Romans chapter 9, God has mercy whom He will, and hardens hearts of others. Are you repenting of sins?? Sins can be roadblock between God and you. Proverbs 1, are you sincere and diligent about seeking God?? God knows your heart amigo. No one is judging you. King David was man after God's heart. Of course David committed sins at times. But he repented and was sincere with God. Get the picture. God judges by motives and desires. Isaiah chapter 6 and romans chapter 11, God put spirit of slumber on some people for their protection. You will have to talk to Jesus about this issue. Isaiah chapter 5 is about stewards who were unprofitable. Teaching traditions of men or just too lazy to apply their gifts and abilities to produce fruit for God. God took away the watch tower. God can be your protection or your judge. It's your choice. If God gives some one spirtual sight, He expects a production servant. To produce fruit. Again, you will have to talk, pray to God about this.