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You have no clue what you're talking about. If you've never walked through healing of horrific trauma, nor sought the Lord for understanding, then you have no right to come here and accuse anyone of "returning to bondage." This journey is the exact opposite ....it is submitting our brokenness...

This is a very common thing done in programming to make the child/alter believe they have had their heart of flesh replaced with a stony heart. I had an alter who believed she had a stone for a heart. Jesus came and touched her heart and she saw the truth, that she had a real flesh heart.

Internal worlds are created by programmers using trauma+a child's imagination. Alters can appear (inside) to look human or as fairies, angels, a ragdoll, a tree, mirrors, doors, gates, walls, animals, computers or components of computers, etc ....whatever is needed for the programmer to get what...

"Children of light" sounds like a label given in programming, like "star children." What is it that seems unrealistic?

Whatever littles need to experience good, safe enjoyment ....I love it! (I still have a little teddy bear on my bed. lol ... I'm 49.) Another thing I did was to purchase a child's version of "Hinds Feet on High Places." Crayons and drawing paper are good to have, although my littles didn't use...

The good that can come from this is your freedom and healing. As long as you hold onto it and harbor it inside, it is festering. It needs to be brought to the light so God can bring resolution.

As far as cover memories, that is not talking about ritual memories as cover memories. A cover memory in my experience was actually something that happened. Cover memories aren't always created with virtual reality. Most often, it's as simple as one alter experiencing being taken on a camping...

The symbols were in blood? If you saw any symbol in blood, or things related to the moon, I'd say there was an occult connection. I'm still trying to figure out what you mean by "moving symbols."

Then why would you believe your daughter if she told you someone molested her? She could have just imagined it. I'm trying to help you see the logic and make connections. Why do you think God said to train up a child in the way he should go? Do you realize that satanic worship, child...

Idk exactly what you're asking. Are you asking if there are rituals on certain moon phases? If so, the answer is yes. Let me ask you something.... how do you suppose those things were in your mind as a child? Do you think you were just that evil? What do you think about the scripture that...

Beautiful truth.

I'm glad I could help put words to it that you can relate to. I hope it helps. I know it's extremely difficult to deal with the duality in your family ....the Jekyll and Hyde thing .... it's kinda crazy making and that's the whole purpose of it, to make you doubt what happened.

How do you feel about the song? Those little parts need to be embraced. Let me tell you something that used to happen to me A LOT especially in my early years of deprogramming. The Lord would call me to spend time in His presence and I would feel such excitement and anticipation to be in His...

Interesting you use the word "deleting." That is another common type of denial. One day in 2006, my landline phone went dead. It was before I had a cellphone. I drove down the road to use a payphone and call the phone company. The phone company tested my line and said nothing was wrong with...

This programming also served to keep the Christian alters disconnected from those who were used by the cult and reinforce amnesic barriers in the mind. Interestingly, less than a year after I became aware of this programming, my front alter system began to merge and I, as a part who rarely held...

Makes sense. It is denial programming. See if you can relate to what I share below.... @lilygrace @Mayflower The phrase "believe NOT to believe" is something I overheard an alter saying inside back in 2007. I had been struggling intensely every time I got memories. I'd begin to feel like I...

Wow, that's very interesting. @lilygrace mentioned it sounds familiar to her as well. Can you explain or put into words what that phrase makes you feel? What is it that triggers that to come up for you? I'll share in a bit how it was for me, but I want to wait for your answer.

Good ... thank you for sharing. :)

I don't believe I did. I know you've had a very intense struggle with denial. Tell me something.... what does "forgetting those things that are behind" mean to you in light of the healing process?

@Mayflower @truthquest @lilygrace Take a listen to this song. This song was written and sung by an SRA survivor with DID. I think it states very well what our healing journey looks like. This is how we put the past behind us. @Shattered Idk if you're able to listen, but I think it would be...