I’m not in any shape for finding a wife or possibly girlfriend, and there are so many reasons why it just isn’t the right time for me to engage in adult activity.
Where to start? I’m fat and ugly, and my ugliness is compounded by the fact that I have gorilla body hair. That is not hyperbole: My body hair is so long, so thick, and so unsightly that it looks like it belongs to some type of lower primate.
Granted, it’s possible to get rid of the obscene body hair. There is laser hair removal, which permanently destroys most of the hair follicles in six treatments (though usually up to twelve treatments are recommended for 100% removal, and this can take a year I think). Problem is this: I don’t have any money right now to afford it.
And by the way, did I mention I have carpal tunnel syndrome (CTS), and the pain has spread to my upper shoulders, upper arms, back of neck, and parts of my lower back? This has led to me having slouched-over posture to cope with the pain and muscle tightness from CTS. Again, I don’t have any money and therefore cannot get a surgeon to heal it. There aren’t any Medicaid hand surgeons in my area; I’ve tried so many times to find one, but none of them take it.
Let’s review so far: I’m fat, I’m ugly, I have excessive, disgusting body hair, my posture is ruined from CTS (which cannot be treated at this time with surgery), and I have no money. Not having any money is probably the worst of these, since an ugly guy can won’t have a problem finding a wife (or girlfriend) so long as he has enough money. And I have none of it; therefore all listed problems cannot be resolved until I do.
Why do I bring up this subject? Why do I feel the need to elaborate on why, given my present abject circumstances and abysmal appearance, it isn’t possible to engage in a relationship with adult activity? Because I feel like God is pressuring me to do it (since he feels sorry for me because I'm a mid-thirties virgin), and I don’t want to do it. Is it not impossible considering everything I described? I don’t even have a car to go anywhere for Pete’s sake!
To be honest, I’m not interested in dating. Dating means having a sexual relationship and friendship with somebody, and usually this relationship is temporary; very few boyfriend/girlfriend couples go on to get married. And virtually every time they have dated other sex partners before the current ones. This means that if I chose to get a girlfriend, she would have slept with someone else or, more likely, other people. This is not something I, a virgin, could tolerate.
God said he will make sure I’m financially successful soon, and he told me my marriage with a wife (who is a virgin with no boyfriend before) will happen sometime when I’m 38 years old. That’s a few years from now; I don’t mind waiting.
Please pray and ask God not to pressure me to have adult activity anymore; it’s something I’m uncomfortable with for the reasons I described, and having sex with someone doesn’t make sense given that I’m a basket case in my present circumstances. I’m sure he feels bad for me because I’m a virgin in my mid-thirties. But ultimately it doesn’t matter because in a few years I’ll marry a wife who is a virgin with no boyfriend before, and we will have a happy marriage and big family.
Where to start? I’m fat and ugly, and my ugliness is compounded by the fact that I have gorilla body hair. That is not hyperbole: My body hair is so long, so thick, and so unsightly that it looks like it belongs to some type of lower primate.
Granted, it’s possible to get rid of the obscene body hair. There is laser hair removal, which permanently destroys most of the hair follicles in six treatments (though usually up to twelve treatments are recommended for 100% removal, and this can take a year I think). Problem is this: I don’t have any money right now to afford it.
And by the way, did I mention I have carpal tunnel syndrome (CTS), and the pain has spread to my upper shoulders, upper arms, back of neck, and parts of my lower back? This has led to me having slouched-over posture to cope with the pain and muscle tightness from CTS. Again, I don’t have any money and therefore cannot get a surgeon to heal it. There aren’t any Medicaid hand surgeons in my area; I’ve tried so many times to find one, but none of them take it.
Let’s review so far: I’m fat, I’m ugly, I have excessive, disgusting body hair, my posture is ruined from CTS (which cannot be treated at this time with surgery), and I have no money. Not having any money is probably the worst of these, since an ugly guy can won’t have a problem finding a wife (or girlfriend) so long as he has enough money. And I have none of it; therefore all listed problems cannot be resolved until I do.
Why do I bring up this subject? Why do I feel the need to elaborate on why, given my present abject circumstances and abysmal appearance, it isn’t possible to engage in a relationship with adult activity? Because I feel like God is pressuring me to do it (since he feels sorry for me because I'm a mid-thirties virgin), and I don’t want to do it. Is it not impossible considering everything I described? I don’t even have a car to go anywhere for Pete’s sake!
To be honest, I’m not interested in dating. Dating means having a sexual relationship and friendship with somebody, and usually this relationship is temporary; very few boyfriend/girlfriend couples go on to get married. And virtually every time they have dated other sex partners before the current ones. This means that if I chose to get a girlfriend, she would have slept with someone else or, more likely, other people. This is not something I, a virgin, could tolerate.
God said he will make sure I’m financially successful soon, and he told me my marriage with a wife (who is a virgin with no boyfriend before) will happen sometime when I’m 38 years old. That’s a few years from now; I don’t mind waiting.
Please pray and ask God not to pressure me to have adult activity anymore; it’s something I’m uncomfortable with for the reasons I described, and having sex with someone doesn’t make sense given that I’m a basket case in my present circumstances. I’m sure he feels bad for me because I’m a virgin in my mid-thirties. But ultimately it doesn’t matter because in a few years I’ll marry a wife who is a virgin with no boyfriend before, and we will have a happy marriage and big family.
