- Jul 13, 2008
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Hello, I'm going through a really rough patch at the moment and would really appreciate prayer. I am a commited Christian...have been for over 10 years and am on my church leadership team - not that you'd guess that from my pathetic moan:I am unemployed, I have been looking for work for over 2 years but can't find anything. Even the job-centre can't see what more I can do. Unemployment means I have huge financial problems. I live in a bed-sit, which is in a dreadful state. ...but it's all I can afford. No-one wants to rent a room to someone who is unemployed. I am behind with my rent and overdrawn at the bank. My benefits don't meet my bills....most days it is a choice between paying a bill or eating.I am in my late 40s and am single. I really want a (Christian) partner. I am so lonely. Even within the church, people are reluctant to include an older single woman in evenings out ...and the church singles nights are full of younger people, noone my age.I am hugely overweight, but can't lose it. The doctor has given me a diet sheet that I can't afford to follow. I don't have a fridge, freezer or stove/cooker.....although a cooker has been promised. (There is a microwave).I can't afford new clothes, the stuff I wear is old, full of noticable repairs, and generally grubby -I don't have access to laundry facilities either - and can't afford to go to the laundromat, which is also too far away...I don't drive. Charity shops don't stock clothes in my size. I am currently wearing clothes given to me by my church - from an old (90 year old) church member who died, basically smocks/kaftans. I have 3 of them and try and wash them through in cold water (My bedsit doesn't have hot).I know this sounds like a moan/whinge, but I feel so low. God has made such wonderful promises to care for His children, and I feel abandoned. I hear of wonderful stories of people who are destitute being given miraculous help, but nothing seems to come for me. I spend long days and nights crying out to my Father for help - but each day just brings new hardship.Please pray....not necessarily for a miraculous outpouring of financial and material blessings (although I wouldn't object to some of that too!) But that I will be better able to cope with whatever His plan for me is. That I will be able to stay strong (some days I just want to end my life and end this misery - but haven't gotten that far yet.) If He could give me insight into why He won't help me out of this hole....it would be easier to cope with.Thanks, TC