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The Chosen isn't a movie that claims to be a word for word translation of the Bible. They have taken scripture and put visuals to it that portray many things that actually happened, but also some things that could have been the way it happened ....but still do not take away or add to scripture...

There is a little truth in that, with a good bit of twisting (by your mom). Saying that is like saying it's God's will for us to have been abused. Or justifying her and your father's actions of withholding things and opportunities from you that they should have provided because somehow it wasn't...

Great work! Praying for you as these memories become clear. It's funny how memories are stored and how things can trigger them to come forward. Most of my life I had an aversion to balloons because of the sound they made when they pop. I always thought it was because my mom told me to be...

You've gathered your own interpretation that you've failed to actually prove scripturally.

Praying and thinking about her. Maybe @JohnDB knows if she's okay?

"There are a lot of missing years in my life. I feel like everything was stolen from me. Everything. My family, my childhood, my free will, my choices and my life to be who God intended me to be." @truthquest You are who God intended you to be....an overcomer! :)

@truthquest For some reason, I can't quote your text in your last post so I'll copy/paste it here and reply.... "Yes, I know what you're talking about. I know that's the reason why I can't remember many things. But the things I do remember or know about so far, has given me a lot of information...

Wow, this struggle to feel like you have an existence is something so common in survivors of trauma dealing with dissociation. Your family has worked very hard to keep you from having a way to move toward independence. It doesn't mean you're flawed or incapable. You've just had a lot of...

Sorry to hear that, @Heart2Soul!! That is something most survivors have experienced ... deliberate death traumas ... drownings, resuscitation, suffocations followed by reviving... being placed in ice and frozen, etc ...death traumas are so common, and very powerful for anchoring in programming...

Yes, my memories were always more along the lines of it being a vacation. But here's the thing ...all the kids in the family (siblings, cousins) would spend a week or so at our uncle/aunt's home in the summers. But in my conscious memory, it was just us at their house, cookouts, spending time at...

Thank you for explaining, @marks. :) I see that @Jostler is online. I've been really looking forward to him being able to get back to what he was sharing yesterday morning. :)

I always had memories of the mayan pyramids, since around age 14 (maybe earlier). I remembered being there with one of my uncles on my mother's side. And I remembered that some of my older cousins were there as well. I always remembered is going up lots of steps, into these narrow...

This is very heartbreaking...we must keep them in our prayers. God sees and I know that He still has a plan for freedom no matter if they can participate in this thread, or He sends support in another way.

Very encouraging words ... thank you, @Addy. God bless you.

I see. You still have triggers. This is something that survivors of SRA/MK can relate to, but on steroids, because of the level and intensity of deliberate mind shattering trauma, usually beginning in the womb, or at least by age 2 or 3. Did you have any memories that were repressed or blocked?

Looking forward to it. :) Love and blessings! :)

Thank you. Yes, it was horrific beyond words. :/ I am grateful to God the jaguar was there. It was a real physical jaguar. Idk why he was there, but we must have been bonded in some way, because he watched over me like a beloved guard dog. I still left the body at some point ...the torture was...

Not really, bc they were kind of facing each other, occasionally looking over at me, as they were discussing me, my "special/chosen" status (which of course, is not an honor any of us want!!), my bloodline, and their plans and purpose for the future. He was thin, not overly huge or muscular. I...

How long would you say you experienced the effects and pain from the abuse you suffered?