Hello everyone,I'm Helen, from the UK.I am really struggling at the moment, I didn't realise how difficult it was to believe in something so nice. I have only recently answered God, I realise that God has been talking to me all my life but only now have I chosen to listen to Him. I deeply regret this and cannot apologise enough to Him.The reason I am struggling is that most of my friends think I need psychiatric help for believing in 'fairy tales'. People ask me a question, I start to answer it, and then they launch an attack on what i've just said, before i've even finished what i'm saying. This undoubtedly leads to a change in perspective about my friend(s) and i'm worried i won't have any left! having said that i would MUCH rather fall out with a friend than with God. I just never realised that I would persecuted for believing in Jesus in this day and age.I am hoping that I can come on here and gain some strength from you guys! sorry to impose like this
i also get strength from my church and of course from God. I had a particularly bad night on Saturday with a very close friend who was just horrible about my beliefs and i was quite upset on Sunday. on the night i started to get a fever and couldn't stop shaking, i was so cold. i went to bed and lay there shaking, my mind was racing with what my friend had said. i said to God, 'please God, if you're there, please give me a great big hug' i only said 'if you're there' as i was passing on the abuse to God, that i'd received and openly telling Him that i don't believe in Him, and i feel deeply ashamed of it. even so i felt very warm and tingly and now realise that i fell asleep in the palm of his hand. how dare i abuse God like that?! my lovely lovely best friend in the whole world and then for him to do that.right i'm going to start crying and my husband will wonder whats going on so i'll stop there!i am 32, married, with a baby girl who's 9 months old and another little baby on the way (about 2 months pregnant).i'm not a 'blind' follower and continue to ask some serious questions about it all. I have no doubt that God exists (even when I'm angry and doubtful) but i have a thirst to piece the whole thing together.looking forward to getting to know you all.God Bless, Helen x
