As a child, I remember a time of laughing at dish bubbles, art for its own sake, and bicycling past popsicle colored beach houses.
But eventually, all gave way for preparing for the future and focusing on myself. This included my love for Christ and helping others.
Suddenly volunteering was just an activity to mark down and record to boost your chance of getting into a good college. Go serve orphans overseas? What a joke.
After bumbling half heartedly through college, then it was the career. IT is a good marketable career, so I bumbled toward that.
Eventually, my husband saw me stressed from all this and asked me to stop working. Relieved, I began to apply myself to homemaking.
"Consider the lilies of the field...they neither labor or spin..."
I was so anxious to be someone and enslaved to selfish ambition that I almost missed the abundant life Jesus wanted me to have. A life of beauty and wonder, where doing art doesn't have to feed your resume or gain you anything but the enjoyment the process brings.
The child is back. She can read and do art with freedom now. She can learn for the sheer love of learning and not for an exam. Thank you Jesus for showing me the vanity of my ways and the surpassing worth of childlike faith. May we all receive the Kingdom like a small child.
But eventually, all gave way for preparing for the future and focusing on myself. This included my love for Christ and helping others.
Suddenly volunteering was just an activity to mark down and record to boost your chance of getting into a good college. Go serve orphans overseas? What a joke.
After bumbling half heartedly through college, then it was the career. IT is a good marketable career, so I bumbled toward that.
Eventually, my husband saw me stressed from all this and asked me to stop working. Relieved, I began to apply myself to homemaking.
"Consider the lilies of the field...they neither labor or spin..."
I was so anxious to be someone and enslaved to selfish ambition that I almost missed the abundant life Jesus wanted me to have. A life of beauty and wonder, where doing art doesn't have to feed your resume or gain you anything but the enjoyment the process brings.
The child is back. She can read and do art with freedom now. She can learn for the sheer love of learning and not for an exam. Thank you Jesus for showing me the vanity of my ways and the surpassing worth of childlike faith. May we all receive the Kingdom like a small child.
