Caught in porn

[prayerline.help]

Hello together,

a short testimony from me:

I was about 15 years on the path where I became bitter against circumstances, how Jesus led my life, and accused others.

As a result, my old porn addiction came back and was worse than it had been in a long time. I was constantly looking for erotic videos, even after the meetings and hid from my friends.

I couldn't handle the fact that despite a long life of faith, I was "just as" bad at it as a worldly person.

For years it went with these lies and hypocrisy ...

At some point it went so far that I lost my job and almost had to leave my church.

It broke me up inside and I started to talk honestly with Jesus about it. I remember sitting in front of a video and watching it and I told Jesus, "look, I'm caught in addiction and lies, I just can't get away from it". We watched the video "together", so to speak.

Later it got easier and easier and also met my current wife in a few months. The conversations with her, then the prayers of the community helped me out and I've been "clean" ever since .... We also got married in a year.

What has become important for me during this time:

- if I hold on to sin, it will kill me sooner or later.
- when I can no longer talk about the problems, the alarm bells should ring. I am in very great danger.
- No sin comes alone. If I sin in small (bitterness), the big sins come along.

Be wiser than I am. If you are not free from sin, fight to come into the "light". The light dispels the darkness.

With love

Prayerline

 

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It broke me up inside and I started to talk honestly with Jesus about it. I remember sitting in front of a video and watching it and I told Jesus, "look, I'm caught in addiction and lies, I just can't get away from it". We watched the video "together", so to speak.

It's amazing to me what happens when we realize we can be fully open and honest with God, and to stop hiding! When He said, "I will never leave you nor forsake you", He really meant it!

I think that's the biggest issue for me, is whenever I feel like I have to hide from God. That the Adamic flesh responding in the same ancient way.

Much love!

 

[RenewedStrength316]

Hello together,

a short testimony from me:

I was about 15 years on the path where I became bitter against circumstances, how Jesus led my life, and accused others.

As a result, my old porn addiction came back and was worse than it had been in a long time. I was constantly looking for erotic videos, even after the meetings and hid from my friends.

I couldn't handle the fact that despite a long life of faith, I was "just as" bad at it as a worldly person.

For years it went with these lies and hypocrisy ...

At some point it went so far that I lost my job and almost had to leave my church.

It broke me up inside and I started to talk honestly with Jesus about it. I remember sitting in front of a video and watching it and I told Jesus, "look, I'm caught in addiction and lies, I just can't get away from it". We watched the video "together", so to speak.

Later it got easier and easier and also met my current wife in a few months. The conversations with her, then the prayers of the community helped me out and I've been "clean" ever since .... We also got married in a year.

What has become important for me during this time:

- if I hold on to sin, it will kill me sooner or later.
- when I can no longer talk about the problems, the alarm bells should ring. I am in very great danger.
- No sin comes alone. If I sin in small (bitterness), the big sins come along.

Be wiser than I am. If you are not free from sin, fight to come into the "light". The light dispels the darkness.

With love

Prayerline

Brother, thank you for your honesty.

Your testimony struck something deep in me, because I’ve walked that same valley. Porn addiction doesn’t just stain behavior—it hijacks identity, poisons worship, and builds a wall between us and the voice of God. What makes your words so powerful is that you didn’t just confess the sin—you exposed the bitterness and pride underneath it. That’s where true healing begins.

> “He who covers his sins shall not prosper, but whoever confesses and forsakes them shall have mercy.” — Proverbs 28:13



I was twelve when pornography first entered my life—through abuse, trauma, and exposure I didn’t choose. But eventually I made it mine. I knew better, and I still kept going back. I tried to “manage” it, hide it, sprinkle Jesus on top of it. But it never worked. Not until I stopped lying to myself.

Your words, “We watched the video together,” wrecked me. That kind of raw confession—that’s what brings demons into the light to die.

The Church needs more testimonies like this. Not polished. Not sugarcoated. Just real fire, real scars, and real deliverance.

> “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.” — John 1:5



You’re absolutely right: no sin walks in alone. Bitterness opens the door, pride locks it, and lust moves in. But praise God, Jesus breaks the chains—not by hiding the wound, but by exposing it to His light.

Stay strong, brother. Keep speaking. Keep standing in the light. We need more warriors who know what it’s like to bleed—and still choose the cross.

With fire and grace,
—Shane

 

[Big Boy Johnson]

They were talking about this at a men's bible study I was att once

So I told them I had been delivered from corn.

They asked if I meant porn?

I'd say no, corn - like corn on the cob, corn pops, cream corn, popcorn, etc

Everyone needed a good laugh after hearing disgusting filthy stories like that

And, no I didn't leave them thinking I actually had a problem with corn so it was not a lie as they knew I was just joking.