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Yes, my memories were always more along the lines of it being a vacation. But here's the thing ...all the kids in the family (siblings, cousins) would spend a week or so at our uncle/aunt's home in the summers. But in my conscious memory, it was just us at their house, cookouts, spending time at...

Thank you for explaining, @marks. :) I see that @Jostler is online. I've been really looking forward to him being able to get back to what he was sharing yesterday morning. :)

I always had memories of the mayan pyramids, since around age 14 (maybe earlier). I remembered being there with one of my uncles on my mother's side. And I remembered that some of my older cousins were there as well. I always remembered is going up lots of steps, into these narrow...

This is very heartbreaking...we must keep them in our prayers. God sees and I know that He still has a plan for freedom no matter if they can participate in this thread, or He sends support in another way.

Very encouraging words ... thank you, @Addy. God bless you.

I see. You still have triggers. This is something that survivors of SRA/MK can relate to, but on steroids, because of the level and intensity of deliberate mind shattering trauma, usually beginning in the womb, or at least by age 2 or 3. Did you have any memories that were repressed or blocked?

Looking forward to it. :) Love and blessings! :)

Thank you. Yes, it was horrific beyond words. :/ I am grateful to God the jaguar was there. It was a real physical jaguar. Idk why he was there, but we must have been bonded in some way, because he watched over me like a beloved guard dog. I still left the body at some point ...the torture was...

Not really, bc they were kind of facing each other, occasionally looking over at me, as they were discussing me, my "special/chosen" status (which of course, is not an honor any of us want!!), my bloodline, and their plans and purpose for the future. He was thin, not overly huge or muscular. I...

How long would you say you experienced the effects and pain from the abuse you suffered?

The lizard stood upright, thin ...not incredibly tall...maybe over 5 feet, but not over 6 ft. The anubis type was taller ... I'd say over 6ft. Mind you, I was 4 yrs old and bound to an altar. So that is my best assessment. I don't remember any humans there other than myself and the s*crificial...

Thank you for clarifying. That makes more sense.

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Yes, you are correct ...anubis is the Egyptian "god of the dead." There was a big celebration of this entity by our own nation several years back when they put up the "arch of baal" in New York City and then paraded a huge statue of anubis across the country to the Denver Airport.

Wow, now that is even more interesting. I do have memories of a ritual when I was age 4 (mayan pyramids) that was conducted by 2 nephilim. One was an upright lizard and the other was an "Anubis" ... human body with a dog head.

I'm sure you're doing this already, but maybe ask inside who wanted the necklace and why.

Interesting. It very well could be....

I see what you're saying. But in reality, I value the contributions of fellow survivors just as much .... that's why I'm even here on this forum. I don't come to a Christian forum to take part in theological debates and arguments or post Harry Potter or Michael Jackson (like I see in other areas...

Well, idk ....but I don't think so.

No, ma'am, you were inadvertently triggered ...you're not mean. If you were mean, you wouldn't care that you were mean. But you do care.