On The Path To Destruction: I Obeyed
I will be sharing very personal times in my life. Some will be in the form of dreams that I believe were sent to me from God and others will be when I have felt his presence. If I can turn one broken soul into a believer I have fulfilled Gods plan in my life.
I tell you that in the same way, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance. Luke 15:7
This is the first dream I recall:
I was in heaven and God came to me and pushed me out of heaven. I was falling for a very long time. I fell through the clouds. As I was falling I began to see the earth as if from a birds eye view. On the surface of the earth I saw a huge circle, it almost looked like the worlds largest well. As I drew nearer and nearer to the "well" I began to hear screams of torment. I kept falling until I hit the edge of the "well" and fell beside it on the grass. The grass was beautiful and a vibrant green, soft to the touch and swayed gently in the breeze.
I picked myself up and peered over the edge of the "well". The ear piercing screams were horrific. The smell was of death and a heat so miserable came bellowing from the "well". I now realized what I was seeing; ear piercing screams of torment, miserable heat and the smell of death. I was looking into the depths of hell.
Now in this time of my life I was nineteen - twenty years old; engaging with several sexual partners, and drinking to the point I was drunk almost every night. I thought I was living "my" life to the fullest.
I knew better than to participate in such behaviors, I had been saved at an early age and baptized when I was fourteen. Even though I knew better Satan used my insecurities and doubts to get the best of me. He tempted me and I gave in.
Many may ask what the significance of this particular dream may mean and why it has stayed with me for years in vivid detail? I believe this dream was from God and he was showing me that my sinful behaviors needed to stop at once! I was going to church on Sundays and willfully engaging in sinful behavior Monday-Saturday. I believe God felt sorrow for my actions and he knew where I was heading if I continued on this destructive path.
Remember we as humans have a free will to choose God or to choose the pleasures this world has to offer. God knows each of our hearts and I'm so thankful he gave me this dream to open my eyes to the destruction I was causing myself.
After this dream I didn't drink as often and I slept around less. Some would think that one would stop doing all behavior that defiled God, especially after a dream like mine. Satan's grip on me was starting to deteriorate. I continued to attend church on Sundays and little by little I repented from my wicked ways.
After the struggle between Gods way and the way of the world I met a very nice gentleman Justin Chapman who is currently my husband. I fell head over heels for him. I did what I knew best and reverted back to sex and drinking. I felt if I didn't have sex with him he wouldn't want to be with me. Justin was saved and baptized in high school, he too was under Satan's spell of pleasure, temptation, and ultimately sin. We had been dating and having sex out of wedlock for approximately two months and attending church on Wednesday and Sunday.
It was Easter Sunday in 2008 and we went to church as usual. God changed me for good that very day. He touched my heart and spirit and I obeyed his command for the first time. After a very emotional worship service and word from God, Justin and I headed back to my house. I could not stop crying; the whole drive home I prayed for God to give me the strength for what I was commanded to talk to Justin about. I prayed for His will to be done in my life and Justin's.
When we arrived at my house I felt that was the right time. Still crying I told Justin I could not continue to have sex with him, I told him it hurts God and is tearing me up inside. I told him I cared for him and I understood if he did not want to be with me. To my surprise he said he understood and that we didn't have to be sexually immoral anymore!
This was the first time I trusted in God and he came through for me. Justin and I married in July of 2008. We have trusted God with our lives and God is always faithful, never once has He let us down. Those dreams and encounters are for another time.
This entry is not to be copied unless I, Shawna verbally express that permission.
I will be sharing very personal times in my life. Some will be in the form of dreams that I believe were sent to me from God and others will be when I have felt his presence. If I can turn one broken soul into a believer I have fulfilled Gods plan in my life.
I tell you that in the same way, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance. Luke 15:7
This is the first dream I recall:
I was in heaven and God came to me and pushed me out of heaven. I was falling for a very long time. I fell through the clouds. As I was falling I began to see the earth as if from a birds eye view. On the surface of the earth I saw a huge circle, it almost looked like the worlds largest well. As I drew nearer and nearer to the "well" I began to hear screams of torment. I kept falling until I hit the edge of the "well" and fell beside it on the grass. The grass was beautiful and a vibrant green, soft to the touch and swayed gently in the breeze.
I picked myself up and peered over the edge of the "well". The ear piercing screams were horrific. The smell was of death and a heat so miserable came bellowing from the "well". I now realized what I was seeing; ear piercing screams of torment, miserable heat and the smell of death. I was looking into the depths of hell.
Now in this time of my life I was nineteen - twenty years old; engaging with several sexual partners, and drinking to the point I was drunk almost every night. I thought I was living "my" life to the fullest.
I knew better than to participate in such behaviors, I had been saved at an early age and baptized when I was fourteen. Even though I knew better Satan used my insecurities and doubts to get the best of me. He tempted me and I gave in.
Many may ask what the significance of this particular dream may mean and why it has stayed with me for years in vivid detail? I believe this dream was from God and he was showing me that my sinful behaviors needed to stop at once! I was going to church on Sundays and willfully engaging in sinful behavior Monday-Saturday. I believe God felt sorrow for my actions and he knew where I was heading if I continued on this destructive path.
Remember we as humans have a free will to choose God or to choose the pleasures this world has to offer. God knows each of our hearts and I'm so thankful he gave me this dream to open my eyes to the destruction I was causing myself.
After this dream I didn't drink as often and I slept around less. Some would think that one would stop doing all behavior that defiled God, especially after a dream like mine. Satan's grip on me was starting to deteriorate. I continued to attend church on Sundays and little by little I repented from my wicked ways.
After the struggle between Gods way and the way of the world I met a very nice gentleman Justin Chapman who is currently my husband. I fell head over heels for him. I did what I knew best and reverted back to sex and drinking. I felt if I didn't have sex with him he wouldn't want to be with me. Justin was saved and baptized in high school, he too was under Satan's spell of pleasure, temptation, and ultimately sin. We had been dating and having sex out of wedlock for approximately two months and attending church on Wednesday and Sunday.
It was Easter Sunday in 2008 and we went to church as usual. God changed me for good that very day. He touched my heart and spirit and I obeyed his command for the first time. After a very emotional worship service and word from God, Justin and I headed back to my house. I could not stop crying; the whole drive home I prayed for God to give me the strength for what I was commanded to talk to Justin about. I prayed for His will to be done in my life and Justin's.
When we arrived at my house I felt that was the right time. Still crying I told Justin I could not continue to have sex with him, I told him it hurts God and is tearing me up inside. I told him I cared for him and I understood if he did not want to be with me. To my surprise he said he understood and that we didn't have to be sexually immoral anymore!
This was the first time I trusted in God and he came through for me. Justin and I married in July of 2008. We have trusted God with our lives and God is always faithful, never once has He let us down. Those dreams and encounters are for another time.
This entry is not to be copied unless I, Shawna verbally express that permission.
