struggling badly.

[throwaway]

i feel vulnerable posting this. but i dont know where to turn.
i feel betrayed.
i do not intend to use this account more. i am using it to try to get protection and privacy as much as i can on public forum.
i worry any other accounts are traceable.
i became sick in the past year. and i had a scan which made my mom worry i had a cancer
now being sick still after most of my scans and tests are basically things you wait and keep checking, the word cancer feels used against me by my own mother.
my symptoms increased only to be told by my family....not doctors that i have to be burnt out and im autistic. or its allergies. if those things can cause symptoms like i have then maybe people would be right in wanting to cure autism (yes im being sarcastic here)
i feel betrayed.
with her bringing up cancer and implying doctors cant find anything wrong with me when its not really true at all. and she is acting like i am going often. i am not.
for me my symptoms match some specific things.
i feel like this is done to me on purpose because i already said that people need to make things easier for me so we can determine if its a true illness. now things are amped up with making me feel crazy instead.
people think my family are narcissists.
i never get a break from anything. i am being forced to work with feeling like i have no one to check on me.
i feel betrayed and hurt when something is used against me that is among my suspicions. that i do not talk about often and there are differentials.

 

[Angelina]

Father,
We bring Your son @throwaway to you in prayer. You see his vulnerability, his tired heart, and the weight he carries from feeling misunderstood, cautious or unsafe where he is. Surround him now with Your holy peace.

Lord Jesus, be his strong tower. Quiet every unsettling thought and remind him that your eyes upon him are that of love and comfort. Where trust has been broken, heal him. Let him sense your protection like a shield around his mind and spirit. Heal him of every infirmity and restore peace in his heart.

Holy Spirit, breathe comfort into the places he cannot explain. Steady his thoughts, strengthen his body, and guide him into truth and calm. Cover every fear with Your presence and anchor him in the knowledge that there is safety in You.

Father, let Your peace settle over him like a warm mantle. Let Your voice be louder than the confusion, and Your love be stronger than every fear.

In Jesus' mighty name, Amen.

 

[David in NJ]

Dear Lord JESUS, i join in prayer with my Sister Angelina in lifting Up to You our petition for @throwaway healing and for your spoken word to attend repel all thoughts not coming from Your Spirit.

@throwaway, find a quiet place to pray and ask the Lord Jesus Christ, in His Name, for healing and grace to assist you - Amen

 

[Wynona]

Praying now

 

[Debp]

Agreeing in prayer.