I'm in a really bad way at the moment. I don't know how much longer I can go on. Please pray for me.My life is such a mess. I have no job, haven't worked for two years or so. I am being assessed fo learning difficulties and I live alone. The place where I live has no hot water. I have limited cooking facilities. I exist on benefits which are not enough to live off. I try and buy cheap foood but don't even have a pan to cook in. I get some help with my rent, but my not the full amount. With paying for electric as well, there just isn't enough money to go round. As a result I am overdrawn. The bank manager has said that he can't help.Government schemes can't work out why noone will employ me. I have been on 3 schemes and all say I would be an asset to any company, and that I can't do any more than I am to find work. My learning difficulties make it hard for me to talk to people and ask for more help. Until I am assessed I cannot claim any more financial help, and the specialist I have been seeing is moving back to his home country so I will have to start seeing a new specialist next month. Despite my learning differences, I am bright. I have a degree in maths. But noone wants to employ me. I have asked everywhere. If I take a job lasting for a week then my6 benefits are stopped and I have to reapply - which means waiting weeks again for money.I have been a Christian for many years. I hold a leadership position in my local church. I feel so ashamed that my life is in such a mess. I know all the Bible verses that tell me God is my loving father and xares for me. But the facts of my life show that every week I am worse off. I feel that this is all my fault. Somehow I don't deserve any better than this. I have no friends. My learning difficulties make oit difficult for me to interqact socially. I am being assesed for Autism. (Which makes it amazing that the church wsee me as a leader, but my Gp says I am high-functioning autistic - I do have skills)I have recently talked to my GP about depression. He has said I am depressed as a result of poor living conditions - but do not suffer from depression. He has said that taking anti-depressants or seeing a psychiatrist will not alter these conditions and are therefore not appropriate treatmentts for me. Tonight I feel so lonely. I long for a partner to support me, love me...just to hold me.But I am in my late 40s and have never had a relationship.I see no hope at all for my future in this life. However, I know that I have a future beyond this life with my father. I just wish this life could be over and I could be in the place where there are no more tears. Does this make me sound dreadful?I can't see my life changing and don't know where to turn. Please forgive me if I have sounded as if I am moaning self-indulgantly, and please pray.
I don't want to go on.
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Sorry things are going so bad for you. Sounds like you just need to turn it all over to God.Perhaps he has a plan for you. Sometimes he will let us fall to our knees before he picks us up. Jesus says, "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Mt. 11:28-30). I know these are just Words but they are so true. Perhaps you should talk with a doctor about some anti depression meds. To help get you past this bad time. Join in our conversations perhaps we can fill some of the lonelinessI will of course pray for you God Bless
TomorrowsChild, first of all, know that you have my prayers. I know life and money issues just pile up on us and we see no end to the madness. Its good that you're holding onto Christ- make sure you pray these things. The Lord said- the birds and beasts of the field are taken care of- and He loves you way more than one of those. Lets pray that the Lord will send you aid in some shape or another. Please don't ever ever feel embarrassed to come here and share with us. Especially me, Ill talk to you when things are getting tough or when you just need someone to talk to. God bless, Ill keep you in my prayers.
Just give the fear to God and seek him and worship him. He will come through for you.Sometimes he allows us to go through these things to make us stronger. It takes guts to be a Christian. Jesus love you very much and will nor forsake you. Fear not!!!!!!
have also been in a very dark place for years,costantly living on the bread line in poor codtions,turning to drink and drugs to ease my pains. I have lost my father just recently and my family are christians but i have never really taken god into my heart.As i was sat in the grave yard feeling alone unloved and unwanted god sent my mum to come and find me she hugged me and we went to my dads grave and she asked me to take god into my heart and she gave me a wonderfull DVD to watch this gave me the relization that i need to change my life,i didnt even realize there was a new heaven and earth. I have never felt so alone in my life as i have this last week but i have prayed today and asked jesus to come into my heart and hopefully he will
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have also been in a very dark place for years,costantly living on the bread line in poor codtions,turning to drink and drugs to ease my pains. I have lost my father just recently and my family are christians but i have never really taken god into my heart.As i was sat in the grave yard feeling alone unloved and unwanted god sent my mum to come and find me she hugged me and we went to my dads grave and she asked me to take god into my heart and she gave me a wonderfull DVD to watch this gave me the relization that i need to change my life,i didnt even realize there was a new heaven and earth. I have never felt so alone in my life as i have this last week but i have prayed today and asked jesus to come into my heart and hopefully he will
If you prayed to Lord Jesus Christ to come into your life sincerely, He is already living in your heart.As for your dad, I am sorry to hear that, but he has come home to God to whom He gave it.You are so very loved by God. He cares about His children. YOU are so and more precious to God than the things men creates. You just need to realize that.I will pray for you Kathryn also.I love you.
have also been in a very dark place for years,costantly living on the bread line in poor codtions,turning to drink and drugs to ease my pains. I have lost my father just recently and my family are christians but i have never really taken god into my heart.As i was sat in the grave yard feeling alone unloved and unwanted god sent my mum to come and find me she hugged me and we went to my dads grave and she asked me to take god into my heart and she gave me a wonderfull DVD to watch this gave me the relization that i need to change my life,i didnt even realize there was a new heaven and earth. I have never felt so alone in my life as i have this last week but i have prayed today and asked jesus to come into my heart and hopefully he will
If you prayed to Lord Jesus Christ to come into your life sincerely, He is already living in your heart.As for your dad, I am sorry to hear that, but he has come home to God to whom He gave it.You are so very loved by God. He cares about His children. YOU are so and more precious to God than the things men creates. You just need to realize that.I will pray for you Kathryn also.I love you.
He will Kathryn..... just believe that and he will be thereknow your Dad is there with God we are told to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord. God Bless you your in my prayers
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I'm in a really bad way at the moment. I don't know how much longer I can go on. Please pray for me.My life is such a mess. I have no job, haven't worked for two years or so. I am being assessed fo learning difficulties and I live alone. The place where I live has no hot water. I have limited cooking facilities. I exist on benefits which are not enough to live off. I try and buy cheap foood but don't even have a pan to cook in. I get some help with my rent, but my not the full amount. With paying for electric as well, there just isn't enough money to go round. As a result I am overdrawn. The bank manager has said that he can't help.Government schemes can't work out why noone will employ me. I have been on 3 schemes and all say I would be an asset to any company, and that I can't do any more than I am to find work. My learning difficulties make it hard for me to talk to people and ask for more help. Until I am assessed I cannot claim any more financial help, and the specialist I have been seeing is moving back to his home country so I will have to start seeing a new specialist next month. Despite my learning differences, I am bright. I have a degree in maths. But noone wants to employ me. I have asked everywhere. If I take a job lasting for a week then my6 benefits are stopped and I have to reapply - which means waiting weeks again for money.I have been a Christian for many years. I hold a leadership position in my local church. I feel so ashamed that my life is in such a mess. I know all the Bible verses that tell me God is my loving father and xares for me. But the facts of my life show that every week I am worse off. I feel that this is all my fault. Somehow I don't deserve any better than this. I have no friends. My learning difficulties make oit difficult for me to interqact socially. I am being assesed for Autism. (Which makes it amazing that the church wsee me as a leader, but my Gp says I am high-functioning autistic - I do have skills)I have recently talked to my GP about depression. He has said I am depressed as a result of poor living conditions - but do not suffer from depression. He has said that taking anti-depressants or seeing a psychiatrist will not alter these conditions and are therefore not appropriate treatmentts for me. Tonight I feel so lonely. I long for a partner to support me, love me...just to hold me.But I am in my late 40s and have never had a relationship.I see no hope at all for my future in this life. However, I know that I have a future beyond this life with my father. I just wish this life could be over and I could be in the place where there are no more tears. Does this make me sound dreadful?I can't see my life changing and don't know where to turn. Please forgive me if I have sounded as if I am moaning self-indulgantly, and please pray.
Man, I'll be honest. What you are experiencing is trial and tribulation. I can't give too much advice because I was never tested like this. Maybe you're someone really special that will have their reward later.Since you have a degree in math (I have a minor in that subject), look at the famous people before you, like Einstein or Sir Isaac Newton. The world did not think much of these people, but later on people recognized these famous men for what they were. I find people that have your lot quite fascinating since they are not seen by the masses as someone valuable, but in fact the issue may be that you have an altogether different way of living like the famous men I mentioned and just haven't found out how to reconcile yourself with this world yet.No, I don't think this is your fault (I have that feeling). I think you are just on a different frequency than the people around you. This is not always bad. But pragmatically the results seem bad and they hurt, don't they?I'll keep you in prayer.
I'm in a really bad way at the moment. I don't know how much longer I can go on. Please pray for me.My life is such a mess. I have no job, haven't worked for two years or so. I am being assessed fo learning difficulties and I live alone. The place where I live has no hot water. I have limited cooking facilities. I exist on benefits which are not enough to live off. I try and buy cheap foood but don't even have a pan to cook in. I get some help with my rent, but my not the full amount. With paying for electric as well, there just isn't enough money to go round. As a result I am overdrawn. The bank manager has said that he can't help.Government schemes can't work out why noone will employ me. I have been on 3 schemes and all say I would be an asset to any company, and that I can't do any more than I am to find work. My learning difficulties make it hard for me to talk to people and ask for more help. Until I am assessed I cannot claim any more financial help, and the specialist I have been seeing is moving back to his home country so I will have to start seeing a new specialist next month. Despite my learning differences, I am bright. I have a degree in maths. But noone wants to employ me. I have asked everywhere. If I take a job lasting for a week then my6 benefits are stopped and I have to reapply - which means waiting weeks again for money.I have been a Christian for many years. I hold a leadership position in my local church. I feel so ashamed that my life is in such a mess. I know all the Bible verses that tell me God is my loving father and xares for me. But the facts of my life show that every week I am worse off. I feel that this is all my fault. Somehow I don't deserve any better than this. I have no friends. My learning difficulties make oit difficult for me to interqact socially. I am being assesed for Autism. (Which makes it amazing that the church wsee me as a leader, but my Gp says I am high-functioning autistic - I do have skills)I have recently talked to my GP about depression. He has said I am depressed as a result of poor living conditions - but do not suffer from depression. He has said that taking anti-depressants or seeing a psychiatrist will not alter these conditions and are therefore not appropriate treatmentts for me. Tonight I feel so lonely. I long for a partner to support me, love me...just to hold me.But I am in my late 40s and have never had a relationship.I see no hope at all for my future in this life. However, I know that I have a future beyond this life with my father. I just wish this life could be over and I could be in the place where there are no more tears. Does this make me sound dreadful?I can't see my life changing and don't know where to turn. Please forgive me if I have sounded as if I am moaning self-indulgantly, and please pray.
Man, I'll be honest. What you are experiencing is trial and tribulation. I can't give too much advice because I was never tested like this. Maybe you're someone really special that will have their reward later.Since you have a degree in math (I have a minor in that subject), look at the famous people before you, like Einstein or Sir Isaac Newton. The world did not think much of these people, but later on people recognized these famous men for what they were. I find people that have your lot quite fascinating since they are not seen by the masses as someone valuable, but in fact the issue may be that you have an altogether different way of living like the famous men I mentioned and just haven't found out how to reconcile yourself with this world yet.No, I don't think this is your fault (I have that feeling). I think you are just on a different frequency than the people around you. This is not always bad. But pragmatically the results seem bad and they hurt, don't they?I'll keep you in prayer.
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