Just wanted to say hello this is my first post and would really appreciate others' thoughts It's been hard for me to get to the point that I feel comfortable sharing.
I had problems with lust as a teenager but didn't think much of it being a young man. When I professed salvation at 16 I asked for forgiveness of my sins, and believed that Jesus is the son of God, and I asked him to come into my heart and lead and guide me in all things. It was only a few days later that the lust issue popped up again and as I grew its outlet became pornography.
Here I am 30 years later and still struggling more often than not, and I feel incredibly bad because I can't seem to let go of the urge to watch it and now to make matters worse I've sought to have an online affair (that thankfully has been fruitless up to this point). Every day I pray that the Lord will help me with the urge but it doesn't matter how hard I ask, I always will break down and attempt to find someone or look at something that I shouldn't.
What it is that I'm not able to grasp here that will be the key to me overcoming this once and for all? It keeps my spirit in such turmoil that I'm miserable every day, and what's more, I'm in a position of leadership at church.
I'm truly not happy in sin, and not satisfied apparently in the spirit. Thanks for reading!
I had problems with lust as a teenager but didn't think much of it being a young man. When I professed salvation at 16 I asked for forgiveness of my sins, and believed that Jesus is the son of God, and I asked him to come into my heart and lead and guide me in all things. It was only a few days later that the lust issue popped up again and as I grew its outlet became pornography.
Here I am 30 years later and still struggling more often than not, and I feel incredibly bad because I can't seem to let go of the urge to watch it and now to make matters worse I've sought to have an online affair (that thankfully has been fruitless up to this point). Every day I pray that the Lord will help me with the urge but it doesn't matter how hard I ask, I always will break down and attempt to find someone or look at something that I shouldn't.
What it is that I'm not able to grasp here that will be the key to me overcoming this once and for all? It keeps my spirit in such turmoil that I'm miserable every day, and what's more, I'm in a position of leadership at church.
I'm truly not happy in sin, and not satisfied apparently in the spirit. Thanks for reading!