Hi Discipleofjesus,
I went through the battle of breaking free of bulimia - I also use to use food as a means of dealing with my emotions. It started in my teens, and like you, I tried many avenues of help throughout my adult life. I did go to the church I use to be a part of, big mistake ( it was just the wrong church !! )
It wasn't until I was in my 40's that i found a way forward - right church, but equally right moment in my Christian life - Jesus asked me a question ' do you want to be healed ' - then I started on an amazing journey of inner healing, the Holy Spirit truly became my counsellor- enotions I had pushed down with food had to surface, but Gods timing for the triggers and release were gradual. I also had tolerab to value my emotions and recognise that they were God given- I started to journal ( still do ) it became my place to communicate with the Lord, a place to unravel my mind and ask all kinds of questions along the way - communicating with others is still something I struggle with when issues arise, but I am learning also to lean on the Lord and trust ( it's an uphill battle at times )
I use to get constant mind games, but through wise ministry, and a night spent leaving a whole range of things at the cross, my mind was released- something very sinister left me that night. ( that's was about 8years ago ) since theThe Lord has been dealing with wrong foundations, replacing lies with truth.
I learned a valuable lesson through my whole experience, healing is in Gods timing and unique to every individual. Sometimes it's instant release. God taught me my own psychology, he taught me to so much. Also healing has many layers, physical, spiritual, mental and emotional.
I often followed my own lead, hence why it took me so long to start the healing process, allow Jesus to guide you - follow his lead. Work with him, I kicked against what was happening when things begun to surface- I simply did not understand the process of emotinal healing. When I did it became a fascinating journey.
Well done on tackling the physical side xxxxxx
Butterfly