Ok, so now we have a time frame of when this demonic oppression (apparently) started.
Yes, it is real. Knowing who you are in Christ, and then appropriating that Authority in prayer, is how you most effectively deal with this. Remember that deciding to act is not an emotion - it is a choice.
Do not be afraid. You have a choice in how you decide to react when confronted with an ugly devil. Fear is not some metaphor or allegory. Fear is a demonic spirit - one that the Lord has
not given to his people:
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. (2 Tim. 1:7).
From my experience, I believe you're dealing with a well-known devil (aka demon) from antiquity colloquially known as the
nightmar. Note the modern spelling has added the letter "e" at the end. Let's expose this creature that still torments millions of people in their bedrooms today.
American Dictionary of the English Language, Noah Webster, 1828:
NIGHTMAR, n. [
night and Sax,
mara, incubus, nightmar.
Mara may be from the root of
merran, to stop, to hinder, or it may be the Rabbinic, an evil spirit or demon.]
From
wikipedia: An
incubus is a male demon in human form in folklore that seeks to have sexual intercourse with sleeping women; the corresponding spirit in female form is called a succubus. Parallels exist in many cultures.
So
the nightmar is an incubus (i.e. the male form, whereas succubus is the female form).
Continuing with
American Dictionary of the English Language, Noah Webster, 1828, we find:
INCUBUS, n. [L. from
incubo, to lie on.]
1.
The nightmar; an oppression of the breast in sleep, or sense of weight, with an almost total loss of the power of moving the body, while the imagination is frightened or astonished.
2. A demon; an imaginary being or fairy.
The
Online Etymology Dictionary, ©2010 Douglas Harper, tells us:
"Meaning shifted mid-16c. from the incubus to the suffocating sensation it causes. Sense of "any bad dream" first recorded 1829; that of "very distressing experience" is from 1831."
Here is
The American Heritage® Stedman's Medical Dictionary, in which we find today's watered down definition familiar to everyone:
nightmare, n.
1. A dream arousing feelings of intense fear, horror, and distress.
2. An event or experience that is intensely distressing.
As you can see, the true origin of
nightmar has been covered up today.
And so,
a nightmar (aka nightmare) is not "sleep paralysis" but a demon.
My advice would be to appropriate your standing in Christ, rather than using a drug, as the drug is just another open doorway for the enemy to enter.
Again, sounds like this problem might date back to your earlier school days. Could be something as simple as some guy you were playing around with sexually in the school locker room that opened a doorway...
Well, the enemy loves to add insult to injury, to kick you when you're down, to hit you again when you're at your lowest. It's just one more way you can read that loser.
I, for one, will be praying for you today. I also share a similar experience. While in bed, I had a devil try to sodomize me, and it physically hurt. After I confessed my past sexual sin(s),
and turned away from them (i.e. repented), the attacks stopped. FWIW, orifices are gateways. Putting
anything into an orifice that it is not designed for, can open a gateway to this type of devil.
Of course. The enemy knows you're seeking help to be delivered from his torment, and so the "crazy" lie would be foisted, as well.
I offer a couple possibilities:
1) Maybe you didn't have physical sex, but you thought about it, played it out in your mind, fantasized and masturbated, or purposed yourself to do it at some point when it became more "convenient" for you. Or maybe you allowed the media's spell-casting vids into your eye gates i.e. you watched things you're not supposed to watch. This doesn't rest well with most, as they yell, "Who are you to tell me what I can and cannot watch???" Rather, "I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes: I hate the work of them that turn aside; it shall not cleave to me." (Psa. 101:3). Wise, discerning believers make a conscious choice to not allow Satan's subtle but smelly garbage into their temple.
2) It could be a generational spirit. Perhaps those in authority over you, usually your parents, allowed that spirit into your home. They did not stand in the gap and stop that spirit, to deny it access and thereby close the gateway. Whether it came from the unconfessed sins of your parents or from longer back in your generational line, doesn't matter. Until someone steps in and closes the door to that devil's legal right to be there, it will remain and will torment the innocent ones down the family line. And it PREFERS to remain in your generational line, because it knows a lot about your parents, your grandparents, your great grandparents, etc. It knows a LOT about how you spend your fun hour.
Don't trust anyone here, either, including me. The Holy Bible is clear that we are to trust no man. So whatever you hear here, take under advisement i.e. lay it down before God and ASK HIM about what you've read, whether it be of God or of Satan. There is no middle ground.
Yes, they are "common experiences," as mentioned above. But most of us haven't been taught how to deal with them. And just because you have not had any attacks for years does NOT mean that devil has gone away. He will bide his time, wait for a new family or other opportune times to strike again - until someone closes that gateway.
To close a gateway, confess the sin (i.e. what activity that devil is responsible for, the activity that is tormenting you) to God, and repent (TURN AWAY) from it steadfastly. God gives strength, for example, to drug addicts who lack the physical ability to consistently turn away, but God gives strength to those who confess. (Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need. - Heb. 4:16). Having done that, then you stand (i.e. in your spiritual armor); you bind that devil and cast it out of yourself and your life
in the name of your Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ ("Devil of fornication, GET OUT." "Devil of gluttony, GET OUT", etc.).
Then you must forgive those who hurt you and/or allowed, however ignorantly, this spirit into your life. To whom ye forgive any thing, I forgive also: for if I forgave any thing, to whom I forgave it, for your sakes forgave I it in the person of Christ;
Lest Satan should get an advantage of us: for we are not ignorant of his devices. (2 Cor. 2:10-11).
Yes, prayer from other believers is important, but deliverance first begins with you. You must be willing to pick up your cross. If you are unwilling, and rely only on others, then their intercession will be thwarted. And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me. (Luke 9:23)
Godspeed, my friend.
