I am 27 years old and I have been suffering with Depression & Anxiety issues since my childhood days back in Primary school, I was putting up with bullying from other kids both in Primary & High school. It was mostly verbal & emotional bullying but I don't think many people realise that verbal & emotional bullying is just as bad as physical bullying, at the end of the day bullying is bullying whether it is physical, verbal or emotional bullying it doesn't make words hurt any less. I have also experienced bullying both in real life & online, I have experienced online bullying just recently as well. At school & even online I have been called ugly and called me names like big nose, someone at school even said to me "You're so ugly that no one would want to marry you." And to this day I have never been in a relationship ever, it just makes me think are they right or is it God's purpose for me to be single? If so then what's his purpose for me staying single? and will I ever find someone & get married and start a family with that person. I worry that i'm going to spend the rest of my life alone and will probably die alone. The neglect I have experienced from my biological parents, plus all the bullying I have suffered from a child up until now and the verbal & emotional abuse from my Mum which has been going on for 15-16 years has really taken it's toll on my mental health. Plus my Depression & Anxiety tends to get worse in the Winter which is not too far away, we've already started getting the cold weather here in Australia and my mental health is not stable at all. I honestly don't know what to do, I have already tried getting professional help by a phyciatrist and a phycologist but it didn't really help me. I am taking antidepressants but they don't always seem to work , especially in the Winter. I don't know what else to do
Well that's sad, but don't worry about what other people say, don't worry about what the world thinks about you, Jesus loves you, Jesus cares for you and that's what matters most, with the world going south, I can now thank God that I was not a popular kid in school, I could have ended up in a mess, but God looked after me and my parents prayed for me a lot, funnily enough I went to Christian schools for most of my life, most of those kids, well they are out living wild lives at the moment, and doing a lot of things that go against God's word, causing trouble with their neighbors, getting drunk, smoking hookahs, going through a dozen relationships, that's where most of the kids I went to school with are at in life at the moment, and I'm glad that's not where I'm at, they may have many many friends, but where they are at spiritually isn't good.
When ever you feel lonely, spend time with God, even spend time with Him when you aren't lonely, He is a great friend, read the Bible and pray, meditate upon what His says, ask the Holy Spirit to show you stuff and guide you, that can be pretty amazing.
Anyway, just noticed your response above, it's a wonderful thing to be baptized in the Holy Spirit.
I pray for Alison, I command the Devil and his demons that are troubling her to stop troubling her and to flee from Alison's life, I command all of Satan's lies to be blocked out, and to be replaced with the TRUTH of the wonderful words from you Lord Jesus, Lord Jesus fill her full with Your Holy Spirit, baptize her afresh with Your Holy Spirit, fill her with your Joy, Peace and Love, comfort her, let her know You are with her, help her to forget the bad times from in the pass, help her to forgive those who have wronged her, reveal many great wonders to her Lord Jesus, show her dreams and visions from you Lord Jesus, speak into Alison's life, lead her, guide her in all things, lead Alison to the right husband, give her a man of GOD, give Alison VICTORY in LIFE THROUGH YOU LORD JESUS and give her the gift of speaking in tongues in Jesus name, let that Holy language come out of her mouth HALLELUJAH!!!! GLORY TO GOD. I PRAY ALL THESE THINGS IN JESUS NAME AMEN AND BLESS HER LORD JESUS. AMEN, AMEN AND AMEN.
Since you live in Melbourne, I could recommend you to a Church that's Spirit-filled and operates under the anointing and gifts of the Holy Spirit. If you are interested, let me know.
Jesus loves you.