- Jan 28, 2008
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I desperetely need your help. Please spread my story here, post it to other message boards and tell your friends about it.I am not sure where to begin because there is so much to tell. I cant tell you my name but I hope you keep reading to understand why. I am 19 years old and I am a freshmen at college. About 3 years ago my life totally changed. I was taken from my parents or maybe they left me I dont know. I ended up with foster parents and was in public school for the first time. I graduated late because I couldnt pass the tests for graduation.My life has only just now begun because my parents are scientologists and so was I. All I ever knew was the people around me and the org and the tech. I grew up and I never once met any one who was not a scientologist. When I was 4 or 5 I started the clearing process. I was supposed to feel special being a boy because girls didnt start until alot later. When I was 9 I had to work. All day too. I believed that I was clearing the planet. I hardly ever saw my dad and only saw my mom like once a week. I remember the first time my dad left for sea org. My mom cried and got punished. I got punished too sometimes. Only scientologists dont call it punishment they have audits and rpf. I didnt really go to school because I had study tech. Im so far behind every one around me that I dont think I will get through college. I think my public school gave me teachers that were especially tentive so I could learn and do good enough to pass with respectable grades. My foster parents are a dream come true - they told me that they love me and that I could go to college because they would pay for it and Im really worried that Im going to flunk out.Anyway when I got to my foster parents 3 years ago I was angry and sad and confused and I had no clue what was going on. They took me to a psychologist and I was really upset. Iwas screaming and kicking and they said something about psychiatry and drugs and then I REALLY got upset. I know that you would not act this way but you were not rased scientologist. I was. Scientologists believe that psychiatry psychology and drugs are the biggest evil in the world and we used to make jokes about killing them all in different ways and laugh. If you did not laugh you got punished with audits or rpf. Any way I was restrained and sedated and given drugs. Over the following weeks I had to talk to a psychologist. At first I thought my spirit was basically being murdered so I wasnt listening or talking and when I did talk I did not say very nice things. There was a break when I didnt see her or anyone else really other than the woman who gave me the shots and then something happened. My psychologist came and got me and said "Im getting you out of here if it kills me". She put some real clothes on me and told me to walk sort of behind her so no one would notice me and we walked right out the front door. I thought I was free and that made me feel so good but I was still terrified. We got in her car and drove a long way. Then she parked the car and was kind of breathing funny and I saw that she was crying. She got out of the car and walked me over to wooded area with some benches. We were in a really big park with lots of trees and when she stopped crying she said to me "I dont know you but I care enough about you that I would trade my life to make yours better". This was totally opposite to everything I was told to beleive about people like her. The Park was nice and we talked. I told her about my childhood and she cried and I did too. She told me that I wasnt on any drugs she said it was saline to make me think it was drugs. I totally understand how brilliant she was to trick me out of scientology the way she did. I was tricked into trusting her but she did not abuse my trust she used it to help me. This is not how it works in scientology.She took me home to my foster parents after that. And I was HAPPY. The first time in my whole life I kew what that word meant. My foster parents spent hours with me every night talking with me about everything. Nothing was taboo and I never had relationships like it. My foster dad says he is christian and my mom says she is agnostic but she still goes to church with him. She said their pastor rocks. they told me that I was not going to go to church with them and at first I felt glad that I didn't have to go to church and then later I wanted to but they said no. when I asked why my mom said "god does not come to those who want him" which didn't make any sense to me at all. My parents brought their pastor to dinner soon after that and he came every week and we talked. Turns out that my mom was right he does rock and he is christian/agnostic like my mom is. He mostly just talked to me like a friend I asked some questions and he answered them. I learned more in 2 months of talking to him than I did my whole life in scientology.We almost had to move shortly afterward because my parents were being threatened over the phone. They were followed by cars all the time and people taking pictures. Our neighbors were getting letters in the mail claiming that my foster parents were child pornograghers. My foster dad's boss got letters too. This is why you cant leave scientology. The church comes after you. HARD. I know because I remember having to print fold and seal the same kind of letters my nieghbors were getting. I feel horrrible about it but I didn't know what I was doing then. I was just afraid of getting punished like everyone else. This is why I dont dare reveal my name. Im still afraid. Im especially afraid of what might happen to my foster parents. Im crying right now as I write this because you probably think this is a joke and I dont know what to say to you to get you to beleive me but leaving th church really is a big no-no. and talking against the church makes you a SP - supressive person. SP's must be destroyed at all costs says the church so thats what the scientologists do. My foster parents had to make sure I was always guarded after some guys showed up at the door dressed like cops but they were from the church and they were very threatening and demanded that I be handed over to them. Im afraid that somehow they might find me from posting this message and hurt my foster parents. Im so afraid I might lose them.I was worried enough when I got to college but my room mate has been great. he is smart and kind and he helps me alot. He really cares. Anyway he is a news junkie and last week we were watching the news - I forget which one and up pops this video of Tom Cruise in a speech for scientology. I had told him all about my past and what it was like and he had been very compassionate. His eyes were bulging out of his head and I could only imagine what he was thinking - like "oh my god they are totally crazy". He was definitely shocked. Within minutes everyone on our floor was watching the video on youtube. They were all laughing and replaying the video over and over. Everything I went through has all come back and I have been crying alot. Now there this group called "Anonymous" on the internet that has declared war on scientology. There are going to be protests and demonstrations. My room mate says he is "Anonymous" and that there could be many thousands of people world wide that are "Anonymous" and are going to protest at the churches. Now I know him and I beleive him when he says Anonymous is committed to non-violence. But SCIENTOLOGY IS NOT. I know how it works because I was in it and I saw what they do to protesters. Even if the protests are non violent the scientologists will come out and pretend to be one of the protesters and will bully and CAUSE violence against the church. Trust me when I tell you that this is what they are trained to do and they will even die if the church tells them that they have to.I have been talking to my roommate about what I should do. I cant just let this happen. he says he is going to protest no matter what because "evil prevails when good men do nothing, and so far good men have done nothing, but Anonymous delivers". I have not seen my real parents in 3 years. I don't even know if they are still alive. Its no secret that bad things happen on the ships. I don't know what to do because I can't go - if I do my foster parents might be attacked and my real parents might be killed.I am writing this plea for your help because since getting out of scientology I have met really great people who are christian. I dont know if Im christian or not but I have been counseled by christians and I have read what jesus was teaching and saying and it is christians who have totally proven to me that love works. Not scientology. I am not writing this plea for myself but for the scientologists out there. Their minds are NOT free. They have no idea what their saying or doing because its all brainwashing. Please believe me because I was one of them and they don't deserve what their church is going to do to them.I totally understand if you dont believe me but go on the internet and inform yourself with the information out there. This will be a jonestown of worldwide scale if Anonymous succeeds in exposing the leaders of the church. They aren't going to be allowed to live and I dont know what to do other then tell you my story and ask for your help. Please help. I think you are the only people who can help. Make sure that scientologists hear your voice and that you tell them that you are not attacking there beleifs. Tell them that they have the same right that you have to believe whatever you choose because that is what a free mind does. AND MAKE CERTAIN that they hear you say that even though you dont know them you care enough about them that you would trade your life to make theirs better.I am going to go. despite all that I could lose. evil prevails when good men do nothing and so far good men have done nothing but anonymous delivers.