It was in that state between sleep and wakefulness—I knew I wasn’t fully asleep, yet I was trapped in an endless dream. I felt conscious, yet paralyzed, as if something from the Old Testament had seized me by the throat.
In the beginning, there was a spirit thing that wanted to get inside me, or take over my mind, I could see the blurry face in my peripheral vision, the thing trying to squeeze into my vision and occupy my mind, and I felt afraid. So I prayed to the Lord.
Then I calmed down, out of my previous feeling, but suddenly it was hard to describe, I felt a man holding a hammer on my forehead, He tapped my forehead with his hammer which is the gavel that judges wield during court trials.
And still the feeling of being strangled,As the hand of God lay upon the neck of Belshazzar, weighing out the debt of thy life.
I was strangled, lying on a medical stretcher, put on a respirator,Like the hand of God upon my neck,
And the cup of wrath forced down my throat—
I gasp for breath within this judgment.
Then I felt my soul leave my body, flying up and away, across the universe. Then I felt my soul leave my body, flying up and away, across the universe.In the process, I felt my sin, I lived in fear that I couldn't face God's judgment, In this fear I quickly fell back into my body.
Then I saw the fireworks in the sky, the beautiful castle, calmed down a little bit, but I didn't feel happy.
Then I came to a party, and a real-life comedian talked to me about secular values, and I said:" it is your will, not my will." And then he left from me. (I just remember his face, I don't know his name, his name means: message of king.)
Then I left the party and walked downstairs.A couple of guys coming up, Someone was trying to beat me. I pushed him away and said, I forgive you. So the scene downstairs was a vision of all the sins of the world, and it was like going to hell, I couldn't bear to see those scenes, So as I stood at the building's exit, gazing at the bustling world outside, I pointed first to the glittering prosperity before me, then back to the darkness behind—wordlessly bearing witness to all I understood.
I can't feel any happiness from the prosperity of the world.
Finally, I came to a children's room. There were many children. I held my chin and looked at everything in front of me. My unhappy mood disappeared, I felt infinite satisfaction,
But when I wondered, 'How could I possibly play with these little children?'—my body swiftly transformed into a child's."
Vision end here.
In the beginning, there was a spirit thing that wanted to get inside me, or take over my mind, I could see the blurry face in my peripheral vision, the thing trying to squeeze into my vision and occupy my mind, and I felt afraid. So I prayed to the Lord.
Then I calmed down, out of my previous feeling, but suddenly it was hard to describe, I felt a man holding a hammer on my forehead, He tapped my forehead with his hammer which is the gavel that judges wield during court trials.
And still the feeling of being strangled,As the hand of God lay upon the neck of Belshazzar, weighing out the debt of thy life.
I was strangled, lying on a medical stretcher, put on a respirator,Like the hand of God upon my neck,
And the cup of wrath forced down my throat—
I gasp for breath within this judgment.
Then I felt my soul leave my body, flying up and away, across the universe. Then I felt my soul leave my body, flying up and away, across the universe.In the process, I felt my sin, I lived in fear that I couldn't face God's judgment, In this fear I quickly fell back into my body.
Then I saw the fireworks in the sky, the beautiful castle, calmed down a little bit, but I didn't feel happy.
Then I came to a party, and a real-life comedian talked to me about secular values, and I said:" it is your will, not my will." And then he left from me. (I just remember his face, I don't know his name, his name means: message of king.)
Then I left the party and walked downstairs.A couple of guys coming up, Someone was trying to beat me. I pushed him away and said, I forgive you. So the scene downstairs was a vision of all the sins of the world, and it was like going to hell, I couldn't bear to see those scenes, So as I stood at the building's exit, gazing at the bustling world outside, I pointed first to the glittering prosperity before me, then back to the darkness behind—wordlessly bearing witness to all I understood.
I can't feel any happiness from the prosperity of the world.
Finally, I came to a children's room. There were many children. I held my chin and looked at everything in front of me. My unhappy mood disappeared, I felt infinite satisfaction,
But when I wondered, 'How could I possibly play with these little children?'—my body swiftly transformed into a child's."
Vision end here.
