My anxiety story

[Ernie]

My anxiety, particularly health anxiety started around 15 And now in my mid 40s .It started with a couple incidents in 9th grade...one being spraining my ankle, and being in bad enough pain that my parents took me to the hospital to see if it was broken, once there i had my blood pressure taken and the nurses eyes got huge because of how high it was. This was the beginning of my journey...i then developed a fear of getting my bp taken, I remember a follow up appt I would not let the doctor take my BP.

I also had a major fear of HIV during these years ...this same year i remember taking a razor of a family member and attempting to shave and cutting myself, a reaction of my dad saying "you don't want to use anyone's razor" threw be in a panic, especially since he was jovial and never worried, then going home to my mom who was somewhat the opposite in regards to fear to my dad. She started freaking out which in turn really pushed the fear and worry. I remember going to the family doctor and she said that I did not have anything to worry about in regards to diseases. So this all happened my 9th grade year. I did start seeing a psychiatrist around this time and was put on meds ...I remember him diagnosing me with OCD.

This all snowballed into the monstrosity of today in which I have not had a physical since high school and have not been in any doctors care except in the hospital due to a serious accident in 2007. I am mostly an out of sight out of mind type in regards to my health anxiety...except when something pops up. I do speak with a psychiatrist every once in a while because of being on meds still. I am most certainly not happy or proud of my fear of the docs.

I still struggle greatly with anxiety and it comes in seasons...

Is there anyone else who struggles with severe anxiety?

 

[ProDeo]

My anxiety, particularly health anxiety started around 15 And now in my mid 40s .It started with a couple incidents in 9th grade...one being spraining my ankle, and being in bad enough pain that my parents took me to the hospital to see if it was broken, once there i had my blood pressure taken and the nurses eyes got huge because of how high it was. This was the beginning of my journey...i then developed a fear of getting my bp taken, I remember a follow up appt I would not let the doctor take my BP.

I also had a major fear of HIV during these years ...this same year i remember taking a razor of a family member and attempting to shave and cutting myself, a reaction of my dad saying "you don't want to use anyone's razor" threw be in a panic, especially since he was jovial and never worried, then going home to my mom who was somewhat the opposite in regards to fear to my dad. She started freaking out which in turn really pushed the fear and worry. I remember going to the family doctor and she said that I did not have anything to worry about in regards to diseases. So this all happened my 9th grade year. I did start seeing a psychiatrist around this time and was put on meds ...I remember him diagnosing me with OCD.

This all snowballed into the monstrosity of today in which I have not had a physical since high school and have not been in any doctors care except in the hospital due to a serious accident in 2007. I am mostly an out of sight out of mind type in regards to my health anxiety...except when something pops up. I do speak with a psychiatrist every once in a while because of being on meds still. I am most certainly not happy or proud of my fear of the docs.

I still struggle greatly with anxiety and it comes in seasons...

Is there anyone else who struggles with severe anxiety?

I hear you, I suffered from panic attacks for 21+ years, divided into 3 periods of 7 years and each lasting about 2 years. It ended when I got a new medication, I still have to take one pill each day because of a gland in my brain which is lazy and does not produce serotonin enough, the pill stimulates the lazy gland.

Panic attacks are terrible, and the fear for an upcoming panic attack often becomes a self fulfilled prophecy, it is real hard to break with that. I lifted up a prayer for you.

 

[quietthinker]

The medication epidemic prevalent keeps certain players flush with money while the populace is duped.
Healthy eating, drinking, thinking and relationship is degraded by what is mistakenly understood as food (physically, mentally, spiritually)

 

[ProDeo]

The medication epidemic prevalent keeps certain players flush with money while the populace is duped.
Healthy eating, drinking, thinking and relationship is degraded by what is mistakenly understood as food (physically, mentally, spiritually)

There are thousands physical diseases, but somehow the brain is excluded from that? That's what I get from your words. A collective noun for the brain is chemical imbalances. The brain is a complex place. If you have those imbalances you need (the right) pills, if you don't depending how bad the imbalances are, you risk depression and/or panic attacks, if there are also underlying mental problems (traumas, loss, low self esteem) you need to talk too.

Depression runs in the family for 4 generations, my grand mother, my mother, me, and one of my daughters. With the knowledge we gathered we put her on the same medication at 18 years and since then she is fine, diagnosed with Asperger, two lovely kids and doing well.

 

[quietthinker]

There are thousands physical diseases, but somehow the brain is excluded from that? That's what I get from your words. A collective noun for the brain is chemical imbalances. The brain is a complex place. If you have those imbalances you need (the right) pills, if you don't depending how bad the imbalances are, you risk depression and/or panic attacks, if there are also underlying mental problems (traumas, loss, low self esteem) you need to talk too.

Depression runs in the family for 4 generations, my grand mother, my mother, me, and one of my daughters. With the knowledge we gathered we put her on the same medication at 18 years and since then she is fine, diagnosed with Asperger, two lovely kids and doing well.

Even the demon possessed were healed. I wonder if they did it with medication?

 

[ProDeo]

Even the demon possessed were healed. I wonder if they did it with medication?

I am used to get better content from you.

 

[maria878]

My anxiety, particularly health anxiety started around 15 And now in my mid 40s .It started with a couple incidents in 9th grade...one being spraining my ankle, and being in bad enough pain that my parents took me to the hospital to see if it was broken, once there i had my blood pressure taken and the nurses eyes got huge because of how high it was. This was the beginning of my journey...i then developed a fear of getting my bp taken, I remember a follow up appt I would not let the doctor take my BP.

I also had a major fear of HIV during these years ...this same year i remember taking a razor of a family member and attempting to shave and cutting myself, a reaction of my dad saying "you don't want to use anyone's razor" threw be in a panic, especially since he was jovial and never worried, then going home to my mom who was somewhat the opposite in regards to fear to my dad. She started freaking out which in turn really pushed the fear and worry. I remember going to the family doctor and she said that I did not have anything to worry about in regards to diseases. So this all happened my 9th grade year. I did start seeing a psychiatrist around this time and was put on meds ...I remember him diagnosing me with OCD.

This all snowballed into the monstrosity of today in which I have not had a physical since high school and have not been in any doctors care except in the hospital due to a serious accident in 2007. I am mostly an out of sight out of mind type in regards to my health anxiety...except when something pops up. I do speak with a psychiatrist every once in a while because of being on meds still. I am most certainly not happy or proud of my fear of the docs.

I still struggle greatly with anxiety and it comes in seasons...

Is there anyone else who struggles with severe anxiety?

Man, I feel for you, but avoiding the doctor since high school because of a scary BP reading at fifteen is a recipe for a disaster you won't see coming. Anxiety is a beast, but "out of sight, out of mind" doesn't work with internal organs. Props for staying on your meds, but you’ve gotta bite the bullet and get a physical—don't let a 30-year-old fear be the thing that actually sinks you.