Hello

[aware]

Hello to everyone. I am unsure of events and there is a lot of coincidences occurring in my life. I have seen my family and others have things happen for many years now. Which I had knowledge of as a child. Now either I asked for some really bad things to happen and they have or it is all just a coincidence. I cant even find the words to communicate everything at this moment. One possibility is that I have visions or even I am deluded. Perhaps it is all an elaborate way to convince myself that I am creating this world. When in fact I am being told something.

 

[followerofchrist]

....what?? could you please try and re-explain that...

 

[aware]

In short. When I was a child. I said various things. Now either what would happen or what should happen. i'm not sure if some spirits entered me and took me over to tell the trth. However it still remains that a lot of the things I remember talking about in my childhood have come to pass. I have you could say. Seen first hand evidence of a higher force at work. Now is it a positive or negative force I don't know. All I do know is that my life has been filled with coincidences and synchronicities for ages now. Its almost as if am a rat in a maze. On one level you could say that god is giving me a message. On another you could say that I am mad. On another level you could say I have been programmed and it is predictive in nature. Meaning that when something happens in my life I associate it with being my fault. That I haver somehow created my reality and the place I am at right now has been as a direct result of myself from nearly 30 years ago. Or I am a mkultra victim.