SPIRIT .
AND ST OP heeding this nar realm , this inclusive love mumbo jumbo stuff .
Rather let us open bible and start being reminded OF THE LOVE OF GOD , OF THE TRUTH
and HOLD every WORD of GOD as TRUTH and as GOOD FOR YOUR SOUL .
EVEN , yES even EvERY dire warning , no ma tter how dire the warning sounded .
GOD always warned , FOR ONE REASON . JUST ONE REASON .
HE DESIRED NOT THEIR DEATH but rather their repentance .
START SEEING EVERY WORD OF GOD as MEANT FOR YOUR OWN GOOD .
SEE every WORD OF JESUS as such
SEE every letter of the apostels as such .
AND YES , i will be p raying for US all . None are better than any , and i was the worst of many .
THE ONLY , i do mean ONLY , goodness i have and only reason i am better OFF IS DUE TO HIM . open bible and enjoy it .
