oohhhhhh yeah, I feel ya. Another question along with yours: What if "worship" was only done by interpretive dance in today's church? There'd be a whole lot of us that look pretty "unholy" (or whatever). I think music is only used for worship because
A) it's so expressive and feel-good and
most people enjoy music in general. I think the style only sounds the way it does because Christian songwriters write out of feelings and intentions that simply don't usually produce what produces "popular" music. I don't know why, but I know from experience: I can write a cool rock song about loneliness, or I can worship with a "Christian sounding" song that's directed right to the Lord. It's hard to cross those barriers for some reason, but I know lots of people are trying to. In the end, even what I'd label "cool-sounding Christian music" hardly directly worships God with its words, but instead just has a Biblical mindset in the lyrics. Thankfully God looks at our heart. Sometimes when I'm stuck in the music part of a service that I don't want to be a part of, I just try to worship Him with my heart alone. He doesn't need me to sing a word. Most the time singing distracts me anyway. I think we can do anything with "the heart of worship" and it'll be worship. Whatever expresses
you, that's what God wants to receive as worship... art, music, dance, sports... whatever. Unless the expression is sinful, there's not a gift of expression that God can't accept as worship from our hearts. If something designed to help your relationship with God actually hinders you, you shouldn't do it... regardless of the impression and reaction the Christian culture gives you. The Church is always changing how it looks. I have a feeling things will keep chaning as people keeping changing what they like, paired with the desire to love The Lord. Otherwise, I think we're a bunch of religious fakers. Don't be afraid to pave new roads. Please do. The younger generations of Christians are starving for their own expression of worship.