Is it the thorn in my side?

[Ernie]

I'm not really sure where to post this topic, but since I frequent this the most I chose here. I have posted before on my brain wiring...struggling with ocd, anxiety, etc and in turn making "certainty", "knowing", impossible for me( I do realize many say certainty shouldn't be looked for that's where faith comes in )I have never done any drugs or drinking etc so this perspective is not created but just simply how I'm wired. For the most part I like the meloncholy deep thinking creative analytical personality I have however it is very difficult in my walk with the Lord. I crave the assurance that so many seem to have but I just seems impossible for me to attain it. I just crave that "knowing" and "assurance " so many seem to have. I am curious if you think this is the thorn in the side that Paul talked about that will help make my testimony?

I know some of my posts seem like a broken record but that is just showing genuinely how I am I suppose. I always say I hope the Lord takes my strong "hope" as faith.

 

[Lambano]

I am curious if you think this is the thorn in the side that Paul talked about that will help make my testimony?

I don't know if it is or isn't (that would entail knowing something only God knows), but either way, God's answer to Paul still applies:

 

[newnature]

I'm not really sure where to post this topic, but since I frequent this the most I chose here. I have posted before on my brain wiring...struggling with ocd, anxiety, etc and in turn making "certainty", "knowing", impossible for me( I do realize many say certainty shouldn't be looked for that's where faith comes in )I have never done any drugs or drinking etc so this perspective is not created but just simply how I'm wired. For the most part I like the meloncholy deep thinking creative analytical personality I have however it is very difficult in my walk with the Lord. I crave the assurance that so many seem to have but I just seems impossible for me to attain it. I just crave that "knowing" and "assurance " so many seem to have. I am curious if you think this is the thorn in the side that Paul talked about that will help make my testimony?

I know some of my posts seem like a broken record but that is just showing genuinely how I am I suppose. I always say I hope the Lord takes my strong "hope" as faith.

1 Peter 2:6, Peter is urging believers to live as a spiritual house, built on the foundation of Christ, having laid the foundation of holiness as your response to God’s grace. Turn your gaze to the bedrock of it all, Christ himself, the cornerstone upon which everything stands and of believers as living stones being built into a spiritual house. This metaphor is more than poetic, it’s a rallying cry for Christians to embrace their identity and mission, even in the face of rejection and opposition.

 

[Anchorite]

Sorry about your emotional struggles. Famous Bible teachers have suffered from similar afflictions.

Charles Spurgeon, the Prince of Preachers, owned more than thirty books on mental health. He read about depression, wrote about depression, and suffered from depression. Spurgeon’s letters contain numerous references to his sinking spirits. He often called himself a “prisoner” and wept without knowing why.

“I pity a dog who has to suffer what I have.”

Some biographers have claimed Spurgeon suffered from bipolar disorder, oscillating between highs and lows, ups and downs, productivity and inability. Others believed his “fainting fits” were also caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain.